Turning Myself Around

Change of Plans
Mood:  irritated
Why is it whenever I try to do something, it goes wrong, or gets changed? The 'Lounge Around Movie Night' has now turned into a friend's birthday party. I'm ok with it, I dont mind that, but I'd still really like to be able to invite Mike. Annie has decided that she doesn't want anyone but me, Brit, my other best friend, and Brit's boyfriend Jamie, and Annie's boyfriend-ish guy Chris, who's leaving for a 9 month exchange type program next week. I'd really like to see Mike, but I know she doesn't want me to invite him. I think I'm going to invite him and try to figure things out from there. I mean, the party wasnt supposed to be her birthday anyway.

Ummm.... ok....
Mood:  don't ask
Okay... So there's this guy... We somewhat dated back in grade 8, lost touch for 3 years, then met up again through friends and yeah... That's the long story short. Mike and I are like best friends, I love him, and I want the best for him, all of our friends though, think I'm the best for him. Mike's been dating this girl for the past year, a little bit over it, and he's head over heals in love with her. They break up every week, and get back together but they're always fighting. She's supposedly had an abortion, and he was heartbroken, I could tell by his voice over the phone, it upset me so much. I dunno what to think about anything anymore. She gave him a certain amount of time to prove to her that he loves her. This guy would go to the moon and back to make her happy, and yet she doesnt realize it still. He tells her every day, personally I think that's enough, but he also buys her things constantly to make her happy, he bought her a diamond ring, takes her out to super fancy resteraunts. I dont know, I think he'd be much happier with out her because she's making his life miserable.

So confused!
Mood:  a-ok
I know that's not unusual for me, but still, I'm even more confused now then ever! My one crush, the guy I went to the opera with, Brad, messaged me on MSN last night right before I went to sign off. I'm too shy to message him first, so I took the opportunity to chat with him. He asked me what was up, I had just gotten home from work so I said I was tired, and he said he was 'chillin with his beer'. I just kinda chuckled to myself, figuring he was drunk and could be pretty interesting. Out of nowhere he asked me what I'm doing tomorrow morning, when I told him I'm working, he said 'aw that sucks, I wanted to hang out with you tomorrow morning'. He kinda took me by surprise, and then after a while, he just randomly said, 'I'm really upset now, I really wanted to hang out with you this weekend.'. I'm so confused now, I dont know if that was just the alcohol talking for him, or if it was actually him. I know for a fact he is single, and the girl he was after is now history. Maybe something might happen...

College day at Conestoga College
Mood:  spacey
Today was the day a local college invited graduating high school students to talk to representatives and student recruters from colleges around Ontario. I think it was a great opportunity. I've come to realize that I'm not so sure that I want to get into nursing, just because math really isn't my best subject, and I didn't realize how much would be involved. I guess I'm going to go for Personal Support Worker, and maybe wait a few years and up grade myself to a RPN later on. I was lucky that I knew a few people from school going. Lucky me, my ex was also there. He totally ignored me at the campus, but then when we got to school, he was all chatty and everything. Sure he was with the girl he likes, but come on, does it hurt to say hi to someone every now and then?

The Most Amazing Evening
Mood:  special
The Romeo and Juliet Opera was amazing! My date picked me up at around 6:30 and we went to the opera talk before the show. There we learnt about the composer and about the opera itself and went over what to expect. Now I think I'm even more confused then I was before the date though! During one of the scene changes, he kind of leanded over towards me and asked me if he might visit me at work tomorrow and after the opera, once he dropped me off at home, I walked back down stairs to walk my dog with him, and he asked me if I'd like to go to another opera with him, and that one's one that his uncle's going to be singing in. I really hope things go well, but if it's going to be nothing really, I hope we stay as close of friends as we are now for a long time. Keep ya posted!

One more day!
Mood:  a-ok
Yay! Tomorrow's the Opera! I'm so excited, it'll be so much fun. I guess I've gotten over the fact that my date has a girlfriend but oh well. I mean, he's a good friend of mine, I guess I shouldn't want to chance loosing the friendship we have because I can trust him with more then I can trust with any of my girl friends which is nice to have, and I can always go to him for advice too! School was actually pretty good today too... I got to talk to a few friends I havent had a chance to sit down with in a while which was really nice.

Count down to Romeo and Juliet opera

I knew there was a catch...
Mood:  sad
Of course... I knew the whole invitation to the Romeo and Juliet opera was to good to be true. My best friend asked the guy, just out of her own curiosity as to why he asked me and no one else... Come to find out he doesnt like me... I'm ok with that, I can handle it... What I cant handle though is the fact that HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND! Why doesnt he just take her and save some confusion? Oh well... I mean, he's an amazingly close friend of mine, I'm lucky to have him, but still... I've liked him for over a year now, and I guess it's just time to give up.

Pinch me please!
Mood:  special
I cant believe it! One of the guys I've had a crush on and have been amazing friends with for a year asked me to go to the opera with him friday! I know it might not seem like a big deal, but I love the opera, and I love Romeo and Juliet which is what we're going to see! I kind of find it weird that he asked me. I mean this guy has every second girl that walks by drooling over him, why didnt he pick anyone else? When he asked me he said 'I need a date for the opera friday night'... Maybe he's just 'settling' for me... He's also in love with a friend of ours and he didn't even ask her, I was his first choice... I'm kind of curious about the whole thing but I'm sure the night will be a lot of fun, interesting at the very least. Keep ya posted!