Secrets Kept, Lies Told
Secrets Kept, Lies Told
"Where did Brian go?"
"Where's my book bag?!"
"Where's AJ, he has
my CD case!"
"Can we go yet?"
"Hey, no, that goes
in the back of the van, not in front!"
Alexa placed her bag
next to her on the curb as she sat down, putting her chin in her hands.
She'd been waiting the last half-hour to get on the van that was going
to take them all to the airport. But so far, the farthest she'd gotten
was outside to the curb.
"Where did Brian go?
He has to bring all his luggage down and return his room key!" Alexa's
mother exclaimed, walking back up the path towards the hotel.
Alexa sighed and sat
back, resting her weight on her hands. It had been a week and a half
since New Years and everyone's family had left a week ago. She was slightly
tired, the night before had been really quiet, but she had spent it alone.
She didn't know why, but lately she craved alone time. She was starting
to feel slightly crowded with the guys and her mother around all the time,
she wanted to get out on her own, she needed to be alone for a while.
"Can we go yet?"
Alexa asked again as her mother walked by, dragging a suitcase.
"Almost ready, Lexy,
you can get in the van, sweetie," her mother replied, stopping next to
Alexa nodded and stood
up. She carried her bag over to the van and got in the first seat,
shoving her bag underneath the seat. She pulled her legs up, hugging
them, and looked out the window to the snow covered trees. The snow
was slowly melting, but the sky threatened another storm.
"Ok, that's it, let's
go, everybody get in!"
Alexa ignored the guys
as they piled in the van, following her mother's instructions. She
didn't even notice when Kevin sat next to her and Nick sat behind her.
"What's wrong, Alexa?"
Kevin asked quietly as the chauffeur pulled the van out of the hotel parking
"Nothing," Alexa answered
quietly, still looking out the window. She ignored everyone around
her, trying to not let Brian and Nick's fight over the game boy annoy her.
"Are you sure?"
Alexa diverted her
attention from the passing scenery and looked up at Kevin. She could
only see concern in his eyes and she shook her head, holding back tears.
She leaned her head on his shoulder and cried silently as the long ride
to the airport commenced.
"Hey, Kev, what are
you so occupied with?"
Kevin looked up at
AJ as he sat down next to him. They were waiting for the plane to
take off and take them to Sweden, but only Kevin was incredibly quiet.
"I'm not too sure,
AJ," Kevin replied, ignoring the stewardess in the front of the plane as
she demonstrated the 'in case of an emergency' procedures.
"Feel like trying to
explain?" AJ asked, buckling his belt as the plane engines started.
"Well, you see, I don't
think I should," Kevin started.
"Because I don't think
Alexa would like it."
"If it has to do with
Alexa, tell me. She's my sister, Kev, if something has to do with
her, I ought to know," AJ insisted, suddenly getting an edge in his voice.
"Calm down, AJ, I'm
not even too sure what's going on myself. All I know is that during
the ride to the airport, Alexa couldn't stop crying. Maybe she's
just homesick for Orlando, maybe she is physically sick, or maybe she just
needed to cry. She was really upset, though, Bone, I've never seen
her that upset," Kevin said, admitting what he knew. He'd tried the
entire ride to get Alexa to talk, but she refused to say anything.
He just let her cry on his shoulder, knowing that if she wanted to, she
would talk. He felt awfully bad for her, though. 'Alexa's like
my sister, I hate seeing her upset,' Kevin thought. 'But what can
I do if she won't tell me what's wrong?'
"I have to find out
why, maybe she and Nick got in a fight or something," AJ said, trying to
Kevin stopped him.
"AJ, leave her alone. She'll tell us when she's ready to," he said
with a bit of a warning tone. He saw AJ nod and get comfortable in
his seat. Kevin looked back out the window, watching the clouds rush
towards them and the whitish scenery below him get smaller and smaller.
Alexa looked next to
her at Nick, who was finally asleep. She knew that he was scared
to fly, but she didn't know that he freaked to the degree that he did.
She got him to calm down, holding his hand and singing to him and letting
him listen to some music. He was finally asleep and Alexa was actually
happy that he was.
She looked around her
at the rest of the group. Kevin, AJ, and Howie were asleep, along
with her mother, and Brian was playing a game boy game and listening to
music at the same time. Alexa carefully got out of her chair and
walked towards the back of the plane to the bathrooms. She locked
herself in one and looked in the mirror.
She was getting thin,
drastically thinner than what she was a week and a half ago. She
wasn't hungry, though, she hadn't been hungry since New Years. She never
ate anything, she couldn't sleep, and she was lonely. Nick cheered
her up a lot, but at night, when everyone else was asleep, Alexa couldn't
sleep. She often grew so restless as to walk around the city or the
hotel at all hours, trying to keep herself occupied. That morning,
she'd been walking around the hotel and was joined by a young boy.
His name, he'd said, was Josh. He was only about ten or eleven and
said he was there with his parents on vacation. He explained that
he traveled everywhere with his parents because of their busy job.
He wanted to know why Alexa was up and walking around and she told him
the truth, which was she didn't know. Josh was such a sweet child
and, right before his parents came to find him to tell him that it was
time for him to go upstairs with them, he told her that maybe the reason
she was restless because she wasn't used to what she was doing. He
explained that he was restless a lot because of the constant change of
scenery and constant moving. He had been to fourteen different countries
in the last month and had only gotten a total of about fifty hours of sleep
overall. Josh left Alexa with a piece of advice, to tell someone
how she was feeling.
'How can I tell anyone
what I'm feeling if I don't know myself what I'm feeling?' Alexa
asked herself, leaning over. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to
shut out the awful feeling in her stomach and head. She took a few
deep breaths and straightened her back, looking at her reflection.
'I need to just get some sleep, then I'll be fine,' she thought.
She reached for the handle of the bathroom door and pushed it open with
difficulty. She walked slowly back to her seat next to Nick and sat.
She leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes, trying to block out the
headache she felt.
"Ladies and gentlemen,
this is your captain speaking, we're now landing in Stockholm, Sweden.
The current time is eight o'clock p.m., thank you for flying Delta International
and enjoy your stay in Sweden."
Denise yawned and stretched
her arms over her head as she felt a jolt of the wheels touching the runway.
She waited another ten minutes while people scrambled around, then stood
up and looked around the plane.
"Ok, Kevin, wake up
AJ, Howie, grab your bag, and Brian, wake Alexa and Nick up, please," she
ordered, stepping out into the aisle. She checked each person's overhead
compartments before walking to the exit, making sure no one had left anything.
"Hey, Denise, Alexa's
not waking up," Brian called.
Denise frowned and
placed her bag in the seat across from Alexa's aisle seat and shook her
daughter's shoulder. Alexa didn't flinch and Denise knelt down next
to her daughter. She smoothed back her hair as Nick woke up.
What's going on, why isn't Alexa awake?" Nick asked, panic seeping
in his voice.
Denise could hear alarms
going off in her head and put her hand on her daughter's forehead and cheeks.
She was relatively warm. Denise reached forward and touched Alexa's
neck and gasped.
"She's not breathing,
AJ, get an attendant!" Denise exclaimed, unbuckling her daughter's
belt. She dragged her daughter to the floor and straightened out
her body as people rushed around her, calling for doctors and help.
"Lexy, baby, please
wake up," Denise begged quietly, backing up as Brian and Kevin started