Email Exchange
Michael,
Please see my notes below in RED:
----- Original Message -----
From: MGokey@uniqgroup.com
To: Bonnie Gokey
Cc: lynda.hurdsmith@techparkatl.com
Sent: Thursday, July 03, 2003 9:00 AM
Subject: Re: Friday & Saturday
Bonnie
I DON"T need to RSVP that I would be getting Maxwell. Only if I was not getting him. I don't want to play games with you. You have the upper hand, and you might want to think about how you have been handling it.
I think you've forgotten your actions of June 18 and the fact that you've been abusive to your girlfriend. Yes, I figured out it was your girlfriend. I also got a copy of the police report and know that you did much more than shove her. I think this is horriffic to think that you could care so much for someone and then turn around and hurt her so badly. You were abused as a child and now you are abusing as an adult. I will not stand by to "wait and see" if you are going to "lose it" around Max.I had wanted things to work out better with you, but they are not. You are not letting me take him, and do Daddy things. Shadowing means staying out of sight. Now I may realize, that you may think this is my fault, fine. But Maxwell really needs to spend time with his Daddy. Ether we do stuff fully together, and you let me run the show, when it is my time, or you let me take care of my son during my time, my way. I understood your initial concerns from 2 weeks ago..... but I can not have you continuing to be controlling and interfering in my time with him. If you wish to interfere, that is your business, and I just will not get him. When you are there, he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. I thought we had talked about going to the park, and you sitting in the car.....Or going to the pool, and you sitting in the car.... those meant that you were out of site. And that way he would focus on playing with Daddy.
BG>If you remember correctly, it was your idea to have me join you at the pool and not just sit by and watch. I was happy to just watch, but you wanted to pretend to be a happy little family again. I want nothing to do with you or your sick little pretend world. Before you try to blame another one of YOUR problems on me, you should remember that this was brought on, yet again, by your actions and nothing else.
BG>You can't be too surprised that Max won't have anything to do with you when I'm in the room. You're controlling, rude, and down right obnoxious around him. Maybe you should try changing your own actions as to why Max doesn't want anything to do with you. Yes, you need daddy time, but when you force him to do everything your way or not at all, then how fun is that for him?
Some of my plans that I had been working on for Thursday, Friday, and Saturday was to go swimming, having a towel, and dry clothes, shoes, socks, and sandals.
Going and seeing fireworks on the 3rd ether at downtown Norcross, or Duluth, which would require that I bring him back later.... But he could handle it, being as he didn't have to get up early on Friday/ Saturday. Grilling hot dogs / brots, and then later marshmallows. I would love to take him to see the NEW laser light show / fireworks on the 4th. This would also mean that he would get back late. I also plan for pasta salad, chips, beans, and corn salad.
BG>Had you kept your nose clean like I asked and not beat up your girlfriend, returning him after the designated time may have been possible. Michael, you are a lose cannon - you can't control yourself, your life, or your anger. Being in a large group of people with a small child late at night is absolutely out of the question. You can still grill out and have your picnic, but late night is not possible.
I make sure he has a nap on my long days. It helps us both to be able to get some rest (him mostly) and so them he feels like is really being with me, not just a little while baby-sitting him. I realize you and I have different parenting styles, and hopefully you will realize that is OK too. I would be glad to let you read my copy of Daddy Style. We get our morning time, and lunch, and then He knows its nap time, no whining, ifs ands or buts about it. He knows, and he does take his nap. And usually its for 2-3 hours. So then he has another 2-3 hours of play time afterwards including dinner.
BG>I commend you for getting him to take a nap while he's with you. I'm sure it helps you both. I'm not sure why you feel you need to explain that to me every time we talk, but I get it - rest assured, I get it.
I would be fine if you had shown me that you could have sat in the background, that way I could invite you to come do things with us, instead of feeling like, when I make a decision to take him to the mall, you decide, "no you only get him for an hour at McDonalds". Your plan of going and sitting at the food court at the mall was a good idea, because it would have given me the whole rest of the mall to play with him in. You wouldn't even let me take him to the McDonalds of my choice. During my time, it had to be down your way. You talked about a truce..... Think about how your acting.
BG>You're selective memory is kicking you in the butt again because you seem to have forgotten that the reason I suggested McDonalds was because Max was very tired because he wouldn't take a nap at preschool. You agreed that it would be a much better option than the Mall. You also agreed that the McGinnis Ferry McD was fine. If you had a problem with it then, you should have said something - and not after the fact because your agument then is just sour grapes.
The court papers say that I get him at a minimum of these times, Tuesday and Thursday from 5-8, not whenever you think it is time for him to go. Telling me it was time for him to go home last Thursday at 7:30 was not right. Taking him home last Tuesday at 7:20 was not right. The papers say I am supposed to just come get him, they don't say, I have to let you know I am getting him, only if I was NOT getting him. I said it was fine for you to shadow us, not control us. So at this point unless you say OK, you will stay in the background, then I feel like I can not be myself around my own child. I had wanted to play with Max, my way at his house, so you could see that we are fine in a variety of settings. I know you think I have great difficulty dealing with things, but I really don't when it comes to Maxwell. I have been telling you this for over a year now. I might say you should also take a look at how you over react to things.
BG>If you'd like to go back to court and have them decide when you should see Max, I'd be more than happy to do so. I offered this compromise to try and keep us out of court, but if you don't like my olive branch then by all means, lets go back to court. The courts won't take lightly that you beat up your girlfriend, have no where to live currently, or are on probation at work (yes, I know), or that twice in the last 2 weeks you haven't remembered to feel your child dinner when you do have him. I'd love to tell the courts about your various girlfriends and Max's exposure to them while we were still married. I'd welcome a review by a court appointed evaluator. Bring it on.
BG>You've shot yourself in the foot with regards to your visitation with Max so maybe you should look at your own actions and your own mistakes and realize that I'm being more than reasonable to allow you to see him at all. You say I'm overreacting and you may even believe it, but when the safety and well being of my child is in question, there is not overreacting....ask any mother.
Bonnie, I would love to have Maxwell as much as I can. If you remember I use to have him every day for 1.5-2 hours in the morning, and then in the evenings, and then all weekend. I would take a break from him, and then I would give you a break from him. Why don't you take a break, and just think about how foolish you felt about (you admit in your head that you did) accusing me of messing with the house, when in fact, as you say Maxwell had been playing with the front doorbell buzzer. Not me breaking in....Maybe you could think about this.....
BG>I never felt foolish think that you of breaking in the house and to be clear, I never accused you of breaking in. I only said I was sorry for even contemplating it. Given your past history with stealing things from my house, my assumption that you broke in was only natural.
YES I may be a Z:XH^#E*)*URPOKD AOIDkdljdsk( or whatever you think), but I WILL HAVE to some day answer to HIM, not just for my conduct as a human being, HIS son, but how I treated HIS children. That means how I treated you, but what mostly worries me is the stewardship for Maxwell..... You are an adult, and you acted the way you did, as did I, We are responsible for what we did to each other. But I still have a job to do for HIM, in regards to Maxwell.
BG>Yes you are an irresponsible jerk, among other things, and yes, do have a job to do, but so do I. You are under the mistaken belief that your job superceeds mine. I'm just reminding you that it does not.
So if you think you can back down... I would be glad to take Max during following times. Thursday from 5-8, and maybe later depending on fireworks, which would be me calling and letting you know how things are going, and what time I think we will be back. Friday from 10 am till, sometime later after fireworks, and I would allow you to come join us, for a few "little whiles" during lunch and dinner to check on him. And I would be letting you know about the times I think the fireworks at Stone Mtn will be over and what time he will be home. And then on Saturday, it would be a calm day, from 10-7. I plan for naps both Saturday and Friday.
BG>It is a beautiful day out today and since Max has not been to the pool in a while, I would suggest you go there. Remember to bring dinner for him and I will just sit by the pool and read my book. I won't get in the pool nor will I sit where you all are sitting, but on the other side. I'm not ready to give you free reign on seeing Max again. If anything, my point is confirmed that you can't handle being with Max alone. It would also show me that you realize you've made a mistake with hurting your girlfriend and you're trying to work things out so you can get your life back to normal.
BG>If you would like to still go to the pool at our subdivision on Friday with your girlfriend and her son, I would welcome you to do so. I would really like to meet her. As long as she was there too, I would feel more comfortable leaving you at the pool with Max without me. I will, however, need to check in on him every couple or three hours so you wouldn't be able to go anywhere without telling me exactly where and when you'd be back. They have picnic tables at the pool and you could bring a portable grill if you wanted to. In other words, you could have your happy little family there, with only minimal involvement from me. I would spend no more time at the pool than a total of 1 hour for the whole day (15 min here...15 min there...).
BG> For Saturday, you can see him from 10 to 7, as usual, as long as you tell me exactly where you will be so I can check in on him no less than once every 2 to 3 hours. Make sure you are where you tell me you will be because I will be checking. I also need to put in the caveat that Friday must go well or a Saturday visit will need closer supervision.
So in a sense you have the upper hand,,,,, Pretend to go along with the truce you offered me, and let me take my son, and let me be Maxwell's Daddy. Both the 'Daddy Style' and 'Families Apart' are in my truck for you to read, if you wanted to shadow us from afar.
BG>Yes, I do have the upper hand - but only because you gave it to me. '
BG>I need a response to this message immediately (by 3:00 PM, today) if you are willing to work with me on visitations or if we should just take this to court. In this message response you need to tell me if you will be seeing Max tonight and whether you are interested in seeing him tomorrow and Saturday based upon the stipulations I've outlined in this email.
Bonnie