Since the group blog isn't really safe anymore (okay NOT REALLY its jsut that i feel like going here) i shall post here where i type all ugly and not have to care about spelling mistakes! yay! hah.
well anyway, today i swear I was going to stop liking him/ stalking him. So, being a wednesday, I go out to mcdoanlds (for the cheap mcchicken) to buy along with two other friends. And since i just had band then, I went to the cafeteira, and how sad he was there. because that would mean he's not going to mcdoanlds, duh. so we walk fast (i made them, mostly) so we could beat the rush, but when we arrived it turns out that there was absolutely no rush at all. i mean it there was no one there.
im buying my lunch and feeling sad that you know hes not there and stuff. and i see that kelly has picked a gay spot to sit so i tell her to move and she says okay. so we do. she gets up and turns around or something becuase right then her huge bag that she was wearing knocks down michelles coke and it spills all over the table like FANTASTICALLY. like it was perfect. but then michelle wasnt amused and i guess the mcdoandls dude that was there who had to clean it up wasnt amused either. so kelly s looking like a blundering fool and so weh nthe door opens we dont really notice or care. but then the people who walk in you know...UH MATTER for me and kelly here! and she stays neutral and i HOPE i stay neutral and then when they pass im like waht the FUCK?! what the hell is he doing here?! WASNT HE IN THE CAF?! so obviously i am freaking out. and i was really stupid and sat at the worst spot possible becuase i wasnt able to see anything which was really bad. so then you know he was in line and the stupid lady hadnt given me my nestea yet so i didnt know waht to do...spo i go back to the table and see kelly staring at one of them who was at the table already and debating whther or not she should say hi because he was all by himself. she doesnt though becasue "mine" comes back and she didnt dare. and it is only the two of them! scary shit it was.
they eat real fast or something because they are gone quick and im like SHIT lets GO!!!! and so we stuff fries and grab coats and go out but it already a little too late beucause they are sort of far. although i could see him becuase of the shrit he was wearing today.
and today after school i didnt see him and he wasnt at the commons so what the hell. when we see kelly's leave we go "stalk him" but really we are only going innocently to mcdoanlds. we thought he did go! but it turns out he just like disappeared or soemthing. and he really did know we were stalking him because he was like RUNNING. i mean we weere out of the school maybe five seconds after he was and he was so far up ahead. so we ended up at mcdoaandls again and i guess that i chose the WRONG SEAT AGAIn becuase it turns out that a whole group of epeople walked past and he was among them. damnit
I really think i should stop obsessing over him so much. i mean he already knows, frist of all, and second of all there really is no point because he will never like me back or care or anything. sreisouly. i tihnk all he knows about me is that i stalk him. isnt that such a good thing to know about someone?! honestly, i don't mean to sound negative, but i really am negative towards myself, and you know what? i am just telling the truth. someone like him would never talk to someone like me.
