The days have seemed to fly by. It's been a month or so since Charlie went back to Cali. I miss her but we talk on the phone a lot. I still wish she would do what she wants to do, instead of letting her parents rule her life. But.. that is not my decision. I just hope that things get better for her. But on the upside of things, Ben and I are now going "steady" if you want to call it that. My love life seemed to have made a turn around and I couldn’t be happier. He's such a great guy and I look forward to each time that we get to spend with each other.

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I hated going grocery shopping. It seemed like a total waste of time plus I would have to carry everything in by myself. Juggling bags was not my fortay. As I clumsily tried to reach for my keys, the bag of rice fell and hit the floor, spraying rice everywhere. ‘Great.. just great’ I muttered. I finally reached them and unlocked the door. I hurried to the kitchen before I dropped everything else. I would clean up the rice later. As I was putting away the cereal, the phone rang. As I glanced briefly at the caller id, a smile crossed my face.

"Hey you..'

"Well hey yourself" with a chuckle

"What are you up to?"

"Talking to a beautiful girl...my beautiful girl"

"Aww.. thanks baby... " with a giggle " Hey umm... are you doing anything tonight?"

"What do you have in mind?"

" Well.. what about a dinner for two here at my house?.."

"Depends what's on the menu" I tease

"What were you thinking?"

"That we skip dinner and move straight on to dessert"

"I should have known you would say that.... hmm well.. I guess I'll just have to surprise you..."

"Ok...sounds like an offer I can't refuse...I'll be there about 7"

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Several hours later, I was slaving in the kitchen. I shouldn’t have to impress him, but I wanted to. I wanted this to be perfect. I had decided on a menu of Mexicali pork chops with rosemary garlic mashed potatoes, green beans and cheesecake. I knew I was over doing it, but I didn’t care, I just hoped he would enjoy it.

As the meat was still cooking in the oven, I went to get ready. I took a quick shower, checking on dinner as soon as I got out. I returned to my room and poured over the selection in my closet.

‘ What should I wear? Should it be revealing or not too revealing? Off the shoulder, strapless, sleeves.. hmm… too many decisions.'

Finally, I came across a dress I thought would fit the occasion pretty well. It was a form fitting black dress with a rhinestone halter strap. Not too revealing, not too concealing either. Hmmm, I thought, fairly satisfied with my selection.

I slipped into the dress, carefully applying the deordant, as not to get any on my dress. I hated when that happened. Then I turned to the mirror and worked on the longest part: the hair and makeup. As I was playing with my hair in the mirror, I had decided to pull it up with a clip and just leave a few strands out to curl to form my face. Then I carefully applied my makeup. I sprayed myself with perfume and walked to the closet again in search of some heels.

I almost had a heart attack when I saw what time it was. He was going to be here in about 15 minutes. I hurried down the stairs,and turned the stove back on to warm up the food and then went to fetch some candles to put around the dining room.

Knock, Knock

As I was pouring the hot food into the serving dishes, there came a knock on the door. Great.. right on time. Putting the pot in the sink and going to turning the stereo on low, I went to open the door.

"Hey" I say as my jaw drops ...she looks stunning..."You look beautiful" handing her a bunch of lilies. "We're having rice on the porch right?"

"What?" giving him a confused look. Suddenly, it dawned on me what he was talking about. "Oh.. I had a little trouble earlier...I must have forgot to .. Anyways.. no, we're not having rice. I promise. Come in... " and walking down the hall with the flowers. "And thank you for the flowers, they're beautiful"

Once she's put the flowers in water, I pull her towards me and kiss her gently...

"Mmm...sure you don't wanna skip straight to dessert?"

"The food will get cold and plus... the best comes to those you wait" returning his kiss and pulling away and walking into the kitchen.

I accept the fact that she's not going to change her mind and I help her carry out the remaining dishes.

"The food looks great" I comment and reach to open a bottle of wine.

"Thanks... want a taste? putting a fork full of mashed potatoes in front of him

I take the mouthful of food and fill up two glasses of wine and we sit down to eat dinner. We swap stories about each others days and then take into the most amazing cheesecake ever. Again I'm stunned when Natalie tells me she's made it.

‘a woman of many talents then’ "Well i have to say that was fantastic"

Smiling and coming over to him and giving him a quick kiss, "thanks babe"

I help her clear the table and when we start doing the dishes, she playfully chucks some suds at me. I have to get revenge on her somehow so after I pour us another glass of wine, I put the wine back in the refrigerator and quietly open the freezer and take some ice cubes out. I sneak up behind her and distractingly plant a kiss on her neck before I slip the ice down her back.

Screaming, as an the ice cube is melting and sliding down my back. "Benjamin, you little...that is cold!"

"Here...let me get that for you" I suggest and I slowly ran my hand down the back of her dress. Her skin is smooth to touch and I let my hand rest on the small of her back.

The touch of his hands running down my back was exhilarating. Tingling sensations were running through my body. He was so close to me. I feel his warm breath on my skin. By now the ice cube was pretty much melted and I didn't even notice all that much. I was too much taken in my his close presence and the sent of his cologne filling my lungs. I turned and took his hand and leading him into the living room.

"Dance with me". I say softly as the music keeps playing in the background..

I pull her towards me, enveloping her in my arms; our bodies begin to move as one. I lower my hands slightly, resting on her familiar curves as I kiss her...slowly at first. I deepen the kiss, pressing my mouth against her with an urgency.

As his tongue explored my mouth, I reveled in the taste of him. But I couldn't selfish, as I returned the favor. The sensations generated were heating up my body as the desire rose

I move my hands up her back above her dress, one hand moves to one of the straps on her dress. I give it a gentle tug.

I prayed he would touch me. I wanted to feel his hands on my skin. I drew my hand up and drew them through his hair.

My other hand found the zipper on her dress and carefully I tugged it loose a little and easily unclasp her bra. For a moment, I stop fiddling with her strap and run my fingers across her collarbone and down her chest until I feel the lace outline and my fingers trail it.

"I want you...right here right now" I whisper

I look up into his eyes and see the lust and desire yet still with the softness of love. I couldn't deny that I wanted it to. My body was igniting and I wanted everything that he could give me. Still looking into his eyes, I started unbuttoning his shirt. As the his shirt fell open, I ran my fingers over this his warm skin.

I can feel myself getting aroused and as I pull her zipper further down, I grab her hand and place it inside my jeans.

"Look what you're doing to me"

"And that's a bad thing? " and I start to massage him

Oh...hell...She was driving me crazy as her dress falls down around her...

"You're beautiful..."

Still kissing her, I guide her towards the couch and gently ease her down and I begin to plant kisses on her collar bone, trailing down.

The moment that his warm lips touched my skin, it was like the touch of fire. Each kiss was tender and sensual, setting me a flame . As he trailed down my breast bone, they ached with need.. I arched my back in response.

Moaning softly as my hands continued to explore her curves, I gently tugged on the dress clinging to her waist. I continued trailing kisses from her chest down to her stomach.

I could feel him squirming with delight as I continued. Licking my way back up his neck to emerce him again in a soft, yet passionate kiss. My hand sliding down his side to his pant line, taking my finger and running it slowly back and forth. Looking into his eyes as I did so, seeing his eyes flare with desire and arousal. Taking it a bit further, I slide down his body, making sure that I rub against him, I took my tongue and ran it over the same line, this time, I knew I had him...

‘Omg...what was she trying to do me? I moan as she slides down me and teases me with her tongue

"Oh baby...that's good"

I wanted to lose control, I was near losing it as it was. I had to have her. Reluctantly, not wanting to stop her from what she was doing, I help her so she's sitting on me. My hands caress her as our mouths crash together once more. I ease her backwards, running my hand along her inner thigh and once I'm straddling her, I plant kisses along the area where my hands just were. I shuffle my boxers and slide them down

"This is gonna be so good" I murmur as I reach for her panties.

As he is straddled in front of me, naked... and my god,... he was a masterpiece, he reaches up and starts sliding down my panties. Something must have hit me right square in the head. But I became suddenly aware that we were about to embark on something very serious, something scary, something I didn't feel ready for.. I should have known this was coming and put a stop to it, but I too was so far gone in desire, that I hadn't seen it. I reached out and put my hand on his wrist.

"Stop..." I say softly but yet with a slight scared urgency.