Poem
Mood:
blue
Now Playing: silence
Topic: need to vent or blab
Is your heart really mine? I want you to answer me honestly this time.
Please answer this question with truthful words...Will your heart ever be hers?
I'm sick of pretending everythings fine, does your word go as deeply as mine?
Do you even want a kiss or a hug? My heart feels like you shot it with a slug.
Is this what love is supposed to feel like? Like you drove something into my heart...maybe a spike.
You used to say you love and miss me too, now my words don't mean anything to you.
You say that a part of love is trust, are you in love or is it just lust?
I'm tired of all these games that you play, now its your time to hear what I say.
I love YOU with all my heart, but are YOU gonna let it fall apart?
well i wrote that poem tonight, cuz im really upset with jessie. I had friends over on saturday nite, and all weekend me n jessie were arguing back and forth. then last night i thought i straightened things out, and this morning he got all pissed off at me and left, then he came back and everything was fine. so him zack, dakota, alisha, shawn and i were here chillin out, and mom and i had to drop alisha off at home, so i kicked everyone out. when he left i went to kiss and hug him and say "love you" and after i said it he was like "sometimes i wonder about that". since then i've been upset and asking myself questions, and i wrote that poem. im just gonna tell him that, if he wants out just say the words cuz im sick of pretending everythings fine im sick of trying to work things out especially when he's not putting any effort in. so im pretty much gonna ask him if he thinks its really worth working out, or we're just gonna call it quits, because our relationship's hanging by a thread right now, one more cut and its just gonna fall and shatter, just like my heart. i often wonder if im good enough for him, even tho everyone tells me im too good for him. i dunno why i love him so much, i had a bad feeling right from the start, and i still went ahead and trusted him with my heart. but anywho, im gonna do some thinking, just needed to get some stuff out. peace