Month: march
Day: 30
Year: 2003
8:58 p.m
i never wanted you to be just another memory
Turns out thats all you are now a days.
I find my self waking up thinking of you, mabye I was dreaming of you to. But I never remember. I just lay there and when I finaly realize what i'm doing it's to late to stop.
I wonder where he's at. Sir. I'm just nothinking to clearly, my emotions haven't been matching my actions. I need to get this excess energy out but theres no way to make it come out.
actually...some one brought up a point....
This is just high school, we shouldn't be in long or serious relationships now. Not to piss any one off by saying this (every one says it) but I could get killed by a bus crossing the street tomorrow. Not very likely but it just shows that I don't plan for the future when it comes to stuff like this. All I have is here and now, i'm not currently living 20 years in the future, So I might as well live for what makes me happy. If this makes me happy thats all that should matter. I was happy with him. In the end we both wanted the same thing. But I drained him til he had nothing left.
I'll be leaving soon for two weeks. I should be happy.
Month: march
Day: 29
Year: 2003
12:40 a.m
*yawn*
