3 Chances
Was browsing through Darren?s (my photojourn instructor) pictures on his website. While reading the introduction for one series of photos, when I chanced upon this passage: ?something jarring and totally unexpected occurred in my life. Lets just say that a very personal sense of security that I'd always taken for granted was very suddenly taken away from me. I felt hurt, lost and displaced.? It sounded so familiar, like how I was feeling for quite some time but cldn?t find the words to express it? Am I supposed to feel reassured because I realize I am not alone in this or am I supposed to feel despair? Perhaps beneath the everyday normal exterior, most of us are feeling lost for some reason or another.

The shops I passed by today were all decorated with Halloween stuff. The coming of Halloween always reminds me of a rather memorable discovery. In 2001, I went for this chalet with my university friends at Sentosa. It was during Halloween at that time and the going-ons in a nearby chalet aroused our curiosity. The interior was full of lighted tealights and people in funny costumes kept walking around. I dismissed it as a Halloween party and thought nothing more of it.
Two years later?
Through Soo Yam, I got to know Morgan on a trip to Thailand. At that time we were totally unaware that we might have crossed each other?s paths before. During one of our conversations, I dun remember why we started talking about Halloween and chalets but b4 I knew it, our conversation quickly revealed the surprising fact that Morgan was in fact one of the people at that very chalet. Hmmm?I might have seen him in his costume and not remember it at all. And two years down the road, we met and got to know each other. It makes me wonder if there are predestined moments where you ?meet? someone.
Before that, you might brush past them countless times but you ll not see the person. And maybe after that when two people are destined never to meet again, their paths might never cross again.

How many of those people that I have left behind, that I will see them again somewhere down the road? Or will they never cross my paths again? Life is very strange. Just when I was about to accept that I will never see him again, he appears at the most unlikely time and place. Three long years, we have never been in contact. And then the sudden email. I hope I can explain it away as him probably sending the wrong email to the wrong person by mistake, I really dunno what was his purpose. Since he is already happily together with someone, why is he still trying to attract my attention? Why do I get the feeling that he is still trying to find me? I am honestly puzzled. Maybe he wasn?t trying to do what I thought he was trying to do. Maybe it?s just another one of those mean jokes that Heaven plays on me :{ I?m used to mean jokes. I made a mean wish the other day and it got granted. This is a twisted world ha. I never get well-meaning wishes granted. Voila I made a little mean wish the other day and it came true, not in a really bad way that I felt guilty but it still came true. Okie I shld be careful what I wish for :P

Enfant Terrible

Today on the MRT, there was this cute little baby in a pram. Now, I always like to observe little babies in prams. Not sure if anyone else has noticed it before, but babies like to stick at least one of their legs up on the rail/bar (I dunno what you call that) thingie when they are seated in a pram. I wonder why, but I reckon that it~{!/~}s the same reason why some of us like to prop our legs on a footstool or something when we are seated. Interesting phenomenon. Next time you see a baby in a pram, look to see if the legs are up or down. Ha, if I had a series of pictures on this, it~{!/~}ll be pretty funny (Hmmm~{!-~}idea)
Aniwei, while I was totally immersed in the cutesy little antics of the baby, this horrible thing happened. A little Malay girl two seats away was holding this balloon from a rather ubiquitous fastfood restaurant (no prizes for guessing which). And all of a sudden, this other little girl (abt 3-4 yrs old) rushed up to her and burst her balloon. Everyone thought it was accidental and the enfant terrible had fell fwd and thus burst the balloon. The horrifying thing was, immediately after, she tried vehemently to kick the Malay girl (she made repeated attempts to kick her) and was barely held back by her BLUR and SLOW mother. People who saw it were stunned. How could a small girl of barely schooling age be so violent! It was really quite shocking to see a child do something almost with vehemence. *Shudder
Well, on hindsight, I really felt that there must be something wrong with the environment the child grew up in (not trying to be moralistic, just my own personal reasoning). No normal child would turn out like that. It~{!/~}s normal for children to quarrel and fight but to maliciously destroy a stranger~{!/~}s property and even try to hurt her? If she were an adult, she would probably have been slapped with an assault charge. But okay, even if she were a child, maybe she din know what she was doing, still it is very shocking and wldn~{!/~}t have happened under normal circumstances. I dunno what to say anymore, it just gives me the creeps. One moment I was thinking children are kinda cute and this little monster promptly shattered my wondrous illusions.

this is his first ever mail to me, or the first that i can remember. it is a very weird junkmail that he only sent to two other addresses. after reading the content, realise that it is actually a chain letter. wat does he mean by sending this? :P he hopes that i die? cos i m not going to fwd this lorz.


This is the poem:
> > > >
> > > >Around the corner I have a friend,
> > > >In this great city that has no end,
> > > >Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
> > > >And before I know it, a year is gone.
> > > >
> > > >And I never see my old friends face,
> > > >For life is a swift and terrible race,
> > > >He knows I like him just as well,
> > > >As in the days when I rang his bell.
> > > >
> > > >And he rang mine but we were younger then,
> > > >And now we are busy, tired men.
> > > >Tired of playing a foolish game,
> > > >Tired of trying to make a name.
> > > >
> > > >"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
> > > >Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
> > > >But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
> > > >And distance between us grows and grows.
> > > >
> > > >Around the corner, yet miles away,
> > > >"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
> > > >And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
> > > >Around the corner, a vanished friend.
> > > >
> > > >Remember to always say what you mean.
> > > >If you love someone, tell them.
> > > >Don't be afraid to express yourself.
> > > >
> > > >Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
> > > >
> > > >Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too
late.
> > > >Seize the day.
> > > >
> > > >Never have regrets.
> > > >
> > > >And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they
> > >have
> > > >helped make
> > > >you the person that you are today.
> > > >
> > > >You must send this on in 3 hours after reading the letter to 10
> >different
> > > >people.
> > > >If you do this, you will receive unbelievably good luck.
> > > >
> > > >If you do not, bad luck will rear it's ugly head at you.
> > > >
> > > >THIS IS NOT A JOKE!
> > > >
> > > >You have read the warnings, seen the cases, and the consequences.
> > > >
> > > >You MUST send this on.
> > > >
> > > >NOTE* The more people that you send this to, the better luck you will
> > >have.
> > > >
> > > >SMILE, even through your tears!!!!!
> > > >

busted
busted my acct limit again :_(

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Cool Photog
brushed past him when we were crossing the road today. still thinks that he is the coolest photographer i ve ever seen. okie i m gushing like a secondary school girl but i think he has star quality; objectively (i dunno how objective i am), he has got good skills, good looks and a good personality to boot. actually i think that the problem with most photogs is that they get so professional they become very egoistic. well maybe that is a flaw inherent in the trade itself but he really feels like the most humble of them all(and with good looks and good skill to boot hahahaha), maybe tt's why he's popular :P

PS: i sound like i m doing a promo, but of course good things are always taken and no need to promo :O

WHY?
haiz today i printed my stuff and there s sth wrong and i hafta print it again, i din include the original pics so the fiel very small, but i dunno why it affects the color? it looks bluish! yucks! and it looks horribly dark in print too, it doesnt look like that in the pdf file. shit man, why issit so difficult to get things that are WSYIWYG in computers?????

Railway
Just heard over the news that Singapore has decided to solve the railway issue with Malaysia by taking it to the ICJ. hmmm...what started out as a personal project turned out to have a bit of news value ha. but i really hate to see the railway go, and i secretly hope that Singapore doesn't not get the land so that it can built more useless shopping malls and over-priced pigeon-hole-size-unit condominiums

Sad Eyes
"Why do you look so sad? Don't be sad."

Haha this song is dedicated to my LH, who is always moping ard in a corner and has a mournful expression when it doesn't see ghostie.


Every day here you come walking
I hold my tongue, I don't do much talking
You say you're happy and you're doin' fine
Well go ahead baby, I got plenty of time
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie

Well for a while I've been watching you steady
Ain't gonna move 'til you're good and ready
You show up and then you shy away
But I know pretty soon you'll be walkin' this way
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie


Baby don't you know I don't care
Don't you know that I've been there
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don't worry darling, it'll slip your mind


I know you think you'd never be mine
Well that's okay, baby, I don't mind
That shy smile's sweet, that's a fact
Go ahead, I don't mind the act
Here you come all dressed up for a date
Well one more step and it'll be too late
Blue blue ribbon in your hair
Like you're so sure I'll be standing here

Beautiful Egrets
hmmm...dun get impatient with me cos i m going to ramble abt animals again. for those pple who travel to and fro for school (NTU) dunno if anyone noticed this; at approx 6.30 everyday, flocks and flocks of egrets (those big white birds) will fly towards the sunset. they will have an arrow like formation and every few seconds one flock flies past (theres so many of them!) can see them quite clearly from the mrt station and on the mrt. that such a magnificient sight can be seen in the dreary surroundings of boon lay is unbelievable but it exists. once again, i m so tempted to take pictures of them but i dunno where and how :( what can i say, it's just a beautiful sight, like discovery channel right in front of yuor eyes. and nobody appreciates them :(

aniweiz, i printed some of my photos today, they look okie but not fantastic. (well i keep reminding myself that it's a GE tho i really love the module) everyone seemed to like the cat photothe best. i thot that was so-so. sherlyn wanted a print of it to hang in her room, said it was very artistic haha. actually to me, when i saw the cat, it was the most natural thing to do to crouch on all fours just so i cld take a pic of it sleeping under the seats. you just gotta take it from somewhere ard the cat's level yeah... i m not creative, i can't think of any other way. dunno why when i showed the photo to other pple, artistic is the word that keeps popping up. i still like the bridge photo better ha, cos i "risked my life for it" :P. no lah, just that there's a sense of adventure when i took the photo . din do much to get the cat pic, except to go as near it as possible without waking it up. i think cats are smarter than that, it definitely knows i m there, just that it can't be bothered with a silly girl who's trying to take its photo. i like cats, they've got attitude.