We quietly went the stairs to his room. I asked him if I could take a shower to wash away the ickyness that covered my body. He gave me some of his clothes and I went into the shower while he got dressed and made up the bed. The water was hot but it felt a bit cold to the touch. I scrubbed and scrubbed til my skin was almost raw.. to get rid of the unseen residue that covered me. I couldn’t take it anymore…I just sank down and cried. Nick couldn’t hear me through the sound of the water from the shower. Finally, I stepped out and dried off. I still felt icky but I knew that it would go away in time. I wrapped my hair in a towel and started to get dressed. I went over to the hook where I had hung up his clothes. I picked them up and inhaled the sent that only belonged to Nick. I loved the way he smelled , his cologne was just intoxicating. I smiled and now fully realized how much Nick loved me and that nothing would tear us apart and that I had the greatest man in the world. And with him by my side, I would be safe and secure and have no worries.
Nick , meanwhile, had gotten dressed and made up the bed and cleaned up his room some.. went over to the bathroom door and gave a quiet knock. He turned the knob and came in.
“Hey beautiful,” putting his arms around me and kissed me lightly on the neck.
”Hey you.” He looked into the mirror and saw that my eyes were red, puffy, and bloodshot.
“Are you sure you are okay? We can talk some more?”
“Yeah, I’m okay. No.. its ok , really.” Trying to smile to reassure him.
“okay then.. as long as you are sure..” He knew the instant he saw my face in the mirror that I was not ok . He knew that I had been crying while I was in there and felt bad although he knew that he couldn’t really take the pain away.
“You must be tired”
“Yeah, I’m actually exhausted., I know you are tired too, since I got you up and put you through this horrible night.”
“Let’s not talk about that now. You and I both need to get some sleep.”
We laid down on the bed, he pulled the blanket about waist high over us, I lied beside him and put my head in the crook of his shoulder, and he moved and put his arm around me. We laid there in the dark together, looking as innocent as two lovers can. I looked up at him as the moonlight shone down on us
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Soon after, I fell asleep, listening to his calm breathing and the steady beat of his heart.