And So I Live
Mood:  d'oh
After a long period,I am posting again. Not much to say,all is quiet on the homefront.For a lovely change I must say. School is about to begin again.Kinda torn on how I feel about that.Seems like I am getting so old,sighs.Soon the hols will be on us again,they seem to get here faster every year. Wonder how and why that happens.So I will go again for now.TaTa

As Time Goes By...
Well it has been awhile since last post.And I definitely need to make a correction to the prior post.The situation w HIM was NOT my fault whatsoever.Since that post,I discovered more information than I ever dreamed of finding. I will not post the link here.Let's just say HE was nowhere near the man HE said HE was.Everything over the last 2 years has been lies.According to this article I found,HE has been in a wheelchair since childhood due to a gun accident.So that shatters HIS race lifestyle story.I have chosen not to confront HIM over this.The way I see it,HE is a lot more pathetic than I.However,if HE provokes me to where I lose it, I will send HIM the link and tell HIM to draw HIS own conclusions.Let HIM have HIS fantasy.Truly I pity HIM.I also believe there is a wife involved.I have definitely changed.I don't know if HE can tell or not,HE'd be blind not to see it.But its all good.No room for hate here.Besides that I have a new playmate,not prepared to elaborate at this time tho.LoL.So on that note, I shall go.Toodles.

Life As I Know It Ends
Well,the title pretty well says it all.Without going into too many details,let's just say HE and I are finished.I am humble enough to say that yes,it is MY fault. I am through with the male species online. No offense to any of you guys that do happen to read this. Can't judge all by one. I have severe trust issues,meaning I am not capable of trusting anyone. Which really saddens me because I know I am hurting only myself.My lousy marriage is at the root of my trust problem,but we won't delve into that.It is really hard for me to take at face value anything anyone tells me.So on that note, I will go.I have a lot of thinking,and crying,yet to do.

Lesson Learned
Lo and behold, I am making another post. Shocking I know.Lesson learned for this week-Never let anyone involved in your personal relationships.Even your best friend.The simple truth is,they may have your best interest at heart,but they will never know your significant other as well as you do.Save yourself a LOT of heartache in the end. I followed my instinct for a change,and boy am I glad I did so. HE so hates for people to talk about HIM.Think it bothers HIM even more when I let others yaps get to me. HE's right.I know HIM,they dont.Think jealousy comes to play also.
On another note,summer is nearly here,and my son is rejoicing.Bah I say lol. Summer always flies by,and the next thing you know,Xmas is here. Course I'm not prepared...am I ever really? Are any of us? LoL Whats also kind of sad is he starts hs this year.Ages me a lot.My boy is growing up toooo fast.
I reckon I need to get myself dressed,gotta go put a payment on my dsl.So on that note,I shall close.
Toodles

Just another day
Its really hard keeping up w 2 blogs let me tell you.I keep up w my private blog more than I do this one,for obvious reasons. Been spending some time w HIM. HE is the most wonderful person I have ever known.Only wish I was right there w HIM.Really hasnt been a whole lot to write about.Got a 2% raise the other day.Whoopie. Coulda been better,but I dont "participate" enough in meetings n what have you. So in other words,shyness is a flaw.My question is..why should I repeat whats already been said? And anyway,everything I have to complain about,nothing will be done about it.So why bother.No sense wasting breath.Oh and the fact that I had to miss 4 days last month because of my son being in a car wreck didnt help.Screw extenuating circumstances apparently.But you know,if the situation were to come up again,I'd do the same thing w/o thinking twice about it.Told em when I hired in last year,god it HAS been that long,ick,that my son comes 1st no matter what. I seriously need the lottery.Really. Summer starts for my boy this week.Fri is his last day.And he will be griping in a month about being bored.He gets vacation but I still have to work.Blah.But I will be taking some paid time off this summer.Going to try to plan it where I see HIM race.Gotta see if HE is still even talking to me.LONG story there,best left unsaid. SO anyway,theres my thought for the week.Cant promise when next post will be cuz I just dont know.Any questions see the 1st line of this post.G'nite for now.

Typical Pay Day
Went and got most of my bills paid today,so needless to say I'm pretty well broke.The really sad thing is every dime I shelled out pertained to that car.That is a long story in itself.Had to pay insurance,car payment,and I owe heaps to my mechanic,who bless them,are taking payments from me.Still have other things to try and squeeze in.And no c/s check listed as sent yet..grr.. bloody dead beat dad!
Went n got my boy's hair cut today. He wanted it feathered and layered..well.. w his straight hair...he might not benefit from it.. but we shall see.
Got to see HIM today..sighs.So of course I am going to melt.Made me laff so much I thought I was going to split.HE was my days highlight.So anyway,thats about it.Ta

My Intro
This is'nt my 1st blog,but my other is private,so you won't get to see it! ;)
A little about myself so you can decide to click out or read on: I'm a divorced mom raising a 14 yr old boy on my own,also mom to Cokebear,my chow/spitz mix,I'm a wild life artist,and I am obsessed w psp!(paint shop pro) 7 is my preference,tho I do have 8 as well.I enjoy making graphics, and working on my site.I may put a link up to it later.
This is my stress outlet.So one thing I ask is no nasty comments.I don't care what people think,this is my spot to sound off,and if you dont like it,well,just hit the little X in the upper right hand corner.
I'm really close to someone on here,of the male persuasion of course,so HE will probably be mentioned on here quite a bit.No name,dont want to get THAT personal! HE is really special,has a way of making me feel 14 all over again. On the same token,HE makes me so mad sometimes,LoL. The way I see it,if I didnt get mad sometimes,there would be no feeling,so its all good.
On that note,I will close.I have a dr appointment today,and I need to get cleaned up. So toodles for now!