About The Creator
My name is Teesha Lyn Hoffman. I have lived in Edison, New Jersey since I was born. I am 18 years old. My favorite things to do are watch anime, take care of animals, be with loved ones, and just enjoying what I can in life.
One night I was talking to a friend... and the subject of situations we have been put in came up. It was that conversation that inspired me to create this site. That person knows who she is and I thank her for inspiring me. Also for helping with my wording. ;)
I'm quite unsure of what to say here... so I suppose I'll be blunt with everything?
I have clinical depression. I talk to animals as if they are human. I'm lazy most of the time and although I love my family very much, I tend to get extremely mad at my mother most of the time. She knows how to push buttons. Me and my father are very close.
I'm sort of the oddball in my family because I have two older brothers who have always done everything in perfect unison together.
They both had jobs when they were 14 and even knew how to drive already! (They were car freaks...) They had 2 girlfriends that hurt them both badly and they recovered with a second one in which they are both engaged to right now. They both graduated out of school and both work at the same business.
And here I am. My first job was this year at 18. I've had SEVERAL relationships and several partners (not as in intercourse) although I don't enjoy admitting it. But I can admit my own faults and accept them I suppose. I also dropped out of school and I've attempted suicide.
It puts a stance on my family how different I am from my brothers I suppose.
Music is my life. When I get angry I listen to it. When I'm happy I listen to it. I enjoy pretending that I'm in this daydream world that I am the singer and everyone is listening to ME. I don't know what that's about, but I do it.
I have a boyfriend whom I love very much and has given me a new inspiration in life. He knows about what has been done to me and he spends every minute of every day trying to make it better..
I was sexually molested from ages 11 - 13 and I know how it feels to feel eyes on you all of the time. As if everyone knows. And in my case, they probably do. Because although it's a personal situation, I feel that me being open about it, will save lives. And saving lives is more important to me then keeping quiet and letting people feel as if they can't talk.
I am a lover, not a fighter. I feel that the world is a very... well... screwed up place currently. Sure it can be wonderful as well, but many people see the negative more then the positive.
That's why I'm here. To show that the negative things should be allowed to come out freely without being terrified.
Let me tell you, my molester had guns in his house. I was 11 years old being touched and I the thought of him having guns in the house ruined me for life. If I told, would he kill me...? Honestly, It was possible... but for 13 years old (when I told)... I think I took enough of what was going on I took enough of the touching and the fear of even being in my own back yard.
It's sad... it really is. I lost three years of my life which could have been wonderful had it not been for him. I cried in court while he watched me once. I remember his face and I remember him staring at me in there as well.
It's unbearably disgusting. How can a person do that?
This topic is not the only topic I know well. I also know suicide and depression well. Last year I made a speech in front of the entire Freshmen class of my High School. Of course I got the feedback's of "What's wrong with you?" and "You're stupid for doing that"... but the fact that 6 people came up to me in the halls during that year and said thank you, made it all worth while. The feeling of saving lives that can be helped makes this website and my life worth while.
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