My True Feelings
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Arghhh...
when I came back from Redang trip, I have been trying hard to repair my pc.
It did work for the first time that I re-format my C drive.
Due to my itchy hand, I click windows update and *Boom*....
the blue screen appear and start giving me errors.
I re-format pc again...
but it seem that it doesn't work....
all I see is blue screen + the error msg in it.
I give up......
For almost a week, I didn't get to use pc. Haiz...
Going to do narration at 7.30pm today.
haiz...
OT again
wonder till wat time
heng that i have the whole morning off.
Wednesday, April 23, 2003
Too many pple asking me about the Redang trip which I felt compelled to talk abt it.
I think I better write it on my blog. If the second pple ask, I still can say, please refer to my blog. At least, I dun have to repeat a scary experience over n over again. I hope after this blog, no one will ask me, "how's Redang trip?"
:: 18th April 2003 ::
We reached Redang in the morning after enduring more than 10 hrs journey on bus. The island was indeed beautiful. After putting our lugguage, jeslyn and I decided to went for a swim since the weather is so hot. After that, we went snorkeling where we get to know a guy by the name of Ah Fai. Jeslyn lost her snorkel. Good thng that Ah Fai passed her his snorkel or else she will be fined 100 ringgit. After that, we get to know Meiling, Amy and Ah Fai's friends.
We snorkel 3 times that day, and each time I snorkel, I can get cuts on my hand. The number of cuts are increasing and more painful. A guy by the name of Black saw it and ask me to snorkel with him so that I wun get any more cuts. We went to Redang Beach where I get irriated by Black. First, he kept following me and pull me away from my group of frenz where he joined his frenz for a small chat. Second, he keep touching me n pull my face real close to his face. I kept giving Jeslyn that kind of I-wish-this-guy-will-get-off-my-butt kind of look. Jeslyn seems able to read my mind and she went to tell Ah Fai about it. Ah Fai went to tell Black that I dun like the way he is. So, Black ask me if i dun like him. HUH??? He says, "Do you want to follow me?" I thought "follow" this word is those kind of like, follow tour guide, so i say, "yes." Jeslyn stopped me by saying, "huh? what you mean by follow?" I never thought that a word, "follow" to them mean relationship thing. I was puzzled.
He pulled me away from the rest of the group and start asking, "do you like me?" I told him that I treat him as a frenz. But he keep asking me again and again till I was kind of pissed off and scared too. You never know where he going to drag me with. Good thing that Jeslyn always keep a lookout for me, or else, I really dunno where am I.
Black's frenz keep asking me what has happened. But I do not know how to explain it. Haiz...
At the Laguna Disco, all i could remember was the time when Black smashed the can of beer on the floor and spilt on my legs. His frenz was there to console him. I walk aside and Jeslyn started to ask me what had happened. I told her I dunno what Black wan.
I danced, drink, ignoring all the things that I am facing. When the disco end, the next thing I know is Black was drunk. Some of them send Black home while the rest of us went to see the shooting star. We went back to the room after everyone getting tired.
:: 19th April 2003 ::
Early in the morning, Black apologized to me for the way he has done. We went to Marine Park to snorkel. Ya, I know snorkel again. But wat can you do in this island? Black started to question me again which I getting more n more pek chek. "I saw your face ah, you in a bad mood. Y?" Argh... I wasn't angry with him anymore. I just dun wan to hear any more nonsense from him. I had accepted the apology that he given. But y can't he let it go? I dun get it. Jeslyn was worried abt me. She kept searching for me during snorkeling trip while Black always pull me away from the rest of the group. Black wanted to pull a morel (a type of fish) and let me touch it. Too bad, I didn't manage to touch it as the fish swam away too fast. That was a big fish!! Black, again started to ask, "y? Y didnt you touch?" I replied, "Too fast liao!" I think he didn't believe me and I saw him shaking his head. Arghh... Not I dun wan to touch mah!!! Too pissed off... Finally, I saw Jeslyn and Ah Fai. I swam towards them and the next moment i know is Black is lost. Oh great. Dun have to hear his nonsense and I prayed for that.
We went back to Lagoon Resort to have lunch followed by a walk that Jeslyn and I went. After that, we went back to resort where Jeslyn and I went to sleep.
*knock knock* "Jes"
*knock knock* "Jes"
Jeslyn and I didn't open the door. We know that we were too tired to join any activities of their. Sleep is the best.
At 5++pm, there was a knock at the door again. We still hiding ourself inside. Onli at the third time, we decided to open the door and lie to them that I am bathing and Jeslyn was sleeping, which was the reason that we both didn't hear the knock on the door. Seem like we are hiding from loanshark that we dun dare to open the door.
At night, we went to take photo. On the journey back, I saw Black and Ah Fai went to talk to him while I swaying in the tree hammock.The next moment i know is I was on the floor when she tried to sit with me! OUCH!! My butt hurt leh!!!! She too heavy liao. Bleh. We climbed up the rocks to see the shooting star and realised that Ah Fai was fallen asleep. Quickly take a snap of him before he woke up. But he was really like a pig. Jeslyn even need to rock him a bit harder to wake him up.
:: 20th April 2003 ::
Wanted to watch the sunrise but too bad, we missed it. We went to have our breakfast and bade them good bye.
So, is my Redang trip fun? You guys judge yourself. I shall say no more n hear no more.
Monday, April 14, 2003
I went out with PK after work. Went to Sim Lim Square to buy things that we both needed. I need to buy blank CD while he need to buy MP3 player for someone. We can't decide which mp3 player is the best. It's onli until the last moment that the sales person decide to take out the best mp3 player that we both see liao and decided that was the nicest of all!!!! hahahah... to think we have the same taste.
After that, I drag him to accompany to choose a digital camera. Hmm.... surprisingly, he know what kind of digital camera I am looking as in size la, not bulky, etc... I didn't have any model or brand in mind. But he managed to find one that fit all my requirement! N that camera is Casio Exlim with 3.2 megapixels that cost around $680. Disappointed, I walked out of the shop.
I talked to him about my things during the journey and he shake his head most of the time. Lastly, he said, "If I know, I also scold you!" Come to think of it. Yes, I need someone's scolding. I went wrong again and again. Need someone to guide me to the right path. I said, "I should let u know earlier so that you can scold me till i am clear-minded!"
Well, nvm... I know I am on the right path now..... I'm sure I am.... What abt you guys? Ever wonder did you ever went to the wrong path once?
Saturday, April 12, 2003
Someone asked me, "Are you overbiased?"
Well, I really had no ans to this. But who is the one who corrupted my thinking? Sometimes, I wish someone will pinpoint to me, so that I will know my mistakes. I am not perfect, so you dun have to think that I am 100% perfectionist.
Someone ask, "Am i too paranoid?"
Well, I also dunno. it will be good if you can start scolding me like wat benjamin did. Bleh... benjamin, your reputation gone to drain.
I ask myself, "Y am I reacting in such a way that I can dunno who am i?"
well, i think i afraid of losing one frenz. I remember i told her once she break her promise, she know the consequence. He says, "aren't you too extreme?"
*shrug*
Away
Will be back with a new layout.
Friday, April 11, 2003
A very interesting story indeed. I dunno who the liar or the truther... or in the first place, there's no truther?
Monday, April 07, 2003
Can you live without HP?
When I had my first Hp on the 21st birthday, I can say, I really cannot live without HP. If my HP is at home, I will rush to my house and get my Hp and went out even I was late for school. I dun care. As long as my hp is with me, I feel relieved.
However, after so much thing happened, I realised I rather live without Hp. You wun get client call at late night. You wun get those funny call when they call to scold you for nothing when you tell them that this person does't exist at all. You wun even get wrong call.
I remember there's a time when a guy keep calling my hp asking for someone. I often tell him that there no such person but he did get the right no. He doesn't give up calling and end up, I scold him after explaining to him more than 3 times that this no belong to me. He still dare to ask me, how come I am so angry and y can't talk in a nice way. I was so mad till I shouted, "Becoz I explain to you 3 times and you keep calling, idiot!" The next thing I know is that we both went into the arguement. All the words that came out from the mouth was vulgarites. My mum heard me, decided to take over, scolded him and hang up afterwards. Haiz... that's a bad experience...
Couldn't remember when's that happened. There's one time I forget to bring my Hp to office. I really happy on that day and could even tell PK, "hee, I so happy that I didn't bring HP." hm... maybe one day, I will terminate my hp line.... maybe.... *shrug*
Now, I got another nuisance call. This person ..... Ring once and hang up. Did that for about 5 times. And all you see on your hp screen was "Call". I wonder who the Culprit is. Well, my younger sister was suggesting that I should go to M1, so that they can trace this call. Hm.. a good idea. Going to do that if I continue to get nusiance call after tonite.
How do u really deal with this stituation if this happened to you?
Dead tired.... Went to KL and genting during weekends. Pretty fun. To see our old frenz, Chyuan, was a nice feeling, rite, Jeslyn?
To her,
Time to move on and get a new life. Hope to see that one day, you had put those memories behind.
Friday, April 04, 2003
Tuesday, April 01, 2003
I dun like the feeling. It seem like my rabbit going to be handicapped. The eyes of the rabbit are telling me that it is in pain... it is shivering...I dun know what to do but to ask my younger sister bring it to see a vet tomolo................. *worried*
hope that it just a sprain leg rather than handicapped.
*prays*
heehee... this morning, my sister told me a good news! My rabbit just fractured it leg.. phew~~
The feeling was like given a slap on my face yesterday. Wasn't happy at all. First time i see him like that. I was pretty shocked. Scared.... Scared of him.... After a while, he came back and tried to make me smile, laugh, etc for he also scared that I was angry with him.
Good thing that I kept talking to JL where I kept teasing him. He told me he can't forget the guy's sexy lip. Hm... should tell me earlier so that I can help you to know him. :P
I went home after work. Saw the wedding dinner that my whole family took. Heehee... my elder sister even told me that I look nice in one of the photo. Hm... was thinking of putting it up when I redesign my website. But I can't think of the layout now. haiz....
Watch tv with my dad yesterday where the show is all about the documentary film. They show one big tortoise which will bite pple if you try to provoke it. This remind me of a recurring dream which I had when I was around the age of 12. I dreamt of a big tortoise trying to bite my head. For every 5 days, I dream it 4 times. I dun know what the dream is all about and wishes to know. Hm... can anyone who gives me an ans? Dad also told me that when he is young, he also dream about a tiger chasing after him. He, same as me dream 4 times for every 5 days. Dun tell me it runs in the blood.....
