My True Feelings
Sunday, June 30, 2002
Brazil won.... I lost $$... I bet on 1 goal or 0 goal... I also lost on Korea and Turkey match.. Haiz....
Jeslyn sent me this email.. think I received quite long ago... It's about "When you should see Optician"
Saturday, June 29, 2002
Friday, June 28, 2002
Went out with him, the gal he likes and his friends today. Dinner was a bit boring as I dun really know his friends. Then some of his friends that I know sit far from me... He keep talking to her... well, can be understandable coz the gal doesn't know his frenz.... but I was a bit neglected.. so I try to mix with his frenz that i know....
After that, we went to watch WindTalker show. Quite ok lah... But for those who doesn't appreciate wars movies, please dun watch it... Was a little disappointed that I can't watch "The Eye" which I have been aiming to watch it.... haiz...
He sent the gal home while his friends and I went to have supper at Geylang. They really are jokers.... Make me laugh all the way...
I heard from his friend that he will be meeting his gf tonite... Wonder wat they will talk.... Curious...
Thursday, June 27, 2002
Yip Yip Hurray!! Brazil won when Brazil VS Turkey....
Coolz.... I make some winnings... Although small but is enough... I so happy... didn't know that I could win some easy $$ from the soccer match...
Yahoo~~ Brazil is the best.... Cheers to Brazil....
Hm.... I was wondering abt the match, Brazil VS Germany. Who will be the winner?
Wednesday, June 26, 2002
I finally show him the blog that I had type all along... I dun know since when I had courage to let him read.... He asked me if I am sad or not? Well, I can't say I am not affected at all. But I can say is I will try to treat him as a brother...
He is meeting the gal that he once chases for about 8 mths..... I hope he can settled it once and for all..... I dun know wat will happened... She might cry for sure... She is losing him.... she might try ways n means to get him back. To chase her again. To start all over again. She might even say, "Actually, I like u, will u give me a chance?" She might even hug him.... or she might even say the 3-letters word, "I Love you." and kiss him.
I hope he is not soft-hearted.... Afterall, he has a gf... I hope he is not 2-timer.... And I believe he is not...
Wanna say thanks to Ennie and Ben who had been constantly advising me all along... I really Appreciate it. Right now, I will be focusing on my work onwards. So, in future, I will be complaining about my work.. Also, wanna thanks everyone for ur concern who has been reading up my blog ....
I will be fine.... Coz Germany WON when play against korea..... hahhahaha.. I finally make some small winnings.... oei leh oei leh oei leh oei leh....
Tuesday, June 25, 2002
I LOST! I had lost the battle.... He belong to someone else..... guess it is time for me to accept it.... I shall accept my fate....
listening to this song now....
Monday, June 24, 2002
You shouldn't tell me that you had given up the gal u likes. You shouldn't tell me that u are chasing after another gal... You makes me happy and sad at the same time...
I thought I had given u up... but y am I still moody now? I feel happy for u when u say u decided to give her up but at the same time, I am quite sad that u planning to give another gal a chance. Maybe I should follow her.... follow her the way she chase you. But I CAN'T do it... I dun have her courage.... Wat can I do? Watch as you are being chased by her??
Sunday, June 23, 2002
It was my second time watching Qiu Tian De Tong Hua.... Today was the last espiode.. I nearly cried when the scene show that the guy was knocked down by the car after the gal he likes has died of cancer... Makes me really wonder is there true love in life?
Saturday, June 22, 2002
try this Test your Stress LEvels...
my result is ....
Yesterday was PK's birthday. All our colleagues was planning to give him a surprise by buying one LV cardholders. We been waiting for him to get out of our dept so that we can put the present on his table.... We waited till we going to ZzzzZZZzz... Finally, he went out for a while and Ivy put the present on his chair. He was surprised and a little shy when he saw the present... He unwrapped the present so slowly that the wrapper wun be torn. Oh my god... he is really too gentle till I can't stand it. Hehe... Finally, he saw a cordless phone box which he thought was cordless phone... He didn't carry on to look what is inside... We even had to ask him to open up the box... He was extremely happy when he saw the LV cardholders which he had been aiming...
After that, Ceryn (our colleagues) bought a cake for him and we sang birthday song... He was really damn paiseh.. wonder y....
I went off to meet Sylvia, Xueni and Ennie after work. Met up at City Hall and went to have our dinner. After that, we went to Embargo near fullerton to have some drinks. Poor Sylvia who was so lucky that her friend's accidentally pour our drink on her jeans...... To think her birthday is kana sabo. keke...Headed to Centro with xueni's sister and her friends too.... It was damn fun .... I like the songs and the crowds over there...
Today will be my friend's sister's 21st birthday.... Havent bought her present yet.... Arghhh... I hate to think what to give to birthday person as a present... I simply have no idea.... Anyone can think for me?
Thursday, June 20, 2002
| SimilarMinds.com Compatibility Test |
Your match with Ennie you are 83% similar |
| SimilarMinds.com Compatibility Test |
Your match with Jeslyn you are 84% similar you are 56% complementary |
It was surprising that all my friends say rebonding is suitable for me. Well, I dun think so. But then it's a good start for me... I am getting happer, more relaxed... Wanna had a new image so as to put the past behind me...
I am really happy when I heard a lot of my friends say my face is getting better as in the sense that there's are NOT MUCH pimples on my face now..... Glad that the money I spent doesn't go down to drains.... The price of seeing a skin doctor cost me about $178.... I going broke soon.... Rebonding cost me abt $140... + shampoo , conditioner, etc ($43) + $178 (skin doc) = ???? I dun dare to count!!!
Yesterday was my friend's, jeslyn , 21st birthday. I hope she enjoy herself yesterday... Jeslyn, I hope ur wishes that u wish will come true soon...
Look like a lot of pple born in this month.. Pple's like stanley, 10 June, Jonathan (my buddy), 12 June, Pway Kng (my so-called brother), 21 June, Sylvia (our Jiemei), 22 June and lastly, my friend's sister, Zhuan Yan, 22 June.... wow.... Really alot ..... Hm... didn't notice that all of my friends having birthday at this month... My ICQ keep blinking... telling me their birthday.... er... getting scared when icq suddenly blink.. hahhahaha.. ya, the birthday icon...
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
The anger in his eyes terrifies me. No longer were the eyes of those warm and cheerful smile. He sat down while the gal he likes had left the office... After a while, he left too. I was getting worried abt him n started to sms him. I was relaxed when I received his sms telling me he is okies.... Love does hurt when u can't get ur loved one to be with u.
That's y I like this sentence.
"If Love's HURT, Y does pple still fall in love?"
Friday, June 14, 2002
I'm B type... what abt u?
What type of Love you experience?
"You know you're in love when everytime you close your eyes, you see that special someone."
1) You have liked two people at the same time before.
A. Yes (Go to Q4) B. No (Go to Q2)
2) You prefer younger person rather older than you.
A. Yes (Go to Q5) B. No (Go to Q3)
3) You usually declare your feelings first when you like someone.
A. Yes (Go to Q5) B. No (Go to Q6)
4) You see your parents and couples like them as the ideal relationship between two, intimate people.
A. Yes (Go to Q7) B. No (Go to Q5)
5) You prefer to wear colorful intimate apparel.
A. Yes (Go to Q8) B. No (Go to Q9)
6) You would never forgive your partner for cheating on you.
A. Yes (Go to Q9) B. No (Go to Q5)
7) You prefer to eat at home rather than to dine out.
A. Yes (Go to Q10) B. No (Go to Q8)
8) You like Marilyn Monroe more than Audrey Hepburn.
A. Yes (Go to Q11) B. No (Go to Q9)
9) You enjoy giving presents to people.
A. Yes (Go to Q12) B. No (Go to Q11)
10)The two important qualities your partner should possess are human warmth and kindness.
A. Yes (Go to Q13) B. No (Go to Q11)
11) You often fall in love at first sight.
A. Yes (Go to Q14) B. No (Go to Q15)
12) You tend to pursue excitement over stability in love.
A. Yes (Go to Q14) B. No (Go to Q15)
13)A divorce would be absolutely out of the question for you.
A. Yes (A-type) B. No (Go to Q16)
14)You don't dislike reptiles or other creepy creatures.
A. Yes (Go to Q21) B. No (Go to Q17)
15)You are against pre-marital sex.
A. Yes (H-type) B. No (Go to Q17)
16)You often hear that you are sexy.
A. Yes (Go to Q21) B. No (Go to Q19)
17)You firmly believe that love can be obtained.
A. Yes (Go to Q20) B. No (Go to Q19)
18)You consider the person's educational and family background as a more essential. factor for marriage than your feelings for him/her.
A. Yes (E-type) B. No (Go to Q21)
19)You feel that anything is forgivable if you love a person
A. Yes (B-type) B. No (Go to Q20)
20)You often desire things that other people already possess.
A. Yes (D-type) B. No (C-type)
21)Your relationships never lasted longer than 3 months.
A. Yes (G-type) B. No (F-type)
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The Result
A - type Cinderella Type.
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Just like Cinderella, you were the heroine of a beautiful and happy love story in your former life. This does not mean that you were born with this privilege or that you necessarily had this happiness until the end of your life. You actually witnessed the harshness of reality as child, including the loss of your parents and poverty. But all this darkness disappeared the moment you met the love of your life and a new bright light started to shine toward your way.
You ultimately gained happiness and honor through love. Both of you genuinely loved each other and enjoyed a blissful life for a very long time.
It is just natural that this genuine life in your previous existence can only be a blessing in this present moment. This may be the opportunity to work for charity by helping out other people in need and to be thankful.
B-type The Charitable type.
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You were the devoted lover in your former existence that dedicated your whole being to the object of affection. When you fell in love, you forgot about everything else including your own self. You experienced a lot of pain because many people took advantage of your
kindness. All your lovers were beautiful people but they possessed narcissistic qualities, which was the result of your breakups. Their selfishness never allowed them to return the love that you continuously provided for them. But you never despised them for the wounds they left on you.
What you should do in this life-time is to become more sensible, rational, and calculative, so that you will not have to endure so much pain as you did in the past.
Don't just settle for anyone who crosses your path but wait patiently for someone who will provide you with a reciprocal love.
C-type The Lascivious type.
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You were a very fickle person in your previous life, who could not stay with one partner for a long time.
Love was something you had to experience through as many people as possible and only then were you happy a person. You met many, diverse people whom you shared an intimate relationship with. Although you were an amorous lover, you possessed a cold and rational mind.
It gave you this power of never being hurt by someone. It will be difficult to settle down completely for you unless you meet a very charismatic person that will capture your entire heart. And a journey for you would not completely end with marriage either.
D-type The Reckless type.
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You were the center of a love triangle or an immoral love that was destined to end tragically. Your rash and independent spirit set the stage for a love story like this.
You were an egocentric character who broke many people's hearts.
In this way, you were much like the C-type that was previously mentioned.
You moved on from one person to another as soon as that spark or passion for you faded.
A person who existed as this type in the past is bound to be affected by these remnant qualities today. This is why it is vital to appreciate the other person in your relationship now and to become more mature. Getting rid of your selfish desires may be the key to a happy relationship for you.
E-type The Romeo and Juliet type.
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You are one of the few people who experienced the most passionate love affair in your former life.
It was love at first sight and both of you could not think of anything else during the day than to dream about each other. It was a Romeo and Juliet love affair, which may not have ended in disaster just like in the story.
Your families may even have been very accepting about your relationship. But the likelihood of a passionate love increases the more obstacles are between the two lovers. But the affection tends to fade when there is no conflicting element involved.
Therefore, it is important for you to be more patient in your present relationship.
The challenge is to keep that passion going by constantly introducing new and interesting ideas.
F-type The Plain type.
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You did not find love through your own actions but with the help of other people.
You were in your own comfort zone, so that it was not necessary for you to find someone special. This is why you were far away from experiencing a fervent love affair. Everybody accepted your relationship with your partner and stability may be have been the pivotal
characteristic of your love. Many people would not even consider this peaceful and simple relationship to be love but it may just be the true essence. You may feel perfectly comfortable with an arranged marriage.
G-type The Abusive type.
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There is no human being who perfect and therefore a certain contradiction exists within us. Thus, an internal conflict between cruelty and kindness is apparent in us. You were familiar with this conflict in your previous life, where mistreatment was used on people. There was a lot of anger in you and this may be a reason why you were open to challenges without a blink of an eye.
You often found this sardonic pleasure when you made a person feel sad or perplexed. Monotony did not exist in your vocabulary and so you looked for excitement. A little child exists in you that is waiting for stability and you have shot at finding love when you find the person who is able to provide this comfort for you.
H-type The Glass Marble type.
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You were a purely naive person who was scared to be hurt.
This led you to love a person from afar but the chance that you came together was very slim.
You were a sociable person but oddly enough, you became the shy and quiet person in front of the person you liked.
The painful event occurred the day your object of affection became another person's mate and moved to another far away place. You have to accept the fact that you will not see a relationship in the future if you don't start gaining some courage to make that crucial advance. You can start with taking subtle steps toward that person.
Thursday, June 13, 2002
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
Find your emotion!
taken this test from wendy
taken this test from Niki
You are 20% evil! [?]
You're pretty non-evil. You're a little bit off of being all good, but you tend to still be orderly and peaceful. You aren't the bad person at all...for the most part.
Friday, June 07, 2002
I could remember the sadness in his eyes.... n I asked him wat had happened. He dun wanna tell me initally but he reveals in the end....
Much as I guess, he is sad becoz of the gal that he likes. This gal has a bf, and she dun intend to break up. Her bf called n pick her up for work. The guy upon hearing was sad immediately...
The guy told me that he feel happy with the gal and wat's more, the gal treat him even nicer. Which guy will refuse her gentleness toward him? The more the gal treat him nice, the more he likes her.
I told him that no point waiting for her as she had told the guy that she dun intend to break up althought this guy is much much more better than her bf. Somemore, there's more incident that she treat her bf first priority than him. Well, I know he listen but after a few more days, he back to her...
I tried to cheer him up by talking other subject. While chatting, I said to him, "hm... I think J**** take an interest in u." He also feel so. I told him to consider her lor, instead of pinning hopes on the gal that he likes n nothing comes out of the relationship. Then he asked, "Can I ask you a qn?"
I said no to him. I dun wanna hear his qn nor do I wanna answer his qn. I think I can guess what he wanna asked. He said, "You are a smart gal, u sure know what I wanna ask." Well, I denied by saying, "What qn? I dun know what qn u wanna ask nor hear ur qn."
I think he know my feeling for him. But I am trying my best to forget abt the crush that I have for him. Coz I know even he can't get the gal he likes, he still wun choose me. After all, he has considered some gals who he think is suitable to be his gf. I told this stories to one of my frenz. She asked me, "Y dun wanna hear his qn?" In my mind, I really wanna know his qn. But if the qn he asked is, "Do you like me?" , how am I gonna ans? Admit? Or Denied? I dun know how to ans. So, wat the point of hearing the qn? Wat's more, he's the one that suggest we will be brother and sister. So, does it matter whether wat the qn is? It doesn't change the fact that we will be still brother and sister. And if I wanna forget him, wat the point of knowing the qn? Do you think so?
Tuesday, June 04, 2002
I'm E-type, what abt you all?
MENTAL AGE TEST
Find out your mental age by taking this simple quiz.
Start with question number 1 and skip to the question that is corresponding to your answer until you reach the end (you have to end up with a letter). Then you may read the corresponding passage that matches with your letter.
1. You frequently daydream or you tend to worry more than you need to.
Yes to 3; No to 2
2. Lately, your skin feels rougher than you have ever experienced before.
Yes to 6; No to 4
3. You own a perfume that you put on for your own nasal pleasure.
Yes to 4; No to 5
4. You feel that you are not challenging the problems but are losing your fortitude these days.
Yes to 5; No to 9
5. You go to sleep with a teddy bear at night.
Yes to 10; No to 9
6. You neatly fold and save unwrapped gift paper.
Yes to 7; No to 8
7. You unconsciously let out a sigh of relief when you sit down on a chair.
Yes to 8; No to 11
8. You often watch entertainment shows on television.
Yes to 12; No to 13
9. You gather your hands together and pray before every meal.
Yes to 13; No to 14
10. You often think about what specific food you will eat next.
Yes to 15; No to 14
11. There are errands you have to do but your laziness prevents you from moving.
Yes to 16; No to 17
12. You prefer sweet jelly or candy to cake anytime.
Yes to 17; No to 18
13. You take great care of maintaining your body shape.
Yes to 18; No to 19
14. You tend use straws instead of cups of when you drink fluids.
Yes to 20; No to 18
15. You become a whiny child when your Mom is around the house.
Yes to 20; No to 14
16. At this point you simply don't care when you will die.
Yes to 21; No to 17
17. You put on your swimsuit and notice the sowing or patched-up spot.
Yes to 21; No to 22
18. You are going to enjoy your youth and thus are planning to get married when you are over 30 years old.
Yes to 23; No to 22
19. You have a pager or you really would like to possess on.
Yes to 24; No to 23
20. The first ride you would like to go on in an amusement park is the merry-go-round.
Yes to 25; No to 24
21. You visit acupuncture clinics when you are sick.
Yes to 26; No to 27
22. You tend to give presents to others as a token of appreciation.
Yes to 27; No to 28
23. You own the trendiest bag right now and you would like to purchase a brand name handbag next time.
Yes to 28; No to 29
24. You resist eating chocolate for fear of getting.
Yes to 29; No to 30
25. The moment you turn off the light at night, you are scared to fall asleep at first because you fear that a ghost will appear any moment.
Yes to 30; No to 24
26. I can't stay in bed once I open my eyes in the mornings.
Yes A-Type; No B-Type
27. You think it is rude manner to not talk when you are conversing with someone.
Yes B-Type; No C-Type
28. You tend to sing the newest and hippest songs when you are at a karaoke place.
Yes D-Type; No C-Type
29. When you have someone significant in your live, you don't think about dating another one.
Yes E-Type; No D-Type
30. You think that your sudden timidity may be the underlying weakness.
Yes E-Type; No F-Type
A-Types
You are mentally about 65 years old. A few more years and your peers will consider you to belong at a nursing home. Regretfully, you are really living a life of a 65 year-old senior citizen. You are lacking a great amount of ambitious spirit and cringe at the thought of accomplishing, what is otherwise a fun task.
But your human warmth is as deep as the ocean and your resilience doesn't fluctuate whatever you are working. Keep these strong points in mind and think about mental attitude
B-Types
You are mentally about 35 years old. Your behavior is in the 20's but you don't experience the many embarrassing moments anymore, which make you mentally an older person. You think you no longer have time to waste anymore and smiling doesn't get you far anymore. It is understandable to ignore strangers in that way but you have to be aware of others around you with a certain politeness or they will perceive you to be of bad character.
Supposedly, it is very common for people in their late 30's to experience sudden emotional explosion. Bring your mental age down by becoming aware of your innocence. Try wearing white clothes, which will present a pure, youthful appearance. You should also temporarily get rid of your long lasting pen and start using a pencil (symbol of clarity/purity) to further enhances a younger state of mind.
C-Types
You are mentally in the Late 20's. If you are teen and got this result, you are associated to an old baby (oxymoron). You are a motherly character to your friends, looking after them and wanting to protect them. Your mental age is about 26 at this point. People feel very comfortable around you because you fuss around. But you should remember not to become idle about your appearance.
The clothes you wear also match the mature age you are at. Bright clothes, such as yellow, could make you feel younger if you ever think about returning to your early 20's. How about chatting with your friends over greasy hamburgers at a fast food place? Remember that it is up to you to create a vibrant atmosphere.
D-Types
You are mentally about 20 years old your actual age and mental age are at the same level, which is the ideal. This means that you are a well-balanced person. At this point there is nothing to worry about when you show immature signs at times because that is normal for your age.
Remember to live happily day-by-day and not to lose your confidence or self-esteem. The color of confidence is brown, so grab a pair of shoes.
E-Types
You are mentally in the teen's age. It is your naive that leads you to act selfishly and without concerning about others. The world revolves around you and you have the tendency to steer toward the other direction if you don't agree with others. It is important to listen to other people's opinion or advice but they just don't sit well in your stomach.
If you would like to hear compliments, you should try to curb your temper and to be less selfish. Try wearing blue clothes and musky perfume, which may help pacify your impatient mood.
F-Types
You are mentally a baby. You have to realize that you are the only person who is responsible for your life's decisions. It is inexcusable to call out your mother's name for every little problem and this is the obvious reason why you are a joke to others. Question yourself how much you should depend on others and when you are your own person.
Green is a sign of maturity. Carrying around a snakeskin or crocodile skin wallet may give off an aura of elegance. Choosing a religious faith or becoming more serious with your current faith may help you achieve a more mature you.
Saturday, June 01, 2002
Went back to office to rush my project. Haiz... rush till 10pm... Lucky ben tell me the time, otherwise, I will be staying overnight???
I saw my boss returning back to office at about 9 pm... He was kind of surprised that I am back in office to do my project... Hm... At last, boss saw my hardworking side. hahhahaha...
I am very happy today... guess it becoz boss finally saw my hardworking side.... lalalala...
