A Song for the Nameless
This is a song for the nameless
For all those fallen from grace
For all your years of torment and pain
I know you've finally found your place
This is a prayer for all those left behind
May you spread your wings and fly
Hold on, heaven's door is so close
You can reach it, please just try
The sun...the sun will rise again
Tomorrow the world will know your end
A quiet soul, that sadness never too far behind
I hope you're well, I know you've found your peace of mind
This is a song for the nameless
For all those fallen from grace
For all your years of torment and pain
I know you've finally found your place
This is a prayer for all those left behind
May you spread your wings and fly
Hold on, heaven's door is so close
You can reach it, please just try
It's cold, so cold I know but please don't be afraid
You're gone, but the world goes on, how I wish you'd stayed
Please everyone keep on holding on
I know I can't take it again, please don't leave me aloneThis is a song for the nameless
For all those fallen from grace
For all your years of torment and pain
I know you've finally found your place
This is a prayer for all those left behind
May you spread your wings and fly
Hold on, heaven's door is so close
You can reach it, please just try
This is a song for the nameless
We'll miss you all our lives
In the arms of angel, you've given up your life
I wish I could've stopped you, but you left us all behind
I guess all I can say is...thank you, good luck
Goodbye

IT'S A USELESS BLOB!!!!

Learning...
Everything is all right in the end, and if it isn't all right...then it's not the end.
I was flown out to Calgary immediately on Thursday night. My gramma who I loved with all my heart passed away on Thursday, and I had to go out for the funeral with my mum. For a week and a half.
There was definately a fair share of crying, but my birthday happened to. Andrew even came, God knows why. He barely even spoke to me. But I had a great birthday with my family. My uncles broke into a spontaneous acapella version of "You're Sixteen, You're Beautiful and You're Mine" When I cut my cake. Then there was dirty dancing courtesy of mad uncle Tony, who's English is somehow getting worse. Don't ask em how that's possible, he's lived in North America for years. but he asked me to get his "Yellow Yacket" and I had no idea what he was talking about, so I just left.
Thank God for them though.
I don't think I could have a better family.

Falalalalala
Stupendous day!! Sang a wondrous song in Japanse, had an interesting time in drama, and didn't get my SCIENCE TEST THAT I CERTAINLY FAILED back!! Dance was funky, PE was...well boring but it was over soon enough.
Certain blonde's that shall not be named are bringing me down though, I must confess. OR they're trying to. Not really succeeding. But hey, anyone who's lifelong role model is...Paris Hilton goes down as a leeeeetttle iffy in my books. But hey, if you want to emulate yourself after a terminally unemployed amateur porn star...be my guest.

The Worst Day of the ENTIRE YEAR
Did I ever mention how much I HATE Valentines day? I mean honestly, it's amazing how ONE DAY out of the entire year, can crush what little self confidence you may have had. I can't bloody get away from it either! It's on TV, on the computer, on the radio...I went for a walk because I thought I was going to lose my mind if I stayed in the house for one more minute and that just made me go even MORE insane! It's everywhere! Guys buying flowers for their girlfriends, girls in the card sections going all bloody moony. Makes me sick. SICK!!! So I bought a king size chocolate bar, and went shopping for Anne Rice books to appropriately desecrate the whole Valentines day ideal. Didn't find a good book, or did, but didn't want to bother paying four bucks for it. So instead, walking in a disgruntled manner back home. I may be going crazy but i actually think someone drove by and pointed and laughed. Unless i really am losing my mind, which is very possible.
I can't WAIT for this fooging day to be over. Then I have a glorious year until I have to face it's horror's again.
Whoever invented it, I swear only did it to patronize me.
Bastards.

Epiphany! Or something!
Hmm...been pondering, just realized something. I mean, my whooole life I've wanted to be famous right? But...like I know that won't make me happy because...I'm already happy! And I just realized that it doesn't matter whether I ever get to be famous or not, just as long as I get to sing, and perform all my life, I'm totally okay. Music is it's own reward, so there you go. Wow. I feel good now. Off to sleep. Night night.

Just pull on your Skintight wetsuit, jump in the lake, pop up HELLOOOOO!!!
Very interesting day. I was DEAD this morning. So tired, horrible day windy cold bleck. First thing in the morning, I have horrid PE. So I collapsed on the gym floor with Rach, and then Miss Stannard (Sports Hitler) says "All of you sitting down, you're gonna pay!" So we're just "Unnngggggghhh noooooo..." She makes us RUN and do pushups for a half hour!!! Sadistic wench! So then, skinny little Miss Riley from the University comes up, with a Madonna mic on, and we're doing Box aerobics! It was just like an informercial I swear. With the "Yeah come on! Work it girls!" Well. An infomercial or a creepy lesbian vibed stripping movie. Anyway, I did that for an hour, then I go to dance where Miss Dobbie tells me we'll be joining the NEXT PE class in THEIR Box Aerobics. So I was like "Noooooooooooooooooooooo!!!" But I had to do it anyway. I'm sure that's when satan makes you do in hell. Only I'm sure he prods you with his pointy...fork thing instead of using a Madonna microphone.
Socials and Math were boring but ENGLISH was amazing. We had a huge debate about the themes behind Romeo and Juliet with the awesome Miss Kadin. So it goes:
Miss Kadin: Do you believe in love at first sight?
Me: Yes!
Mallory: No!
We had such an awesome discussion. I really haven't figured Miss Kadin out, and we disagree on a lot of things, but she's definately awesome.
So it was a good day. I figured out just how much of a girly girl I actually am hahaha. There's being sensible and practical...then there's me. Heh.
I'm walking to the store now, and I have to get ready. It's freezing cold, but I want a coke dammit!

My Spiritual Pathway (Whatever in the Name of Pantyhose THAT is...
I'm just going to write this here, because I have a feeling i'll lose it in some obscure nook of my sock drawer if I don't. So here goes:

Spiritually you were born with a need for adventure and to see the world. You will need your quiet time every now and then. Just some time to think and ponder the big questions in life. You are a natural born teacher with a need to share your knowledge. From time to time, you will have to leave home and express your nature for adventure and freedom.

Spiritually, it is your mission in life to educate those who need guidance. You are quite good at this task however, sometimes you need guidance yourself. As a human being, you desire the best life has to offer and you feel you deserve it. This may be a result of being related to a Royal family more than once in other lives. (Siri note: Hahahahahaha was there ever any question??) Spiritually you are able to draw on personalities from other lives. So, sometimes the question is who are you today. Spiritually you follow the path of the angel of mercy. You will do whatever it takes to help someone. Just don't forget yourself in the process. Spiritually you have had many lifetimes and quite readily may unknowingly draw on this knowledge.

Your personal life is an open book and you desire as many people to read this book as possible. Just rememeber, that sharing has rules. Your energy suggests that you vibrate on an emotional level (Siri Note: Could go into a naughty idea with this. However, will restrain and digress.) Therefore one of your spiritual gifts is the ability to tune into people emotionally. This will allow you to help them on an emotional level. One thing that keeps you from being an emotional basket case is helping others. Your ability to sensitize your feelings to others is a talent you have developed over centuries. Life for you will always be an education. If you were as good at helping yourself as you are at helping others, things would be so much simpler.

Spiritually, you were a born leader. You have a lot of inner creative talent. If only you would focus on this gift instead of sometimes trying to fit in where you don't belong. To you status is so important. You can spend a lifetime trying to find your status in life, forgetting you already have it. Try not to get caught up in trivial things. Allow people to like you for you, not what you feel they should know. Share what you know spiritually. Use the gift you have to expand your own awareness. If you feel that you lack spiritual gifts or direction then just listen to your own words when counselling others. Follow the pathway of light.


Huh. I'm prolific. :D

Whoa. Whoa.
Hmmmmm life is tres compliquet non? I don't know if that's how you say it. er spell it. That IS how you say it. I went to get a psychic reading today i kid you not. How funky is that?? It was dead on too, kinda fureeeeky.

Here it is:

Spiritually, you were born a free spirited soul. Throughout your life, freedom will always be important. In life, perfect self-expression is one of your goals. Spiritually, you were born happy and have a natural lust for life. People with this type of energy vibration always like the finer things that life has to offer. At birth you were inquisitive, and very aware of life around you.

At birth, you were born a gentle soul. However, if not attention is paid to you, you can display a bad temper. Your spiritual personality at birth would have been shaped from the Spirit Guides around you at the time. Some of these spirit guides would have been of native origin. Being born a free soul, spiritually you would need to have a number of spirit guides watching your developement and growth. Some mystics believe, the spirit guides you have atound you at birth are guides you have known in other lives you have lived.

You would have been a charmer at birth. If you couldn't get your way with charm, you most likely pulled a tantrum, then you got your own way. At birth you had a good outlook on life. Everything was simple and straight forward. As we get older, life becomes more complicated and we really learn the meaning of the word no. This is a word you are not that fond of in life.

You were born a fighter, throughout your life you will always reach inside and pull out the strength you need to survive. Because you were born a free unencumbered soul, some people with this vibration are known to be very unpredictable at times. You were born with need to fit in and please others around you in life. Along with this goes the need to be the centre of attention every now and then. Most people with this energy vibration are very well educated people. They are usually always educated on life at an early age.

Try your best in life, to bring out the best in yourself. You were born with many admirable qualities. Try not to let other people subject you to any peer pressure. Be true to yourself and you will always find your way. Your spirituality is rich in generosity, kindness and awareness. Use your gift wisely.

How Much More of a Freak Could I Possibly Be?
Sometimes I wish I war normal. But nooooooooooooo I'm just a flaming freak of nature. It's not enough that I'm freakishly short with stumpy legs and feet that fit into my hands. NO! I have to be a complete and utter freak. So there I was standing at the door with the pizza guy (who happened to be a total hottie) on the other side, waiting for him to ring the freakin' thing all ready and I didn't realize that my Dad had already answered. HOURS later I answered and for a tip I basically had something along the lines of "Take ahhhh that....uhhhh yeah ahhhh." Door closes.
I should probably just go curl up and die now.