I was drowning and nobody helped me
My heart had a void that was not evident
Years were passing with my life slipping away
I was dying inside and nobody suspected a thing
No turned over earth, no coffin, no sad moods
I covered it well and the signs were not posted
A smile was painted on like a clown most days
Unsuspecting friends hadn't a clue of my pain
The tears flowed backwards in my eyes
If someone listened they would have heard the dripping pools
How did I reach that state in the first place
Only God can answer that statement
Could it have been a lost love from long ago
Was I selfish and now was paying for my debts
I was told once that I was a cruel person to love
Not in a mean sense but that I showed very little of it
Was I so stubborn that love couldn't penetrate me
Chances are I waited too late in life to express love
Did the love train pull away from the station
Never to return for the passenger it left behind
I was finding myself hard to get along with
Even I couldn't stand my own self at times
If I didn't love me then I was destined to be unhappy
My fate was sealed I imagined so I let it be
Then someone came into my life
She came with a mind full of inspiration
A heart full of love and tenderness
The soft voice that melts tears away
I began to resurface once again
No longer was I taking in water
My mind ran with hers like two stallions
Running in a place where dreams can soar
She brought me back to the living
After wandering aimlessly in such a dark state of mind
I love her for who she is and what she represents
That being my lifeguard, my lover, and my friend
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