Being In The Band
Being In The Band
"What a girl wants, what a girl needs, whatever makes me happy and sets
you free. What a girl wants, what a girl needs, whatever keeps me
in your arms." Lizard sang along with the song that was playing from
the store as she passed on her way into the hotel. She hummed the
rest of the song as she walked to the elevator and pressed her floor, riding
up. She walked down the hall to her room and opened it, closing it
behind her as she walked in. She put away a pint of her ice cream
and a candy bar before sitting down on her bed and pressing play on the
VCR. She sighed, opening the first pint of ice cream and spooning
out a little. She smiled as the little girl on the screen came in
sight of her father, covered in mud. A few minutes later, she was
reaching for the tissues, sniffling before the next scene started.
Lizard was really getting into the movie, and she barely noticed when someone
knocked on her door.
"I'm coming," she called when she finally heard it. She paused the
movie and set her ice cream aside before walking to the door.
"Lizard, can I use the phone?"
Lizard flinched, Nick was standing in front of her, shirtless, his face
bright red. "Yeah, but no one’s here, they all went out," she said,
ushering him in.
"They left? Dammit!" He exclaimed, walking in and throwing
his gym bag on the floor. Lizard jumped before closing the door.
"Yeah, they left a good hour ago," she said, gesturing to the clock.
Nick sighed. "You know, you’d think it might kill them if they bothered
telling me these kind of things," he said, running his hands through his
wet hair. "I was in the gym all day, they told me nothing," he explained
as she looked warily at the towel draped over his shoulder.
"Oh," Lizard said, going back over to her bed and picking up her ice cream.
"Which movie are you watching?" Nick asked as she reached for the
"Ever After," Lizard answered, not looking at him. She pressed play
and turned her attention to the movie as Drew Barrymore swam in the lake.
"Oh," Nick said as he sat down behind her. Lizard tried to ignore
his presence, eating her ice cream slowly. It was about half-gone
when she lost her appetite for it.
"Here, you want this?" She asked Nick, holding out the pint container.
"Thanks," Nick said, smiling. He took it out of her hands, his fingers
brushing hers. Lizard quickly pulled her hand away and stood up,
getting the two Butterfinger bars from the fridgerator and tossing one
to Nick, then sitting in front of the bed, as far away from Nick as she
could manage without being too obvious.
It was at the part where Danielle was taken away from her home when Lizard
noticed that Nick was sitting right behind her head, gently playing with
her hair. She didn’t object, rather let her head lean against the
end of the bed. She closed her eyes slowly as his hands moved from
her hair to her shoulders, massaging them gently. She relaxed her
body and before she knew it, Nick was sitting between her and the bed,
massaging her lower back.
"Shh," Nick whispered, turning her face towards his and lying a finger
on her lips. Lizard looked in his eyes moments before their lips
And then it happened.
"Wait, I-I-I can’t do this," Lizard said, breaking away from him.
She hated doing it, but the reality struck her hard, she couldn’t be doing
this, she could get in a lot of trouble for it.
"Please, Liz, I don’t want to put this off anymore," Nick said quietly,
reaching for her chin again to turn to him.
"No," Lizard said, standing up and walking away from his reach. "Just
leave, Nick, I don’t want to deal with it, nor can I again," she said,
pointing to the door. She felt like running over and sharing another
kiss with him, but she knew she couldn’t.
Nick slowly stood up and walked over to her. "Liz, please…I’ve waited
a long time, I can’t put it off anymore. I want you so bad that I'm
going crazy. Please, Liz," he said, finally approaching her, backing
her against the wall. "I don’t know when it happened, or where, but
I can’t do this without you…I need you," he whispered, leaning down to
kiss her. They met, the softest and sweetest kiss either had ever
experienced. The feeling was there, the place was right…but the timing
"I-I…I can’t do this," Lizard repeated as she broke away from him, trying
to push him away from her.
"Liz, we can make this work," he said, trying to stay with her.
Lizard’s eyes filled with tears. "No, we can’t!" She exclaimed,
finally succeeding in pushing him away, and running to the door.
She ran down the hall and to the elevator, hitting the down button a few
times. It didn’t come fast enough and she heard Nick calling down
the hall for her. She ran away from the elevators and to the stairs,
kicking open the door and running down the stairs. She ran out at
the bottom floor, not stopping until she’d reached the park across town.
Once she had gotten there, she sat at a bench and cried. Cried because
her heart was broken, cried because she missed her parents, cried because
she was home sick.
She cried because she fell for Nick and she couldn’t have him.
Tommy got out of the cab in front of the hotel, followed by the rest of
the band and the guys, then walked to the elevators. As they reached
the band floor, the doors opened, and he instantly knew something was wrong.
It was too quiet…something had happened.
"Nick?" Tommy said as he passed Lizard’s room. The door was
standing wide open and Nick was sitting on the floor, his knees hugged
to his chest, a sad look on his face.
"She said no, Tommy, she said that she didn’t want to be with me," Nick
said quietly, sniffling and holding back tears.
Tommy cursed under his breath as everyone came up behind him and saw Nick.
Brian fought his way through the small crowd and helped Nick stand up,
practically carrying him to the elevators, not saying a word.
"Dammit, it didn’t work," AJ said, watching as Brian and Nick disappeared
inside the elevator to go up to the next floor.
"No, it didn’t. And this time, it wasn’t Nick who made that decision,
it was Lizard," Tommy said.
"Why? She really liked him, a lot, and it would’ve only taken a little
push to either of them to hook them up," Mindi said as she walked in the
room and surveyed the scene. "I think they watched another movie
together, and ate ice cream and Butterfingers. God, I swear, those
two," she started, shaking her head.
"Come on, guys, let’s go to bed," Kevin said, clapping his hands on AJ’s
and Howie’s shoulders. AJ nodded and bid everyone a good night before
starting for the elevator with his two friends. He thought about
what had possessed Lizard to say no, and he could only think of one thing.
‘She’s scared…she’s very scared and she won’t recover unless she faces
the fear. In this case, that would be Nick.’