Secrets Kept, Lies Told
Secrets Kept, Lies Told
Brian woke up and looked
around the room, something wasn't right. He looked at the clock.
'Ten-fifteen, still pretty early in everyone else's opinion except for
my own,' he said to himself. He sat up and looked across the room
at Nick's messy bed. He never made his bed, he didn't see a purpose
in it, so he just left it a mess. But the problem with it today was
that it hadn't changed from the day before, it was the same mess.
And, Brian noticed as he stood up, Nick never came to his room last night.
'I would've heard him, wouldn't I?' He asked himself. 'Of course
you would've, where's Nick?'
Brian hurried to the
bathroom and took a quick shower. He got dressed and walked to the
door, opening it and looking out in the hall. No one was around and
he knew exactly where Nick would be. Brian hurried down the hall
and across the hall, knocking on a door as he arrived. He tried knocking
quietly, but then knocked louder. He tried the doorknob, but found
it locked. 'Damn, Nick, you better not have done anything stupid,'
he thought. Brian pounded on the door again and it finally opened.
"Brian, what do you
want? Its early," Alexa complained.
Brian asked quietly.
"I'm right here, what
do you want?" Nick asked, coming up behind Alexa and wrapping his
arms around her.
"You might want to
get to our room and now, otherwise Denise is going to be coming around
and she won't be that happy that you two spent the night together," Brian
"I don't care if she
finds out, Brian, that's why when I invited Nick to stay last night I was
careful to lock the door. If my mom wants to talk to me so bad, she
can either call or knock on the door. Now, if you'll excuse us, we
want to go back to sleep," Alexa said, starting to close the door.
"Nick, you remember
what Denise did when AJ spent the night with Amanda," Brian said, pulling
the last straw.
Nick nodded and stopped
Alexa from closing the door. "I'll see you later, ok?" He said
to her. He walked to the bed and picked his clothes up from the floor.
He gave Alexa a kiss and told her to go back to bed. He followed
Brian down the hall to their room and collapsed on his bed.
"Frack, you know you
could've gotten in a lot of trouble if I didn't come and get you?"
Brian said, more of a statement than a question.
"I know, Bri, please,
just let me go back to sleep," Nick said, rolling onto his stomach.
"Nick, you didn't sleep
with her, did you?" Brian asked.
"No, we slept in the
same bed, that's all, we didn't have sex. Good night, Brian," Nick
said firmly, turning his head away from him.
Brian sighed with relief
and walked away from Nick's bedside. He walked to the door and down
the hall to another room. He knocked on the door and it opened after
a few minutes.
"Brian, what's wrong,
honey?" His mother asked, giving him a hug.
"Mom, I missed you.
We need to talk," he said, hugging her back. He led her down the
hall and to the elevator, intending to take her out to breakfast.
"And so I don't know
what to do, I don't want Nick to get himself into worse trouble with AJ
than he already did, but then again I want him and Alexa to be happy,"
Brian said, finally finishing with the entire story.
"Are you sure he said
"Yeah, he was dead
serious about it, too. And this morning, I woke up to find him gone
and I finally figured out that he was in Alexa's room. I dragged
him back to his room and he told me he didn't sleep with her, they just
slept in the same bed. And that just convinced me even more that
he's ready to do that."
"Well, Brian, Nick
is a responsible adult, now, and Alexa seems like a very nice girl.
Maybe they should make this decision on their own."
"But Mom, he's my best
friend, and you didn't see what AJ did to him when he found out Alexa and
Nick were seeing each other. That was a month ago, now he's accepted
it, but I'm starting to wonder how much longer Nick can hold back."
"The only thing I can
really say is that I think they're too young, but if Nick thinks they're
ready, then who are we to stop them?"
"I know, but I just
don't want to see him get hurt again," Brian said.
"Talk with him, convince
him to wait a little longer, like until after the Europe tour finishes.
That tour's only two months long, he can probably wait until the end of
March, and if he can't, well, then that's his problem."
"I hope he can, Ma,
I hope he can."
"Aly?" AJ asked
as he quietly walked in the door. It had been unlocked and, after
no one answered after knocking for five minutes, he tried the knob.
He closed the door behind him and looked around the room, looking for his
sister. He spotted her, asleep on her bed.
"Alexa?" He said,
sitting on her bed by her head. He glanced at the clock. "Come
on, Aly, it's one o'clock," he said, shaking her shoulder.
"AJ, go away, it's
too early," Alexa groaned, rolling onto her other side, facing away from
"No, it's not.
Come on, Alexa, it's time to get up. Trust me, you don't want Mom
coming in here to wake you up, she has the worst tactics," AJ said, smiling
and trying to sit Alexa up.
Alexa groaned again
and sat up, leaning back against the headboard. "AJ, did you know
that you're so friggin' annoying?" She asked, rubbing her eyes.
AJ laughed and ruffled
her messy curly hair. "Yes, I do. I'm told that by an lot of
people, including the guys."
Alexa angrily pushed
his hand away and walked to the bathroom. "Quite understandable,"
she muttered as she opened the bathroom door.
"Hey!" AJ exclaimed
as the door closed. He chuckled and looked around Alexa's room.
She, unlike him, was actually very neat. Her clothes were all either
folded in her suitcase, hanging in the closet, or in a neat, folded laundry
pile. He walked slowly over to her backpack, which had a notebook
sticking out of it. He picked up the notebook and opened it, then
shut it quickly. It was her diary, something AJ knew to stay away
from. He put the notebook back in her backpack and sat on the bed
across the room.
'Ugh, my curiosity
is rising, I want to know what she wrote. But I can't, it wouldn't
be right. She's my sister, she'd probably kill me if she found out,
then she'd be wanted by everyone girl in the world to be used as fish food.'
AJ bit his lip and glanced back at the notebook as the door to the bathroom
opened and Alexa walked out wearing her bathrobe.
"AJ, you do have a
life, right?" She asked as she walked to her suitcase.
"Then go to it!
Out, out of my room!" Alexa said, shooing him to the door.
AJ walked outside the room and watched as the door was slammed in his face.
He shook his head and walked to his mother's room, to find out if she had
anything for him to do.
"Why do I have this
tremendous headache?" Nick asked into his pillow, making it hard
to understand him.
"Maybe because you
stayed up extra late last night with Alexa, then slept in her room, and
I had to come and get you before AJ or Denise found you two?" Brian
suggested, rather harshly.
"Oh, that's right"
Nick trailed off, rolling onto his side.
Brian shook his head
and gathered his clothes in his duffel bag, then walked out of the hotel
room. He took the elevator downstairs and to the laundry room.
He was in dire need of clean clothes and, since no one else would do them
for him, he had to do them himself. He loaded the washer and looked
at his watch. 'About a half-hour to kill, what to do now?'
He asked himself. He stashed his duffel bag next to the washer and
walked out of the laundry room and down the hall to the game room.
'Won't hurt to play a
little ball,' he said to himself as he
walked towards the small court. It was recently added and was
only half a court. 'But that's fine by me, its got a basket and a
ball, what more could I want?' He asked himself as he picked up the
basketball from the ground. He started dribbling and pretending he
was playing in a real game.
"Why, hello sleepyhead!"
"Ma, don't oh, all
right, as long as you don't call me Nicky, that's ok," Nick said as he
sat on the bed and laid back, looking at his mother.
"Nicky, get up, I just
made the bed," she scolded, smiling.
Nick chuckled and shook
his head as he stood up and walked to the chair. "You'll never learn will
you?" He asked.
"You won't either,
will you?" She retaliated.
Nick shook his head
again. "Nope, I hate it when you call me Nicky and no one gets away
with calling me that," he said.
"What about Alexa?"
"Alexa.... Alexa is
different. She is really the only person I like to call me Nicky,
and she doesn't over-use it, either. She knows when and how to push
my buttons, and I know when and how to push hers," Nick said, suddenly
becoming serious. He really loved Alexa, he wondered if it was enough
"What are you thinking,
Nick?" His mother asked, looking at him, concerned.
"What? Oh, nothing,
just... Ma, how did you know you were in love with Dad?" Nick asked.
"Well, it was like
there was a connection between us that no one else had. We were near
inseparable, you couldn't see one of us without the other. We just
knew, basically, there aren't any real signs, just a feeling, an indescribable
one that you just know when you feel it. Why do you ask?"
"Because I think I'm
in love with Alexa."
His mother froze for
a moment, then walked over to him and squatted next to the chair.
"Are you positive?" She asked quietly.
"Yeah, I think so.
I mean, all I can think about is Alexa, I wake up and the first thing that
pops in my head is her. I go to sleep at night, thinking of her.
I could be doing a show and she'll be in my head the entire time.
I really think I do love her, Ma, and to tell you the truth, its kinda
"I don't know.
I mean, it's a different feeling than I've ever had before. Everytime
I'm with her, we have the best time, and when we're apart, I just want
her with me. When we are together, we don't have to do anything or
go out anywhere, we could just sit there and be with each other and that's
enough. We'll just sit and watch movies, or pig out on Butterfingers,
or just talk. Its like I can't get enough of her."
"Nicky, listen to me,"
his mother said, turning his head to face her. "I just want you to
remember this: whatever you do, whatever decision you make, do it wisely
and know that I support you a hundred and ten percent, ok?"
Nick nodded and gave
her a hug. "Thanks, Mom, I needed that," he said. He stood up and
walked to the door and closed it behind him. He walked back to his
room and sat on the bed, thinking about Alexa and the upcoming tour venue