[x] 04.02.2003 [2:01 am]

You Don't See Me

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and aching
And tumblin' and breakin'
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?
This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
And this is the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish that I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you....








[x] 03.29.2003 [10:49 am]

Where has my inspiration gone?






[x] 03.22.2003 [11:36 pm]


I love you like a fat boy loves cake. LOL.








[x] 03.21.2003 [10:36 pm]

I'm needin' some love to nourish this heart of mine.
I guess that's asking for too much.

I wanna be drowning in your love again.


[12:15 am]
Befuzzled. =\








[x] 03.18.2003 [12:08 am]

Boring.
This page is starting to bore me.
Haha. Must think of something new.

Check back for updates!








[x] 03.15.2003 [5:46 pm]

Can't stop thinkin' of you.
My heart longs for you.
It's aching because you are not here with me.
In your arms is where I belong.


[2:04 am]
Having trouble falling asleep.
Dreamin' of my baby n' hoping he's alright.

I'm here missing you, but do you miss me too?








[x] 03.14.2003 [8:23 pm]

Love keeps blossoming in this little heart of mine that's overflowing with love.

I can't help but think of you; just can't get you off my mind.
I can say that I've thought of you a thousand times,
but that would not be true...because you've never left
my mind since the very first moment I laid eyes on you.
It's only been a few hours, yet it seems as though it's been forever already.
How would I last without you? Simply, I can't.

Without you I'm incomplete: missing you like crazzzy.


Tell my baby I said *good night*.






[x] 03.07.2003 [8:10 pm]

Bullshit.
Absolutely nothing but bullshit. 







[x] 03.01.2003 [10:27 pm]

March already. Wow, does time fly. Almost another year older.
Smile? Cheer? Whoop? Grin? Frown? Dunno if that's a good thing, or a bad thing?
Sometimes, I think I'm getting too old, too fast... But life is a never-ending journey.
Gotta keep moving -f-o-r-w-a-r-d-->.


"Life's just a blast 'cause it's movin' really fast
so ya better stay on top or life'll kick you in the ass.

- Limp Bizkit, Take A Look Around





If you are here, you might as well
sign the g-book n' let me know that you've _dropped by.

*Winks*.








[x] 02.26.2003 [7:25 pm]

Somewhere inside of me,
I must have the strength to make it through this.
I am finding that strength.

Love takes time.
You cannot make someone love you;
you can only make yourself someone who can be loved.


[9:17 pm]
Nothing's heavier than the guilty man's burden.
Nothing's more painful than to live your life in regret.


Smile.
Life's too short to dwell on the past
or the moments that are no more.
Time waits for no one.

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.
Don't let the past create the future, let the future erase the past.








[x] 02.23.2003 [1:19 am]

You can strip me of all my possessions,
but there is one thing that nobody will ever
be able to take away from me...

....and that is the love I have for you.

*143637*








[x] 02.22.2003 [6:38 am]

Calm.
I feel so calm right now dat it scares me.
I will not cry; I will keep smiling.

A whirlwind of emotions.
That's what I've been feeling lately.
One minute, I feel this; the next, I feel that.

Confusion.
Things seem a little more stable right now,
but this could all just be a delusion.
I've learned how fast things can change
and that not everything is forever....
I've got to cherish what I've got, while I still have it.
I've got to use my time wisely, because time waits for noone.

I've opened up my __eyes.
I've opened up my __mind.

Thanks for being honest with me.

My heart.
I will not be afraid to feel
because feelings aren't meant to be controlled.
No matter the pain; this will only make me stronger.

Even when ^others have given up on you,
^you musn't give up on yourself.








[x] 02.20.2003 [6:58 am]


I will not cry for what we've lost,
but instead I shall smile for what we had.
I will not be sad that you have left,
but instead I shall be happy that you were here.

I will not bother to try n' stop what i feel,
because in this heart, love is here to stay.

Always n' forever you'll be the one in my heart.








[x] 02.17.2003 [12:53 am]


A ray of light; a shimmer of hope.

It is during the most tough of times
when I need to hold strong to my faith.

I shall make the impossible... possible.










[x] 02.14.2003 [11:56 pm]

Happy Valentine's Day!
I LOVE YOU.
*smooches + cuddles*

A simple hug from you makes ev'rything alrite.
I need more hugs :)









[x] 02.10.2003 [9:49 pm]

Pisces Profile:
http://astrology.yahoo.com

Pisces is a Water element, ruled by mystical Neptune!
This sign is extremely receptive, nurturing, compassionate,
and other-directed. As with Scorpio, we have to explore and
probe to find out the depths of this water. Pisces feelings
run very, very deep. Without balance, Pisces can sink
into the whirlpool of emotion. This can bring out hidden fears
and insecurities. Lack of ego-strength can make Pisces feel
dependent and helpless. Then they can fall into the martyr trap.
Pisces benefit by truthfully sharing their own difficulties,

Horoscopes are so true sometimes. Yet, I still ain't superstitious. Haha.










[x] 02.08.2003 [8:31 pm]

To define oneself. To be unique. To be different. To be yourself n' not someone you're not.

That is becoming so cliche. Everybody says that. "Don't copy others, but be who you really are". Right. Everybody's trying to be different and be "our own person". So if we're all doing the exact thing [being different] then doesn't that mean in the end...we still end up all the same? Think about it this way. First, we are all the same right now - copying each other. Next, we're all trying to be "different" and "unique" - one person starts a diff trend, others follow. So the result, we're all striving for that same "difference". Hence, the conclusion is, we're STILL all the same no matter what. There is no "difference".

Don't be a follower. Be a leader.








[x] 02.07.2003 [9:56 pm]

Everything reminds me of you.
Can't stop thinking of you [xoxo].







[x] 02.05.2003 [7:32 pm]

The WORST is over!
No more tests. No more shots. No more fitness testing. Whoohoo!

Hahaha. Happiness :) Unexpectedly had to run my 6 laps today. It wasn't as bad as I expected. It was actually relaxxxinnng. Haha, you must think I'm crazy, but yea. It was goooood. I ran the whole thing non-stop, too. *Grin*, so proud of myself.... not. I did worst than last time. *Grrness*!. That sux, but oh well. I expected it already. Haha. Blame it on the b*tch who made us run it, while everybody else gets to omit it. My class has PE first block, too :: chilly, cold, foggy, sunny, tiredness, aching muscles, sleeeeepy. How gay. But that is alright, I guess, cuz now I don't have to worry about it anymore. Yayyy! It's over and done with! Dum de do...had my s h o t s right after the laps. Hahaha. I couldn't wait to get it over with. There I was sittin' in dat chair all ready to go, while that stupid nurse is busy talkin' to some other nurse. Geeze, I wonder if she's even qualified to be a nurse. I had to watch all these needles pokin' into other ppl while waitin' for my shot to come. What a bum. It's numb. Sort of hurts? Sometimes when I move it, I guess. Haha *owwiee*. Nobody betta punch or hit me in the arm, or I'll get you back! Hahaha. I do NOT wanna play shot for shot..lol. Dun get you guys who do dat. Pain is NOT fun! Haha, to me at least =P

Omfg, legs are sooo sore!
It's not from the 6 laps. That was fine.
I'm still suffering from Monday -- sprinting!
Pulled a muscle mb? Ahhhhhhh, feel the p a i n.








[x] 02.03.2003 [4:17 pm]

Tiredness. Fitness testing. Mid-terms. Tests. SHOTS!
Ahhhh, nooo! Not so scared of the pain anymore,
thnx to someone - hugz! Comfortin' helps a lot *hehe*.
But, it's the after effects dat scare me - numbness,
dizziness, fainting! I have 6 laps right after!
Blah, gayness. What a stressful n' exhausting week.
And it's only MONDAY today! Darn. Oh well, s'all good.
'Cause next week we have a pro-d day and we can relaxxxxx.
Ahhhhhh. Fab-u-lous.









[x] 02.02.2003 [9:28 pm]

GUNG HAY FAT CHOY!
Haha, yes. I'm a day late, but it's all good. =)


Invaluable lesson: You cannot make someone love you,
you can only make yourself someone who can be loved.

*more later*








[x] 01.29.2003 [10:45 pm]


Listen to the melody and feel the words.

I'm not afraid to fall
It means I climbed up high
To fall is not to fail
You fail when you don't try
Not afraid to fall
I might just learn to fly
And I will spread these wings of mine.

- "Fall Down" by Superchic[k]