Back from the Dead? Well not really.
Mood:  not sure
I am still alive and well, just super busy! Sooo much has happened! Raja and I had a daughter, Rajata and she is almost 2! It's been a while! The Agency had sent some of the Ops away, including Raja and Jata but they are back now and we are trying to resume as normal a life as one can have where we are. Cheers! Natasha

It has been a while
Mood:  don't ask
Much has been going on here in 3. Kate has been gone for quite some time...Richard was actually tolerable, but now he is stuck being a peon and we have John, the b*stard now in charge.

Now, if you look in a dictionary under "meanest form of Satan ever", you would see a picture of John.

Not only did John think it was fun to play "God" by messing with the female ops birth control, but now he is telling us we won't even be allowed to raise them! At least my secret marriage is not in danger, since there is no record of a marriage to annul. The others, were not so lucky.

Believe you me, there is a secret team forming over this as we speak...but, I say too much. That's all for now.

I feel blah
Mood:  crushed out
On a mission...happy about that, but missing Alei, and despite my anger and complete disdain, missing Raja too.

Will this all ever straighten out?

I'm BACK!!!
Oh Ganesha, it's good to be back!

I am me, me, me!

Thank you Mikel! (and of course Raja, and Gabriel).

Thanks to this, I can get on with my life as I know it...with Raja.

Misha and Cindy are in love...I am happy for them!
Hope they stay!

A perfectly blissful night
Oh holy Maya! I just spent a perfectly blissful night with Raja! Now, without going into detail...let's just say, I've never felt like THAT before! wow! I just may be in love...

~*Natasha

Love in the Air?
Well, despite the fact that I seem to be somewhat normal here and there, I'm still messed up. The difference is that before, everyone had to TELL me that I had been and supposedly still was in love with Raja and now, well...I would venture to say that I'm falling for him all on my own, even without my memories. He's so good to me, sweet, attentive, hot, he's got an ass that would make anybody drool...oh yeah, where was I? he he he.

Okay, more later then...got things to do :)

Baxtalo nevo 2004 bersh!
That's Happy New Year 2004 in Rromani.

Well, the holliers (holidays for those of you who don't speak "Irish" *wink*) have come and gone...there were presents, fights, break-ups and make-ups, sex, laughing, crying...everyone had a hell of a good time.

Misha and Cindy went away for a few days *pout* but I don't think they got back together. As much as I hate to admit it though, Misha really loves Cindy...I don't think I have even a sliver of a chance as long as she's around. On the flip side of the coin, Raja is trying like hell to show me how much he cares about me. He sure knows how to treat a girl, that's for sure.

Went sparring with the new girl Myra the other day...the little whip split my lip...but I got her in the thigh a good one, knocked her on her ass twice too. (It's a really cute ass I must say). She knocked me down once, pinned me too...I didn't try to get up *wink*.

After knocking each other around for a bit, we went to Fitzer's for lunch and a drink, unfortunately, I had a half shift, so we couldn't hang out more...for some reason she said I didn't like her when she first came, but I don't remember why...in fact, from what everyone says, I don't really remember anything right since the beginning of December...seems my past 3 years of memories are screwed up. I've been told I have been acting differently too. Kate sure did a number on me I guess, what didn't she want me to remember? And what exactly did she do to my head? Raja, Cindy and Misha are determined to help me by finding out and fixing it. Raja especially wants me to remember...I guess I can't blame him...Mac told me over Yule that I had a two year or so relationship with him, from what she said a serious and very good one. Since Yule, others have confirmed this information. I can't remember being in love with Raja, in fact what seems to have happened is that I remember the events, but think that Misha was the man in the memories...how Kate did that, we just don't know.

After spending a few evenings with Raja, I can definitely see why I fell for him, even if I remember nothing. I'll keep you updated on our little project, as well as the rest of my life :)

Namaste! NaTasha

Latcho Kreschuna!
or Merry Christmas...Feliz Navidad!

Well all the presents are out, so now I can make a list of what I got! :D

From Misha: a porcelein music box with a dancing dark haired Gypsy...it has two keys, one key when turned plays Usti Usti Baba, the other plays Somewhere My Love (Lara's Theme-from Dr. Zhivago).

From Raja: a beautiful Kali poison ring with diamond eyes and a ruby tongue. The tongue is the part you push up on to reveal the compartment underneath the head...it's the coolest thing!

From Cindy: a Lakshmi statue/incense burner.

From Mac: amethyst earrings and a homemade vanilla candle.

I'd say I made out 'like a bandit'.

Off the subject of the holidays...I keep getting stange flashes behind my eyes, wondering if that has anything to do with my recent long-term memory loss...The last three years a sort of blurry and mixed up...but I'm not sure how to fix it, or if I need to.

Well, I'll let you get back to your Christmas celebrations...If you celebrate Yule, like I do, then Happy Solstice instead!

~*Natasha

Early presents
So, it seems as if some of us can't wait until the holidays actually get here to give presents!

Cindy got me a Lakshmi incense burner, it's beautiful and goes really well on my altar next to Kali and Shiva...

Misha and Cindy also broke up, good news for me??? Could be! We'll see I guess.

I guess I'll give Misha his present soon, but I'm trying to wait until a little closer to Yule. We'll see if I can wait that long! *wink*

I've still got Mac's present too, but I think I will definitely wait until Yule to give it to her.

Okay, if I keep talking I may reveal presents and we can't have that now can we?

More updates coming though!

Holiday Shopping
Went shopping with Misha today...he got the most beautiful present for Cindy...I can't tell about it yet, in case Cindy sees this! ;) I'm kind of jealous...he still loves her after everything she's done to him...he should be loving me instead...I mean, I love him, I wouldn't hurt him like she does. Not that she's a bad person, it's just the way things are in here.

I bought presents for Misha, Cindy and Mac. I got Misha a silver dragon incense burner and a black smoking jacket, the burner is exactly like the one I bought Cindy. I also got Cindy a dragon tapestry for her wall. Mac is also going to get a tapestry...it's a Celtic animal knotwork tapestry and a Celtic cross incense burner. I was also thinking I could give Cindy and Mac both a little sumthin' sumthin' in addition...if you catch my meaning ;).

Wonder if Raja will get me anything...I wouldn't even begin to know what to get him, but I bought him something anyway, he's pretty nice. I got him set of miniature Hindu statues, Kali, Shiva and Ganesha. Each one has a spot for a tea light candle in the front and at the front rim is a place for a stick of incense. I bought myself a set too because they were just too good to pass up. More later!