wow, long time guys. so the musical is next weekend omgsh! i'm a nervous wreck. i guess i maybe just needed to vent a little... well, i dont have much to vent about, but at least this website is keeping me somewhat occupied... i want a livejournal or a xanga or something that will do all this organizational stuff for me cuz angelfire wont do crap! arg... anyway, so mel's in philly for the weekend (lucky biotch) with her hockey team, which is super cool... the hoity toity was last night and i had an amazing time. kyle looked so great and me, well, i could've looked better, but i do clean up purty good i must say... it was an awesome night. i'm excited for the musical and i'm excited for everything thats goin on recently. i'm on a pretty good basis with everyone at school, including danielle, who btw, is dating david, yay for them... mel and i are back to normal, even if we are both super busy and only get to see each other occasionally... and i'm completely still head over heels for kyle, which is fantastic... yay for me... all is right with the world right at this moment...

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love...
shan

[music? tv]
[mood? snuggly and contented] And she sings...
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january 16, 2005
8:30 pm

holy smokes its been a hell of a long time. well, to summarize everything in the first 2 weeks of the new year... stressful. my grade in trig freaking dropped like 4 percentage points and my dad was so mad. hes like "omg, why is your trig grade down" and im thinking "because hes an f-ing moron!"... well mel and i were discussing how she, brooke, and josh weren't getting any action. and then mel got some action this weekend and it was immensely entertaining... because lately i've been getting more action then all 3 of them put together because ya know, kyle and all. so i've pretty much been just focusing and school and the muscial for most of the past 2 weeks. the musical's going great and its alot of fun, even if i only have like 14, 15 lines. being on tech with mychelle is a total blast. but other than that everythings really boring. i'm just sitting here waiting for the goo goo dolls to come to town... which they're supposed to be... said ryan, but i dont know where he gets his info cuz hes dumb... but i hope they do. then me and mel can go and it will kick ass... that was so random. so we have a hoity toity coming up in february. we're all going over to emily's and having a fancy dinner and then going to see a play. i bought a new dress today. it's pretty cute its all black with spagehtti straps a with pink ruffles around the edges. i wanted to dress brooke got because it looked awesome on me... but it was like $80 and my mom said "no way", but it looks really awesome on brooke too. mychelle found a great dress as well... okay i'm outa here. bye yall.

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love...
shan

[music? tv]
[mood? god this guy on the show is a asshole]

And she sings...
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december 25, 2004
6:00 pm

murry christmas! yay christmas! i had a great christmas! my break had been so excellent. i got a whole lotta cds (including QUEEN GREATEST HITS and BLUE DEVIL'S SUMMERTRAIN BLUES MIX), a tug mcgraw foundation bracelet, 3 pairs of pj pants, a brand new blue cd player, multiple gift cards, perfume, brand new screaming red dansko clogs and oh yeah, A CAR! omgsh! i was sooooo excited! it's a little gold maxima and i've already hung my fuzzy red dice from the rearview mirror, stuck my bobble body flamingo on the dash, and programed my radio stations. we have officially dubbed the passenger seat "mel's seat". driving by myself is soooo much fun. yeah, i'm a nerd, but hey, i'm a happy nerd.
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love...
shan

[music? tv]
[mood? snuggly and contented]

And she sings...
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december 20, 2004
6:35 pm

howday! im sooo bored. kyle and i were supposed to go down to 16th street mall but it's so so so so so windy. so we opted to go down on wednesday. omgsh, i cant even believe its almost christmas! 5 days. holy smokes! my grandparents and cousin are supposed to be coming in from dallas on... tuesday? wednesday? one of them... it's gonna be and... experience. i'm watching the montgomery gentry/lynard skynard crossroads. and its pretty good. me and brooke were talkin today and it was so much fun. we had some "gone with the wind" moments. and it rocks!
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love...
shan

[music? montgomery gentry/lynard skynard crossroads]
[mood? excited]

And she sings...
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december 7, 2004
8:00 pm

well, the parade of lights was a success i suppose... same as every year... boring. lol... me, brooke, kyle, kristin, kirk, and jason went out to eat at village inn on sunday night and it was the damn funniest time i've had in a long time. kyle and jason "liberated" the spoons from village in just so they could carry them around and when kirk says something dumb the whack him on the knuckles. its funny because at lunch today kyle just whips out his spoons and starts attacking kirk...and then sarah's just sitting there with applesauce in her mouth staring at us... it was hilarious!
i really like the person i drew for "secret" santa. she was easy to shop for. yay. kendra and i had a whole self-discovery thing and it was grand. it was more a kendra-epiphany... im still working on my epiphany. im still letting this whole thing with danielle bother me. it bothers me that she doesnt even notice i exist. i dont know, i cant help it if kyle is the best thing thats happened to me in a long time. i know nobody believes that im with kyle because i care about him and i guess im just sick of being a doormat. arg. oh well... but at least im back on track and focused on what really matters. im back to being me. the me who doesn't need to impress anyone and knows what she wants. and i know what i want and nothing is going to stand in the way of that. yay.
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love...
shan

[music? tv... im watching degrassi...]
[mood? feeling a little bit good about myself...yay]

And she sings...
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december 2, 2004
7:45 pm

howdy everyone. well, the parade of lights is tomorrow night... and its gonna be so cold. it was cold at practice tonight so ill probably wish i was dead tomorrow night. but on the plus side, my friends and i are doing secret santa "drawings" tomorrow and it excites me. i like giving presents. everyone usually buys everybody a present, but i guess brookles and kristin decided that we all were a little low on cash this christmas season, so that we should just buy one present instead of about a million and a half. on the plus side, thats good, cuz then i've just got my santa person, kyle and mel to shop for... and im pretty sure i've got kyle covered, and ive just gotta get the 2nd part of mel's present. we're really odd, we cant just give one present, its gotta be a little cluster... haha. anyway, so other than that, nothings really been going on. i tried to win tickets to see keith urban in concert next monday, but that attempt failed, ah well, what can ya do? arg, im bored. but on the plus side, im watching "inside fame: garth brooks", and as far as garth brooks, ive got about 4 or 5 albums of his. hes fantastic. my favorites are "in pieces" and "scarecrow"... oh i love garth brooks.
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love...
shan

[music? #17 on the top 20 countdown, "holy water"- big and rich on "horse of a different color"]
[mood? snuggly...]

And she sings...
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november 26, 2004
11:20 am

this is pathetic... here's another survey, i stole this one from mel because im so so so bored.
--UNIQUE--
1. Nervous habits? i pace... alot
2. Are you double jointed? in my arms
3. Can you roll your tongue? oui
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? only my left one
5. Can you cross your eyes? yup
6. Do you make your bed daily? haha, yeah right
--CLOTHES--
10. Which shoe goes on first?: usually the right.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: not recently, but i usually throw my slippers at ryan
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: usually like 5 bucks, if that
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? livestrong, my footprints ring, and my SMM ring... the necklace varies, but i always wear one
14. Favorite piece of clothing? my express jeans and my tulane hoodie.
--FOOD--
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl it
16. Have you ever eaten Spam?: sadly... i was young, didnt know any better
17. Favorite ice cream flavor?: rocky road or neopolitan
18. How many cereals in your cabinet?: somethin like 3- lucky charms, special K, and cheerios
19. What's your favorite beverage?: coke
20. What's your favorite restaurant?: in nawlins-semolinas/copelands, here-pappadeuxs, babydoes, bennigans
21. Do you cook?: mel and i make mean grilled cheeses...
--GROOMING--
22. How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day
23. Hair drying method?: usually just a ponytail, but if im feeling special or something just a blowdryer and my huge flatbrush
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: multiple times, but i just now got my hair back to all natural
--MANNERS--
25. Do you swear?: only if ya get me really riled
26. Do you ever spit? if i absolutely have to... its usually during marching season after ive had like 4-5 squirts of lemonjuice
--WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE--
27. Animal?: sea otters
28. Food?: anything southern, italian or chocolate
29. Month?: april
30. Day?: usually friday
31. Anime?: wtf?
32. Shoe Brand?: converse, dansko, ugg
33. Subject in school?: history/music
34. Color?: red
35. Sport?: baseball
36. TV show?: gilmore girls, american dreams
37. Thing to do in the spring?: sleep, eat, read, sing
38. Thing to do in the summer? : sleep, eat, read, sing, go to new orleans, march
39. Thing to do in the fall?: sleep, eat, read, sing, march
40. Things to do in the winter?: sleep, eat, read, sing, ski
--IN AND AROUND--
41. The CD player?: ryan cabrera-"take it all away", rascal flatts-"feels like today", mix, tim mcgraw-"live like you were dyin", tim mcgraw-"set this circus down"... i have a 5 disc changer...
42. Person you talk most on the phone with?: mel
43. Ever taken a cab?: in noo yook
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: who doesnt?
45. What color is your bedroom?: red, tan, black
46. Do you use an alarm clock?: unfortunately
47. Window seat or aisle?: aisle, clostrophobic
--LALA LAND--
48. What's your sleeping position?: like i would know that.
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: yes
50. Do you snore?: no way man
51. Do you sleepwalk?: no
52. Do you talk in your sleep?: yes... i sing too, its sad
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: its either my leopard pillow or my BG bear
54. How about with the light on?: if you have a light on, ill kill you
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: mostly
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love...
shan

[music? "mack the knife"- michael bubla on "come fly away"]
[mood? content...]

And she sings...
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november 21, 2004
2:10 pm

okay im bored, so heres a survey-y thing for yall...
[10 songs you love]
10. Fool in the Rain- Led Zeppelin
9. When the Sand Runs Out- Rascal Flatts
8. 1985- Bowling for Soup
7. You Shook Me All Night Long- AC/DC
6. Here for the Party- Gretchen Wilson
5. Your Song- Elton John
4. Rough and Ready- Trace Adkins
3. I Go Back- Kenney Chesney
2. On The Way Down- Ryan Cabrera
1. Iris- Goo Goo Dolls
[9 things you're looking forward to]
9. The Christmas Choir Concert
8. Seeing "Finding Neverland" with Brookles and Mel
7. Me and Brooke's date
6. Christmas
5. prom
4. summer
3. going to new orleans
2. graduation
1. my 21st birthday
[8 things that drive you crazy](good crazy)
8. Chrome (matt's cologne)
7. Axe
6. deep voices
5. drummers (yeah, im pathetic, i know)
4. shaggy hair
3. singers
2. boys in uniform
1. boys who play piano... grrrowl
[7 things you say too often]
7. shut up
6. i hate you
5. i love you
4. that rawks my sawks off
3. that rawks my contacts out
2. yes, ive been to mardi gras
1. y'all
[6 things you love to do]
6. kiss
5. go to the movies
4. hang with friends
3. read a good book
2. play baseball
1. sing/flute
[5 friends you cant live without]
5. mike
4. kenna
3. zulauf
2. chelle
1. mel!
[4 people who confuse you]
4. chelle sometimes...
3. slater
2. danielle
1. drew
[3 tv shows you watch]
3. life as we know it
2. gilmore girls
1. american dreams
[2 things you want to accomplish]
2. fall in love and get married
1. star on broadway
[1 thing you regret]
1. its a tie between my entire 8th grade year and not being friends with danielle anymore...

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love...
shan

[music? "you shouldnt kiss me like this"- toby keith on "how do you like me now?!"]
[mood? cant wait to go shopping!]

And she sings...
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november 20, 2004
7:15 pm

wow, writing the very next day... im kinda impressed with myself... lol... it could just be that im bored again and because my family's driving my crazy! at least i'm not being all yuck tonight. kyles comin over at 7:30ish. so ill just avoid my family because they jump all over me for everything. and im like "dude, its my life, let me live it" and do they listen? no, of course not... well, im gonna write i guess seeing as ive got like 15 minutes and nothings on tv... and i couldnt even read a chapter in that amount of time, so hey, here i go...

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love...
shan

[music? "breathing"- yellowcard on "ocean avenue"]
[mood? bored...]

And she sings...
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november 19, 2004
7:55 pm

hello to everyone out there in internetland. success for all of those who care about my supAcool new beatles "abbey road" layout. its pretty kickass.the beatles rawk my contacts out. mel said i needed to change my "the king" layout and tonight i was supAbored, so thank you mel for tres bien advice. she is currently in minnesota for a hockey tournement... good luck to mel, kick DU's ass!
so here i am... on a friday night, bored out of my freaking mind. amie, me and mychelleish went to flatirons after school. twas tres bien. i bought a cute tealish shirt from aeropostale for a whopping $8... mychelle had to bail earlier because she had cheer practice and so me and amie sorta wandered and went to wetzels pretzels and victoria secret and then amies dad called so we snagged us some orange juliuses (is juliuses even a word??) and came home. so i got home and i showed my mom the new shirt i bought and she hates it. shes all "you're brastraps showing" despite the fact that its like a double layer shirt. and it made me sad, cuz i liked it, mychelle liked it... we all liked it except for mom, which sucked.
well, im such a loser because im at home on a friday night... dude, its crazy. i guess i coulda been at kristins little "movie night" thing, but i opted not to go because #1: i dont have a car to get over there and #2: ive gotta get up freaking early tomorrow... im still really bored, but i didnt feel like being there i guess just because the whole principle of the thing is just not right. jason wanted to have a movie night at mel's just because mel wasnt gonna be there and so mel said "dude, thats not cool" and i guess kristin just decided to have one. i dunno, i just didnt feel like being all social i guess. id like to see kyle i guess, but i see him everyday. so for now, ill live... yay

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love...
shan

[music? "save a horse, ride a cowboy"- big and rich on "horse of a different color"]
[mood? sick of here]