Things finally set to rest..
Today was a really bad day, nothing at work seemed to go write.. and well then there is the personal side of my life that well ended up ending better than i had thought they had. Steph and I broke up today.. not a horrable break up like the ones i've had in the past but a things would be better this way.. granted i dont like it there is nothing that could be done.. you cant help when someone is in love with someone else but in a relationship with you... it sucks and it hurts but life goes on.. i guess she thought i should have been mad and maybe i should have but what would that have accomplished.. nothing just the loss of a potental friend. and in the long run friends are what matter.

Steph if i ever let you read this, thank you again.. for the same reasons as before.. eventhough it was short it reminded me of the sweet (refer to the previous post). i wont ever forget that.

The sweet ain't so sweet with out the bitter.
One of my favorite quotes from a movie (vanilla sky for those of you that dont know). The question is when does the bitter stop and the sweet start? I thought that i had found the sweet recently but i think im wrong, nothing is wrong with her as far as what her personality is like but well there are things that are going on that i feel that on this comming sunday are going to burst wide open. Maybe i should end it before then.. maybe not.. i dont know.. it will probably be easier to do that then wait and get hurt again. we will see...

Secrets
Pronunciation: 'sE-kr&t
1 a : something kept hidden or unexplained : MYSTERY b : something kept from the knowledge of others or shared only confidentially with a few c : a method, formula, or process used in an art or a manufacturing operation and divulged only to those of one's own company or craft d plural : the practices or knowledge making up the shared discipline or culture of an esoteric society.

I dont know why im making my first entry in this about the word secret but i am. Its probably because of things going on in my life right now.. I appears that in the relationship that im in right now there is a secret that im not being told but seems to be making my Girlfriend half crazy.. sometimes though if there is something that has happened that could be a bad thing for someone to find out its better to just tell them vs them finding out on there own.. that tends to make matters worse.. espically if there is the possibility of them finding out on there own..