Howie’s point of view
It took a few seconds for the doctor’s words to sink in. We clearly were all
finding this hard to believe.
Brian’s point of view
I came back from telling Nick what was wrong. I saw the others expectant
faces looking at me.
Nick’s point of view
I turned onto my side, still in shock. Brian’s words still haunted me; “This
is permanent, Nick…... You’re blind! I’m so sorry, man!”
Kevin’s point of view
I walked into Nick’s ward, but found he was asleep. His face was wet, so I
guessed he had spent his time crying himself to sleep. I sighed sadly. It
was bad enough for him to become blind, but for this to happen when he was
this old, was worse. It would be harder for him to adapt to this than
someone who was half his age. I shook his shoulder to wake him.
Brian’s point of view
“Baby, try not to worry so much,” Leighanne insisted. “At least he’s still
alive!”
“No! There has to be some mistake!” Kevin exclaimed, not willing to face the
facts.
“I’m sorry, but this is a common case in some motor accidents. Like I told
you, no one has ever been cured of this,” the doctor insisted solemnly.
I didn’t know what to say. It looked like none of the others did either.
Brian suddenly turned and walked in the other direction.
“Where you goin’, Bri?” I asked, still in disbelief.
“To tell Nick,” he answered moodily.
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Kevin queried with concern.
Brian spun around, his eyes filled with rage, “Well, I didn’t hear YOU
volunteering to do it!!” He yelled.
We all looked at him in surprise. It was really affecting him, since he was
usually calm.
“Besides, he has to know about it sometime. It might as well be now,” Brian
stated, a little calmer, as he turned around again. “It’s his eyes we’re
talkin’ about!”
He left us to wait in silence until he returned.
“He took it badly,” I stated, collapsing into the nearest seat.
“What’d he say?” AJ asked.
I sighed, “Nothing much. When I told him what was wrong, it took about five
seconds to register, then he asked me to leave. I insisted I should talk to
him, or keep him company, but he just asked me to let him be alone again.”
“That figures,” Howie stated.
“Do you think I should talk to him?” Kevin questioned. He wanted to help out
so much. Probably because he felt responsible us all.
“Bad idea, Kev,” I informed him. “He really needs to be alone right now.
Give him a few hours.”
He nodded and sat down next to Kristin, who had arrived a little earlier
than everyone else with Kevin.
I couldn’t believe it. I’d lost my eyesight. I never thought being blind
could be so traumatising. Being so demoralised, I tried to curl up as small
as I could. It took me some time to realise I was crying. As far as I was
concerned, my life was over. Practically everything I enjoyed would be
nearly impossible; Basketball, dancing, playing on my Nintendo, drawing,
watching TV…..none of these would be anywhere near possible for me now.
Pulling my sheets around me, and tried to drift into sleep, where I wouldn’t
suffer as badly. I took what seemed like an age, but I finally fell into a
deep slumber.
“W...what?” he blurted out wearily, as he opened his eyes.
“It’s just me, Nick,” I reassured, but I was in some agony of my own. I was
concentrating on the blank, sightless look his eyes had. It was awful just
to think about what he must be suffering with.
“Oh, it’s just you, Kev,” he said, his tone full of resentment and anger. He
turned over so he was facing away from me. I wasn’t sure whom that
resentment was directed at.
“Nick, I was just seein’ if you wanted any help,” I claimed in defence.
“I’m not angry at you, Kev. I don’t blame you. I don’t blame anyone! I’m
just angry!” he dismayed.
“I suspect you’re in no mood to talk, then.”
“Look, I don’t want a lecture! I didn’t ask for your help! I just wanna be
left alone!” he snapped in reply.
I patted him on the shoulder comfortingly, “OK, Nick, I’m goin’” I said
softly. Nick merely pulled his sheet over his head. I shook my head in
helplessness as I left him to his thoughts. He clearly didn’t want my help,
or, at least, he didn’t want to admit that he did.
“I can’t help it!” I dismayed. “I just can’t even start to imagine what he’s
goin’ through!”
My wife grabbed my arm and dragged me to a seat. “We’re all worried about
Nick, but we have to be strong for him.”
“I guess so,” I sighed.
Leighanne just looked at me.
“OK, I know so!” I exclaimed.
Howie was sitting opposite me, “How’s your arm, Bri?”
“Better,” I replied half-heartedly. “I can’t get this off my mind. You see,
words weren’t all that important to Nick; it’s what he saw that mattered to
him sometimes!”
“It’s always the things you love the most that get taken away,” Howie
stated.