My True Feelings
Saturday, July 16, 2005
I met up Mr L for lunch. He pass me a big paper bag, where there is 2 big packets of sweet, one ginseng sweet and the other korea sweet. Also, he bought the tea cup for me in korea plus the english breakfast tea that he didn't wan which we bought from UK.
When I came back to office, Uncle and Sean saw me with a big bag of paper bag. Sean joking said that I got a bf. But I explain that he wasn't my bf and he has a gf and getting married this year. But after i know him, he didn't talk abt it liao.
From there, the gossip started. I explain to everyone in the office. Everyone started to pinpoint me, say i shouldn't be the third party. I didn't. I know I can't be third party. So i already back out. No one know what had actually happened. No one can really understand wat i feel. I already make my decision before he pass me the things. I just wish we can remain as frenz. A frenz that stood by me when i need help. But they wants me to cut down the lunch appointment with him. Wat the F***?
They keep insisting the advice is good for me. But we aren't doing anything wrong. Haiz.... Forget it.. No explanation needed. Or I dun wish to explain anymore. Say watever you wan. I dun care liao. I complain to Mr L. I dun understand Y is there such a big impact in the office?
I met up with Miss L to accompany to Robinson cocktail party. They were promoting Orgin product. Ha, Mr L, I know you wanna laugh liao. Be careful hor. Pple might thought u siao if you laugh in front of the pc. Bleh.
I wasn't really keen on their product that they are selling. They have those products for puffy eyes, cleanser, etc.... Though the products was quite good(Miss L recommended), I didn't buy as I was still using my doctor prescription which I had paid $300 for it. As my doctor prescription really works for me, I see no point of trying those products that I never tried before. Y not I just stick to my doctor prescription? though expensive, but I dun wan to see my face outbreak again. But I just dunno wat to tell Miss L who always keep recommending me to use this and that.
We went to Japanese resturant and have dinner. I was complaining about the matter in the morning. It was damn horrible to have such gossip in the office. My frenz just feel nothing wrong. My colleagues were making a big fuss. I think is becoz my colleagues all are married. That's y they are complaining....
We went to have coffee at star bucks.
Me: So far in my whole life, I feel that he is the nicest. Stable job, got savings, caring, nice, although he is flirt but he is faithful to a gal.
Miss L: Too bad lor, his heart dun belong to you lor. Belong to aother gal, I**.
Me: Ya... really sad lor. If he belong to me, I already satisfied liao. Just think of it lor. A guy can go out flirt around, but if he still come back to your side, wat more do you want?
Miss L: *think for a while then agreed with me*
ya lor
Me: Anyway, I let him go.... Becoz i dun wan him to think of her when he was with me. Or end up breaking up with me and went back to I**. I see him in pain when he was deciding between the 4 of us. And I know I dun stand a chance, so I had to let him go.
Miss L: wow... 4 of you?
Me: ya lor... *listed out the 4 names to her*
Miss L: anyway is over liao
Me: Ya.... now seeing him happily attached, also glad for him.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Mr T: ya miss fish and chips rite
ha
Me: no wor
now pple treat i also dun dare to eat ah!
till now i didn't eat fish and chip leh
Mr T: then i treat ya loh
Me: ok
set
u treat
:P
Mr T: tamade
Me: hahahaha
Mr T: i treat ya eat
Me: lalalalalala~~~~
Mr T: other treat dont wan
Me: of coz
Mr T: ya still owe me a meal leh
Me: even mr L or other friends' treat, i also dun wan fish and chips
lalalalala~~
Mr T: wah liao!!
i look like carrot meh
Me: no
y say that
just becoz u treat me?
hahahhaha
Mr T: yah lah
me: dont care
who ask you to dare me!
humpf
lalalalalalala~~~
Thursday, July 14, 2005
I met up my younger sister for dinner as mum is not free to cook.
We went to Hereen to have sakae sushi. My younger sister was grumbling all the way asking me y i choose orchard rather than city hall area as she is working there. Argh... treating her and yet so many questions? *Faintz*
After dinner, we went to shop around orchard as my younger sister wanted to look for her shirt.
Sis: where the D*** shop is?
Me: Dunno leh
Sis: You often comes to orchard one leh. Can tell me dunno???
Me: If you ask me where is Zara or GG5 or Myphosis or those branded shop, I can answer you leh. But D***, i dunno. The clothes they sell too cheap liao lah! Can't afford the rental in Orchard!
Sis: wah liew......
When the clock strike 9++pm, we went off to take train home. On the way, we saw an old man carrying umbrella, with his pant folded up a little.
He walked past me to the other side of the door and keep using his butt to bang the door. I turned over to look at him, then turned back.
*His Butt bang the second time*
My lips was telling her, siao lang. My younger sister peek over my shoulder to look at him. Then he started to talk in hokkien.....
Everyone started to look at him and turned over.
Finally he got off.... Phew~~~ I was damn near him.... Hearing all his hokkien words and kept banging the MRT door really irriated me.
Sis: You know wat he talking abt?
Me: he said something like all pple dun work or something
Sis: No lah. He said all the pple all work for govt. Work for govt No use one.
Me: huh????
Finally back home....
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Early morning, I already had diarrhea. Went to the toilet frequently till I quite scared that i stopped drinking the tea that I bought early morning. Fortunately, I didn't buy any breakfast.
We went to Tuk Tuk Resturant for lunch as it is one of our colleague birthday. Haiz... I couldn't order Tom Yum soup nor spicy food, therefore, order a plate of pineapple rice. The craving of Tom Yum soup was so untolerable, but for the sake of my stomach, I shall bear with it.
After work, I meet up with my sec sch friends for KTV session. The moment I stepped into the darkness of the KTV room, I saw my friend's cheek. *Shocked* It was sooooooo red. The room was quite dark except for the tv that light up a bit of the room and I could see her redness of the cheek. She just came back from Puket. No wonder getting all the sunburnt.
After the ktv session, we went for a cup of coffee where I treated them just becoz i just dun wan to go home so early when the time showed 9++pm. Had a plate of mud pie to be shared by everyone and ice latte for me. Then we even planned to go HK next year and shall await for the NATAS fair in March and book ticket from there.
Then we walked from Cineleisure all the way to orchard, chatting about our future bf, etc where we went back home.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Surprisingly, I told him I feel jealous........ I thought i will not say, but i did tell him that in the end....
When other gals bugging him, i dun feel good. But i just let out a good laugh. Just to conceal my feelings.
I dun like admit my feelings, seriously. I am the type who doesn't like to tell pple what i think, how i feel.
So, I actually the type who doesn't express my thought. And I can say it is not easy to understand what i am thinking abt. Or am I wrong to say that it is not easy to understand me?
Monday, July 11, 2005
Regarding the telemarketer's timesheet...
Miss A: Jia lat leh.... GSC is asking for the Telemarketer's signature. But the telemarketer has already left! How to sign?
Mr S: Aiyah, that time, Miss D also submit the Telemarketer's timesheet to GSC but without telemarketer's signature. GSC also approved. GSC just wanna create trouble lah.
Mr M: ya.. that time she giving me trouble. That claim form hor, if some rows missing, she will ask leh! Must have certain rows in the form. Otherwise she will ask, "Mr M, you missed out one row!"
Then got to reprint again!
Mr S: That's ok ah. That time, my excel sheet forget to put lines for rows and column. She's nag and nag and nag ah! End up, I use Ruler and pencil to draw for her ah.
Miss A: That's ok ah. If the outside box lines not dark enough, she ask u to bold ah.
Mr S: so bo liao leh. Pay us to do such minor minor small thing just to beautify the excel sheet meh? Should have ask my ah boy (his son) to color for her. Company employed us to do something useful, not to color this or draw lines.
Hahahahaha... So stupid rite? Our Finance, Miss GSC loves to create trouble for pple. what's so big deal about the missing of row in the claim form or the lines or the bold part? I dun get it. She just wanna command pple. Can't stand her.... Very fake.
hm.... My horoscope from friendster say:
If there's one thing your loved ones have learned over time, it's that you don't express feelings the way others do, especially when it comes to anger. In that case, your preferred method is to shut up -- completely -- for days, if need be, or until you prove your point. That's what's going to happen now. You'll let the world know you're displeased through your silence, which, as it turns out, is every bit as formidable as an outlaw brandishing a weapon.
Realised that it fit my description that I dun express my feelings when it come to loves, anger, etc...
Me super bo liao to try this Jealousy test
result?
Jealousy Level: 45%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy
You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance,
when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!",
but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"
Sunday, July 10, 2005
L: so wat did u do tdy???
Me: sleep + eat
L: wat is the diff between u and pig, hahaha....
Me: no diff
except pig eat a lot!
hahahaha
Friday, July 08, 2005
It was such a horrifying feeling the moment I know London's underground was blasted.
I really dunno how I will react if I am at that tube. Will my body blast till all the flesh tear in pieces? Or even after the first blast, will I stone there and waiting to die? I bet I will be too shocked to react or to think what to do next.
Fortunately, my group of travelmate has come back to Singapore. But to know that suspected culprit of the blast was done by Osama bin Laden's global terrorist network, Al-Qaeda, really make me feel that they are Inhuman. Sometimes, I just wonder dun they have feeling? Aren't they human? Oh aren't they feel sad if the the death pple are their kin? Oh ya, I forget. They are just INHUMAN.
My colleague was telling me tat I was quite fortunate that I have come back. Ya, I really feel so, otherwise, hahahah, will be die of romantic tours.
Bored, so decided to do some test ....
What's your personality love style?
and the result is? Wat? My standard high?????
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Next test ....
Your Marriage
and the result is
Your Marriage
How will you choose your Mr Right?
You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun
learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away
from the church.
Who will be your future Mr Right?
Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect
your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.
When will you get married?
You will be very determined and thorough in choosing a spouse. You'll study every detail about your man before
saying yes to a life of love. You will eventually make a good choice, but you'd better be sure that he's willing
to wait that long.
What sort of wife will you be?
You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready
to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.
Will you and your husband have a good time together?
You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy,
but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.
What will your children be like?
Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving
kids up. They are lively and smart.
How loyal are you?
You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a
flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.
Another test.... hm....
You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're
confident, independent, outgoing, and love
attention. You might become a star one day. All
the girls like to follow in your foot steps
because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't
care about anything. You make the rules, never
follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy.
That could be bad. But keep the attitude.
That's what makes you, you.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Controlling my tears from flowing down the cheek. One of my female colleague saw the tears in my eyes.
Ask Boss for advice on how to do my stuff. Mr L sms. Still trying hard to control my tears. After saying bye to them, I finally can relax and think how to do it.
When Mr L called, I grumbled. Sorry to borrow your ears for a while. Tears flowing down as I talked about it. Haiz...
Didn't know I could get so emotional. Luckily no one saw my tears.
Thanks Mr L by trying to tell me some stories to cheer me up. ^_^ Anyway, take good care of yourself while u are in oversea and most importantly is to enjoy urself. And bring back my korea snow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :P
I Shall forget about today matter. I will be grateful to everyone by not asking me wat had happened to me. Tomolo shall be a better day for me.
*Tips from Mervin: Whenever he is unhappy, he will view photo taken from UK and Europe trip.*
Hahahhah... I also did the same. Bleh.... I haven finished viewing all the photo given by my group member! Shall view all in one day.
Monday, July 04, 2005
I was pretty surprised that this guy A went to tell my gal frenz abt the history that he had chased me for yrs.
I didnt give a reply to him? I couldn't remember. But did he ask me? I couldn't remember either. I act blur? Yes, i did. He did hint? Yes, i know but i couldn't say anything. It seem weird to tell him wat i feel at that time.
I was even surprised that he didn't know that i went stead with his frenz, B. Perhaps, it was a hidden relationship and i made B promised that no one should know our relationship as we had just started out.
But we break off after a few weeks. I sorry that i had to initiate this break up. My heart wasn't in this relationship and by breaking off is a good thing that i shouldn't drag nor lead him on.
Till now, i was pretty surprised, B ask me again this year. I know B has been waiting for me for so long, but sorry, i still cannot accept.
I just wish the 2 guys could find the gals of their dream. I not worth waiting, seriously. I'm not a good gal.
