My True Feelings
Monday, July 26, 2004
I have been troubled for the past few weeks. Stress from work where i need to complete my deadline and FInally, i can let go of it liao. Another stress is coming up which comes from my school assignment. Which i didn't manage to start till my project ended.
Thought i can just let go of my thought abt this interview. Each time, i went to the interview, i will be disappointed by the questions asked. Or each time, i will think if I should cross over. Or should i stay in my previous company where the colleagues here are nice and helpful?
Whenever i stay in my company, the feeling of happiness is gone. No longer were the sound of my laughter, the noise that our department makes. Those pple left and left for a better company. I wish to leave.
But when you really got the final interview, you know that the chances are high. And each time, getting more n more afraid whether I can fit in or not. Or do i really have the ability?
Maybe dad is right! If I dun cross over, i might not know whether if i have the ability or not. Though the present company might have quite a number of challenging project, I wanna leave is becoz of the boss who despise me of my abilities.
But who can really ensure that my future in my new company will be a better choice?
who can really ensure that I can stay into this new company till i find a better job?
who can really ensure that the work in the new company will better than present company?
who can really ensure that the colleagues in the new company are nice?
who can tell me the ans?
Thursday, July 08, 2004
went to watch spiderman2 with Jes. Movie was nice but I still prefer spiderman instead of spiderman2.
Spiderman, in my mind, i still can recall who i watch with. I watched with him and his frenz and it show around 4++ am..... Shall try to stop recalling abt the past.
On my way home, while waiting for the trains, i saw one gal and one guy walking past me and stop at the entrance of the gate. I guess the gal do notice that i was glancing at the guy. The guy was really yan dao. that's explain y my eyes can follow him. Hahahaha.... the next moment i know, the gal swing her arm around the guy shoulder and try to make a chat.
The train came, and everyone walked in. the couple sat in front of me, slightly towards my left. She then trying to be more close to him, by lying her head on his shoulder, etc. Coolz.... Jes told me that she trying to tell me , "Hey, He's MINE."
hahahhahaha...... i think she feel uncomfortable that I kept looking at the guy. When i told my colleague about it, they asked, "YOu not embrassed one meh?" Well, wat is there to embrass? I find the gal even more cuter... more action just to show me that the guy is her bf.
I also told another frenz. He said, if he were me, he sure look at him. see how the gal response.
hahahahhahaha, wat a good idea?
