Into the abyss I will go.
I am falling into darkness again.
I am sick of crying for everything…..but myself.
Why must we regress when we are so much better than this?

***

People only see the surface when they see me but….I don’t hide behind my gods
Yet, I fear that I am falling away from my goddess.
I want her light to be in me and surround me.
But am I really worthy of it?
Would I had a choice I would be one of her.
I cannot bear this.
I cannot do this
I cannot succeed.

***

Too long have I recoiled from life.
Allowing darkness to enshroud me.
I have nothing to gain, and no longer anything to loose
I now accept that I am alone.
Today.
Tomorrow.
Yesterday.
Always.
Alone.


***

So they think they want my company.
All they do is take life from me.
I will no longer give it to them.
Foolish I was.
The world disgusts me most days and I want no part of it.
Leave me to my ample dreams and foolish crafts.
No matter what I do I will never be good enough for anyone
I don’t expect understanding
I am sick of those who think they do


***

Did you really think I was an angel?
I know nothing of angels.
I care not.
Why should I when humanity annihilates everything that was once beautiful.
I cry for what Is lost.
I shake my head at the stupidity and senselessness of human choices.
Are there no others that live outside outside the box that can comprehend this?
Ah but it matters not.
I shall rant and bother you no more.
With my sad ramblings I shall go no and try to bring peace to others in darkness.
Only because I cannot have it myself….
Fair thee well…



Descent of a goddesss
~MLH
11-15-05