My True Feelings
Friday, July 29, 2005
Was chatting with one of the colleagues that i hate most....
Coll D: I realised hor, everytime ur boss not around, u went out lunch with other pple. You interested in him ah?
Me: ......
*in order not to vent my anger, i say in a joking tone*
Me: He? No lah... I not interested in him!
Wah liew eh, it seems that i am a mistress who will break pple's family.....
Shall not be bothered with such pple who doesnt understand me at all! I have a clear conscience and I dun care what pple think of me. For those who really understand me, will know what type of pple i am and I only treasure such pple for life! The rest? Ha. Get LOST!
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One day, my office was repairing lights at one corner and my nickname put "Stitch - My Office So RoMantIc~ repairing lights". Then KT came and chat with me...
KT: nv light candles ar
haha
Me: never leh
hahahah
some part have lights
some dun have
KT: haha...then tar bao dinner back and eat in office...since ambience so nice
haha
Me: .....
u wanan ta bao food and bring to my office
and wanna feel how romantic my office is ah
hahahahahha
KT: ya
haha....buy u tao bao dinner
hahaha
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Went to meet Ivan, jes and saw Nelson. Realised that Ivan was looking at our euro photo. After handing up progress report, i went off to woodlands. On my way heading to causeway point, I was stopped by a Prudential Agent...
He walked up to me and shaked my hand and tell me he is Mr W. And in my mind, i was thinking do i know him? He kept saying, "you are???? I am Mr W.. ah... " He seemed like he know me but i really dunno him leh. Then I told him my name and he then realised that I am not his frenz. He explained to me that he thought I am his frenz. Then we went to a small corner and chat. One of the conversation goes like this:
Me: Is that the way (by shaking someone hand and pretend to know him or her) how u agent get customer?
Mr W: No lah. I really thought u are my frenz. You really look like her. At least 70% leh.
Me: Oh....
Mr W: Anyway, help me do one survey. Very fast.
Me: Ok, pass me a pen.
Mr W: No No No.... I asked question and you answered.
I hit his hand and snatched his pen from me and said, "I filled myself, faster this way lah. I need to go to the library now leh. Now already 8pm liao. Still got one more hour and the library going to close liao!"
I think at this time, Mr W took off his spectacles and said: I good-looking rite? That's y you willing to sit down.
Me:.......
In the end, he let me filled and i asked: You agent like to station here leh. Last time i know one agent also from here.
Mr W: Who
Me: wait ah, I check.
I scroll down my hp list to search for the agent name. Ya, i keep agent name inside so that when he called, i dun have to pick up. hahahhah.... That the purpose....
Me: Mr S
Mr W: Oh, Mr S ah....
I think Mr W dun like Mr S. That's how i feel....
At that moment, Mr S went to take my hp and entered his number and called to his hp..... And I dunno till his hp rang.....
Me: ya... He know how to flatter gals
Mr W: Flatter gals? How?
Me: dunno leh. Know how to make gals happy while chatting. I think he got a honey-lipped.
Mr W: ic ic
Then Mr W went on to chat about the insurance and I told him that I am not buying within the next 2 yrs. Then he let me go and wanted to give me his namecard. But i didn't take. It seems that he quite disappointed that I didn't take his namecard. Hahaha... lose one customer of coz sad....
After borrowing books from library, I received a call from a frenz in malaysia. Asked me how I am... Asked me y i never online in msn.... Hm... It seem like i lost contact with a lot of pple.
Thursday, July 28, 2005
I dreamt of something "dirty" last nite. I feel uneasy. The nite before, I heard some noise in the kitchen. I wasn't really bothered. Thought it was some pest in the kitchen or the noise upstair or someone dumped rubbish....
Went off to sleep early last nite around 12am. Then I dream that I was watching tv and my whole family was there. The TV was showing a programme where they catch some glimpse of "Dirty" things there. The face was shown and the programme was explaining "they" are walking, etc...
N I was sitting near one table full of magazine... The magazine flipped by itself! And I was telling my whole family about it. Suddenly the magazine dropped onto the floor and kept on flipping.... I stand up and kicked the magazine and kept pointing and screaming about it.....
I woke up. Hp showed it was only 4am... Feeling very scared... couldn't really sleep.... Finally back to sleep...
In the early morning, I told my younger sister about it. She said she feel "Something" in our house!!!!! She also said she woke up around 3am the tues nite.....
huh????!!!!????
Another again?
Haiz....
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Coll Uncle: Today, Coll D was complaining about no one opened the door for the deliveryman. She shouted that she was on the line and she had to hang up the line and opened the door!
Coll S: Aiyo... She can dun open one mah.... No one will scold her.
Coll Uncle: ya lor. Opened the door and still complaining so much. If dun open, no one scold her.
Me: I really think she and GSC very free to play games. I not that free ah!
Coll S: I also ah.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Another as usual gossip lunch about GSC.
Coll A: Tell u a very interesting story.
Everyone eyes at him.
Coll A: This Uncle very cute one. Today we supposed to have photo taking session rite?
Me: ya
Coll A: Then he brought his professional camera. Then one of the colleagues already stand there and post himself nicely. Then Uncle realised that his battery flat!
Everyone laughed.
Coll A: That's pretty ok. And u know wat is the most comical joke?
Me: wat?
Coll A: GSC know about it and asked uncle to write an Official Email to everyone that he forget to bring battery.
Everyone started to laugh.
Me: Forget to bring battery must write official email one ah? hahahahhaha
Coll A: ya lor. And the best thing is uncle can still laugh and smile to her! Alamak.... Uncle doing a favor for the company by helping them to take photo session leh....
Me: ahahahhaha... Eh, think uncle need to bring tripod and use measurement tape.
Coll A: ya ya... then GSC wun say the photo too close lah or not fit nicely with the designated frame.
Coll S: so bo liao one leh...
Coll A: ya... can zoom in and out of the photo mah. wat for need to re-take...
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Coll G: There's one incident very scary. My things i put on the tray nicely. Then the next day, i realised that my stuff on the tray was messed up. I thought is admin assistant messed my things up. But when i asked admin, she said she didn't touched. My tray got the interviewee application. Then GSC came and asked me if i am hiring Team leader.
Coll Uncle: Then we better dun put our personal stuff in office. She like checking up everyone.
Everyone : ya ya ya...
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Back to the office, the big water bottle for the water cooler ran out of water. So a female colleague was asking me for help to peel off the label at the tip of the bottle so that they can toppled over to the machine. I can't peel off, so i suggest to poke the tip using pen. So we did and realised that the inner tip of the bottle broke. And we know that if we toppled over the bottle, the water will split. A guy came and help us and we warn him. We pretend not to see the water leaked out if he toppled it. End up, he toppled over and the big water bottle dropped and spilt into my face and his whole body. My hair was wet and went to the toilet to wipe up.
GSC came and asked us wat happened. We all lie that the bottle leaked! Hahahaha.. then She command me to take a look at the bottle later if there's further leaking... wah liew.... anyone can watch out mah.....
haiz... can't understand pple behaviour.
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Surprisingly, I dreamt of Mr L... But I still couldn't remember wat the dream was about. All I remember was that I chatted with him in the dream....
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Mr L bring me to eat La Mian. A very famous and nice place quoted by Mr L. He leads the way and realised ????? The shop no longer there!!! Hahahahha... *strangle him*
During lunch, I kept pestering to tell me stories. Very interesting leh!!!! I know wat Mr L will say about me --> 38!
After lunch, Mr N nick was damn interesting. Mr L asked Mr N to change his nick from lonely wolf to color wolf. hahahah..
After having dinner at home, I went to the libray, located at civic center. After loaning 2 library books, I went to the causeway point, M1 shop to take a look at the Hp. Haiz... Sony ercission 750 still quite ex. Went to Singtel shop and saw one hp, Siemens CF65. Think it was the new product. But I couldn't find the price leh.
I was thinking of walking around the place where i realised i having cramp on one of my feet. Actually, it doesn't make a big deal for me as I already got used to cramps. But as i walked, alamak.... both feet having cramped and in the end, went to find a seat and waited.
When one of the feet pain was gone, I quickly stand up and walked back to the interchange. N to think the prudential agent wanna try to chat with me while i kept saying, "I need to go now..."
Argh, my foot still having cramp! will he just back off? After 5 mins where i kept saying, "I need to go now...", he let me go...
Quickly board the bus and reach home. Realised the cramp gone. Duhz... gone when i reach home.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Was quite keen to learn hacking but wasn't given a course by the company to learn. So I told Mr L that I wan him to teach me hacking.
Mr L: there are so many methods of hacking like hack firewall.... Proxy.... web server...SQL... oracle.
Me: ok ok, teach me how to hack firewall
Mr L: diff firewall oso hv diff hacking technique, cisco, watchguard, checkpoint......
Me: *faintz*
Mr L: if cisco.... diff model..oso diff hacking method... 1720, 800, 7000, 8000......
Me: *faintz*
u wan me to *faintz* how many times ah
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And another conversation goes like this:
Me: hack my boss pc ah? hee hee, i also wanna try
Mr L: can, sure
so many ways....
Me: easiest way
Mr L: easiest way har....
take out his harddisk, put it on ur pc, copy all data...hahha
Me: .......
Went out lunch with malay colleagues where they invited me. I thought was onli 2 pple when i realised that one of the colleagues that i dun wish to see is joining them as her partner took leave today. *SUCKS*
Having lunch with this stupid colleagues really spoils my appetite for my lunch. After lunch, she was really complaining abt her work, saying she need to do this lah, need to do that lah, etc. I just wish that she could just shut her mouth up. Sometimes, I help her do her stuff leh! Wah liew leh..... If she keep complaining about her work load, then y is she here for? Paid here to surf net?
As I couldn't bear to hear anymore, I told malay colleague that i am going to the bank. So i went off. But hey, I really go to the bank just to withdraw cash and went to walk around Raffles exchange. Rather take a walk than to listen to her grumbles.
I agreed with my boss about one thing. If we are not happy about our work, just quit. Dun complain. Y bother to complain so much and yet not quiting? So I shall try not to complain soooooo much. So, if i complain to any of you, I sorry to borrow ur ears for listening.
I went home around 7++pm. Saw tons of police cars and I think 2 to 3 civil defense car around Lau Pa Sat. Wonder wat the events about till they blocked one part of the road where the road normally closed for the stall to set up the table.
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*I got the information from Mr T*
Mr T: i know wat happen between the police car and the civil defence thing
Me: wat happen?
Mr T: ya know the constuction opp lau pat sat
the new office building
my client prime mover carry tons of steels
slip on the slope, hit the fencing and a foreign worker was injured
Me: i didn't see any injured pple leh
Mr T: by the time.. he sent to ambulance liao lah
only one injured
Me: but y so many cars?
just to save one person?
Mr T: mom was involve also
no lah, investagtion
Me: mom? how they are involveD?
Mr T: inside construction site mah
so must involve mom
any industrial accident by right should inform mom
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Later in the day, Mr T msn me.
Mr T: wrong info
it was fire @ lau pat sat
ha
my client one was on tues nite
ya case is on last nite
Ha.... tat's explain y there are so many civil defense cars. And water all over the road.
Monday, July 18, 2005
When I hear there is taiwan disaster, I was shocked to hear that all the flight are cancelled.
I was glad to know that Mr L is already back in Singapore. I bet I will be worried if he's still there.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
I met up Mr L for lunch. He pass me a big paper bag, where there is 2 big packets of sweet, one ginseng sweet and the other korea sweet. Also, he bought the tea cup for me in korea plus the english breakfast tea that he didn't wan which we bought from UK.
When I came back to office, Uncle and Sean saw me with a big bag of paper bag. Sean joking said that I got a bf. But I explain that he wasn't my bf and he has a gf and getting married this year. But after i know him, he didn't talk abt it liao.
From there, the gossip started. I explain to everyone in the office. Everyone started to pinpoint me, say i shouldn't be the third party. I didn't. I know I can't be third party. So i already back out. No one know what had actually happened. No one can really understand wat i feel. I already make my decision before he pass me the things. I just wish we can remain as frenz. A frenz that stood by me when i need help. But they wants me to cut down the lunch appointment with him. Wat the F***?
They keep insisting the advice is good for me. But we aren't doing anything wrong. Haiz.... Forget it.. No explanation needed. Or I dun wish to explain anymore. Say watever you wan. I dun care liao. I complain to Mr L. I dun understand Y is there such a big impact in the office?
I met up with Miss L to accompany to Robinson cocktail party. They were promoting Orgin product. Ha, Mr L, I know you wanna laugh liao. Be careful hor. Pple might thought u siao if you laugh in front of the pc. Bleh.
I wasn't really keen on their product that they are selling. They have those products for puffy eyes, cleanser, etc.... Though the products was quite good(Miss L recommended), I didn't buy as I was still using my doctor prescription which I had paid $300 for it. As my doctor prescription really works for me, I see no point of trying those products that I never tried before. Y not I just stick to my doctor prescription? though expensive, but I dun wan to see my face outbreak again. But I just dunno wat to tell Miss L who always keep recommending me to use this and that.
We went to Japanese resturant and have dinner. I was complaining about the matter in the morning. It was damn horrible to have such gossip in the office. My frenz just feel nothing wrong. My colleagues were making a big fuss. I think is becoz my colleagues all are married. That's y they are complaining....
We went to have coffee at star bucks.
Me: So far in my whole life, I feel that he is the nicest. Stable job, got savings, caring, nice, although he is flirt but he is faithful to a gal.
Miss L: Too bad lor, his heart dun belong to you lor. Belong to aother gal, I**.
Me: Ya... really sad lor. If he belong to me, I already satisfied liao. Just think of it lor. A guy can go out flirt around, but if he still come back to your side, wat more do you want?
Miss L: *think for a while then agreed with me*
ya lor
Me: Anyway, I let him go.... Becoz i dun wan him to think of her when he was with me. Or end up breaking up with me and went back to I**. I see him in pain when he was deciding between the 4 of us. And I know I dun stand a chance, so I had to let him go.
Miss L: wow... 4 of you?
Me: ya lor... *listed out the 4 names to her*
Miss L: anyway is over liao
Me: Ya.... now seeing him happily attached, also glad for him.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Mr T: ya miss fish and chips rite
ha
Me: no wor
now pple treat i also dun dare to eat ah!
till now i didn't eat fish and chip leh
Mr T: then i treat ya loh
Me: ok
set
u treat
:P
Mr T: tamade
Me: hahahaha
Mr T: i treat ya eat
Me: lalalalalala~~~~
Mr T: other treat dont wan
Me: of coz
Mr T: ya still owe me a meal leh
Me: even mr L or other friends' treat, i also dun wan fish and chips
lalalalala~~
Mr T: wah liao!!
i look like carrot meh
Me: no
y say that
just becoz u treat me?
hahahhaha
Mr T: yah lah
me: dont care
who ask you to dare me!
humpf
lalalalalalala~~~
Thursday, July 14, 2005
I met up my younger sister for dinner as mum is not free to cook.
We went to Hereen to have sakae sushi. My younger sister was grumbling all the way asking me y i choose orchard rather than city hall area as she is working there. Argh... treating her and yet so many questions? *Faintz*
After dinner, we went to shop around orchard as my younger sister wanted to look for her shirt.
Sis: where the D*** shop is?
Me: Dunno leh
Sis: You often comes to orchard one leh. Can tell me dunno???
Me: If you ask me where is Zara or GG5 or Myphosis or those branded shop, I can answer you leh. But D***, i dunno. The clothes they sell too cheap liao lah! Can't afford the rental in Orchard!
Sis: wah liew......
When the clock strike 9++pm, we went off to take train home. On the way, we saw an old man carrying umbrella, with his pant folded up a little.
He walked past me to the other side of the door and keep using his butt to bang the door. I turned over to look at him, then turned back.
*His Butt bang the second time*
My lips was telling her, siao lang. My younger sister peek over my shoulder to look at him. Then he started to talk in hokkien.....
Everyone started to look at him and turned over.
Finally he got off.... Phew~~~ I was damn near him.... Hearing all his hokkien words and kept banging the MRT door really irriated me.
Sis: You know wat he talking abt?
Me: he said something like all pple dun work or something
Sis: No lah. He said all the pple all work for govt. Work for govt No use one.
Me: huh????
Finally back home....
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Early morning, I already had diarrhea. Went to the toilet frequently till I quite scared that i stopped drinking the tea that I bought early morning. Fortunately, I didn't buy any breakfast.
We went to Tuk Tuk Resturant for lunch as it is one of our colleague birthday. Haiz... I couldn't order Tom Yum soup nor spicy food, therefore, order a plate of pineapple rice. The craving of Tom Yum soup was so untolerable, but for the sake of my stomach, I shall bear with it.
After work, I meet up with my sec sch friends for KTV session. The moment I stepped into the darkness of the KTV room, I saw my friend's cheek. *Shocked* It was sooooooo red. The room was quite dark except for the tv that light up a bit of the room and I could see her redness of the cheek. She just came back from Puket. No wonder getting all the sunburnt.
After the ktv session, we went for a cup of coffee where I treated them just becoz i just dun wan to go home so early when the time showed 9++pm. Had a plate of mud pie to be shared by everyone and ice latte for me. Then we even planned to go HK next year and shall await for the NATAS fair in March and book ticket from there.
Then we walked from Cineleisure all the way to orchard, chatting about our future bf, etc where we went back home.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Surprisingly, I told him I feel jealous........ I thought i will not say, but i did tell him that in the end....
When other gals bugging him, i dun feel good. But i just let out a good laugh. Just to conceal my feelings.
I dun like admit my feelings, seriously. I am the type who doesn't like to tell pple what i think, how i feel.
So, I actually the type who doesn't express my thought. And I can say it is not easy to understand what i am thinking abt. Or am I wrong to say that it is not easy to understand me?
Monday, July 11, 2005
Regarding the telemarketer's timesheet...
Miss A: Jia lat leh.... GSC is asking for the Telemarketer's signature. But the telemarketer has already left! How to sign?
Mr S: Aiyah, that time, Miss D also submit the Telemarketer's timesheet to GSC but without telemarketer's signature. GSC also approved. GSC just wanna create trouble lah.
Mr M: ya.. that time she giving me trouble. That claim form hor, if some rows missing, she will ask leh! Must have certain rows in the form. Otherwise she will ask, "Mr M, you missed out one row!"
Then got to reprint again!
Mr S: That's ok ah. That time, my excel sheet forget to put lines for rows and column. She's nag and nag and nag ah! End up, I use Ruler and pencil to draw for her ah.
Miss A: That's ok ah. If the outside box lines not dark enough, she ask u to bold ah.
Mr S: so bo liao leh. Pay us to do such minor minor small thing just to beautify the excel sheet meh? Should have ask my ah boy (his son) to color for her. Company employed us to do something useful, not to color this or draw lines.
Hahahahaha... So stupid rite? Our Finance, Miss GSC loves to create trouble for pple. what's so big deal about the missing of row in the claim form or the lines or the bold part? I dun get it. She just wanna command pple. Can't stand her.... Very fake.
hm.... My horoscope from friendster say:
If there's one thing your loved ones have learned over time, it's that you don't express feelings the way others do, especially when it comes to anger. In that case, your preferred method is to shut up -- completely -- for days, if need be, or until you prove your point. That's what's going to happen now. You'll let the world know you're displeased through your silence, which, as it turns out, is every bit as formidable as an outlaw brandishing a weapon.
Realised that it fit my description that I dun express my feelings when it come to loves, anger, etc...
Me super bo liao to try this Jealousy test
result?
Jealousy Level: 45%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy
You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance,
when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!",
but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"
Sunday, July 10, 2005
L: so wat did u do tdy???
Me: sleep + eat
L: wat is the diff between u and pig, hahaha....
Me: no diff
except pig eat a lot!
hahahaha
Friday, July 08, 2005
It was such a horrifying feeling the moment I know London's underground was blasted.
I really dunno how I will react if I am at that tube. Will my body blast till all the flesh tear in pieces? Or even after the first blast, will I stone there and waiting to die? I bet I will be too shocked to react or to think what to do next.
Fortunately, my group of travelmate has come back to Singapore. But to know that suspected culprit of the blast was done by Osama bin Laden's global terrorist network, Al-Qaeda, really make me feel that they are Inhuman. Sometimes, I just wonder dun they have feeling? Aren't they human? Oh aren't they feel sad if the the death pple are their kin? Oh ya, I forget. They are just INHUMAN.
My colleague was telling me tat I was quite fortunate that I have come back. Ya, I really feel so, otherwise, hahahah, will be die of romantic tours.
Bored, so decided to do some test ....
What's your personality love style?
and the result is? Wat? My standard high?????
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Next test ....
Your Marriage
and the result is
Your Marriage
How will you choose your Mr Right?
You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun
learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away
from the church.
Who will be your future Mr Right?
Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect
your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.
When will you get married?
You will be very determined and thorough in choosing a spouse. You'll study every detail about your man before
saying yes to a life of love. You will eventually make a good choice, but you'd better be sure that he's willing
to wait that long.
What sort of wife will you be?
You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready
to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.
Will you and your husband have a good time together?
You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy,
but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.
What will your children be like?
Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving
kids up. They are lively and smart.
How loyal are you?
You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a
flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.
Another test.... hm....
You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're
confident, independent, outgoing, and love
attention. You might become a star one day. All
the girls like to follow in your foot steps
because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't
care about anything. You make the rules, never
follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy.
That could be bad. But keep the attitude.
That's what makes you, you.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Controlling my tears from flowing down the cheek. One of my female colleague saw the tears in my eyes.
Ask Boss for advice on how to do my stuff. Mr L sms. Still trying hard to control my tears. After saying bye to them, I finally can relax and think how to do it.
When Mr L called, I grumbled. Sorry to borrow your ears for a while. Tears flowing down as I talked about it. Haiz...
Didn't know I could get so emotional. Luckily no one saw my tears.
Thanks Mr L by trying to tell me some stories to cheer me up. ^_^ Anyway, take good care of yourself while u are in oversea and most importantly is to enjoy urself. And bring back my korea snow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :P
I Shall forget about today matter. I will be grateful to everyone by not asking me wat had happened to me. Tomolo shall be a better day for me.
*Tips from Mervin: Whenever he is unhappy, he will view photo taken from UK and Europe trip.*
Hahahhah... I also did the same. Bleh.... I haven finished viewing all the photo given by my group member! Shall view all in one day.
Monday, July 04, 2005
I was pretty surprised that this guy A went to tell my gal frenz abt the history that he had chased me for yrs.
I didnt give a reply to him? I couldn't remember. But did he ask me? I couldn't remember either. I act blur? Yes, i did. He did hint? Yes, i know but i couldn't say anything. It seem weird to tell him wat i feel at that time.
I was even surprised that he didn't know that i went stead with his frenz, B. Perhaps, it was a hidden relationship and i made B promised that no one should know our relationship as we had just started out.
But we break off after a few weeks. I sorry that i had to initiate this break up. My heart wasn't in this relationship and by breaking off is a good thing that i shouldn't drag nor lead him on.
Till now, i was pretty surprised, B ask me again this year. I know B has been waiting for me for so long, but sorry, i still cannot accept.
I just wish the 2 guys could find the gals of their dream. I not worth waiting, seriously. I'm not a good gal.
