toothache
the gums near where my wisdom tooth is gorwing is hurting again :_(

Birth control
one of the gups is secretly giving birth again under the masses of water plants; cant find the culprit, mom is still salvaging the 'pdts' of the secret rendevous, haiz, i shld seriously think abt separating the guy gups fr the gal gups or there ll be population explosion soon :(

mayfly nymphs
i ve got mayfly nylphs in my little nursery tank! on one hand, i m happy cos this means that the water condition is quite good, on the other hand i m worried these little critters ll eat my fries, so i decided to fish them out.

Walking in the Rain
i' ve just gone for a two hour walk and got myself drenched in the rain. and nobody will ever believe that any mom ll do tt w her daughter but i went with my mom ha. it wasn't deliberate but we kept right on and the rain just got heavier. and the funny thing was , when we finally manage to make it back home, my mom still went to buy ice-cream. dunno if i ll catch the death of a cold doing all this, but still feel pretty amused by it all. :P

Insomnia
no i m not talking abt myself. i m talking abt my little ghostie. recently it hasn't been sleeping, unlike it used to in the past, and strangely it suddenly seems no longer afraid of light. it's always floating ard even in broad daylight, macham no need to rest :( i wonder why...

Surprise haven
today i went cycling cos i was a bit bored ( i hear many going: "BORED?????!!!) yeah i know everyone is up to their necks with work. i also have unfinished stuff to do, but due to some hiccups i can t do them now aniwei so decided to haf a workout.
usually when i exercise, i can only convince myself that cycling or swimming are THE EXERCISES for me. no jogging i hate it. today i learnt one wisdom of life thru my cycling trip, that is to venture further b4 even if you think there is nth ahead. today i went slightly further past the canal behind the terrace houses and there was a whole new world out there! so nice and peaceful and so many joggers. who wld have thought of it :) there seems to be a little tortoise that resides near the canal, i ve seen it twice i was there. its antics are real funny, getting washed by the current one moment and pulling itself up the shore the next. and it kept doing this haha. and when i was standing on the wooden bridge, the breeze was lovely and everything felt so peaceful. hmmm...just that everyone else was either in pairs or one whole family, and i was by myself *shrugs* being alone is fun sometimes, but i wished i cld share that beautiful scenery with other pple :) hmmm so i acutally tokked to some strangers i met ;p

so this is what it is all about, the meaning of life, is that we try to discover ourselves through other people. It is like a journey where we are trying to find something or someone, it is perpetuated by desire, by the need to attain endless goals.
not long ago, i was invited by a friend to join this friendster network , which shows just how everyone you know is in one way or another linked together. I guess that's the way humanity is; few people if any, go outside the circle that they are born in.

in friendster, among one of the people i know of but yet i do not know, this caught my eye:

"XZ needs his space, as most Aquarians do; but fundamentally he is generous, kind and keenly perceptive. For as long as I've known him he's been the same chap (in a good way), true to himself. He seems to have problems expressing his thoughts at times but I am guessing this stems from the high levels of abstraction at which his mind functions.

I dun understand wat XZ is saying lor... but here a guy who's great at the guitar although he has this nasty habit of changing song halfway. He also has this reflex thing when people touch him...so beware!"

my first reaction when i read that reflex thing is: gosh what a weird guy!
then it occured to me that the whole talk about personal space sounds very familiar, in fact it sounds like what i'd think of myself. though i dun elbow my friends when they sit too close, it's much more evident with my loved ones. i d always sit in one corner, request that other people sit far far away in such a way that we ll not be touching each other. yeah i dunno why i hate prolonged physical contact, maybe cos i m just a spoilt brat used to having too much space. i sure dunno why this guy has the same phobia, but i dun haf a reason for my own behavior, psychological problem i guess, but who's to determine that it is abnormal? good to know that i m not the only weirdo ard.
yeah the abstract thoughts bi is also intriguing. i have a difficulty making my thoughts understood at times, sometimes my weird thoughts just puts pple off or they just shrug and think i m talking in m native tongue (which is b216ish translated in earthian language as "gibberish')
yeah in short, i see a bit of myself in this person.

White Roses
Had been so busy in the past few weeks that i haven really been looking at my fish and white rose plant. was surprised to see four more rosebuds besides one rose which has already bloomed. i really like this white rose plant that i got fr ikea, somehow it has darker leaves than the ones i see in nurseries, and i seldom see white roses. think white roses are exceptionally pretty

Sunshine!
The weather is really good today, i guess it sounds exaggerated but i can literally smell the warmth of sunshine in the air :) the sky is quite nice too...
i guess my grand dad has given me the right name cai3 xia2 unlike what some of you think, does not mean some exotic species of prawn (i d like to stress to pple out there prawn is pronounced xia1, and not xia2, the latter pronounciation surely being influenced by hokkien) yeah, my name translated literally means those beautiful clouds that streak across an azure sky. nice right? that shld make you look at my name in a new light. okie it sounds beautiful but it doesn't haf a very good history, or shld i say in literature. okie when i was in jc, my classmates had a good laf after hearing that Caixia was but the name of a lowly servant (bondmaid, serf, whatchamacallit) in the famous classic Dream of the Red Mansion (Hong Lou Meng) but hey! at least my name appeared in a famous classic okie. i'd like to know who else has this privilege haha.
okie enuff abt my name, i was just going to say its very apt for someone who loves a brilliant sky, and who is dreamy :) but goodness i digressed so far...........................;P

It's all in the mind?
today in the chinese lyrics class, we analyzed this last song called ye4 zi3. and sure the song looks simple enuff but the theme is actually very philosophical: existentialism (according to my understanding of what existentialism is) so we should end up wondering that the chair we are sitting on actually exists or it is psychosomatic (oh i lurvve these BIG words ha)
so is it all in the mind then? i feel that to a large extent, it is. everything exists in the mind, including love. love is just a thought, if the thought doesn't exist then love doesn't exist. its like something in front of you that you see, if u remove it, then u no longer see it. i think one has the power to pysche oneself to believe in anything, if u tried hard enuff. so what exists and what doesn't is actually a matter of our own choices. hmmm...this is getting confusing
aniwei here s the song:

~{R6WS~}
~{SpH*~}
~{!!~}

~{SPR;8vJ'Cw5DE.:"=PR6WS~} ~{JGNR5D:CEsSQ~}

~{NRV*5@TZK}PD@oCf~} ~{D\?45C<{R;GP~}


~{TZK}M8Cw5DPD6y@oCf~} ~{SPR;8v=GBd~}

~{DG@oM#7EWE~} ~{IFA<5D9JJB:M6/HK5D4+K5~}

~{UbJ@=gC;SPF[F-R2C;SPUy6a~}

~{C@@v5DE.:"=PR6WS~}

~{K}>-3#UbC4K5~}

~{TZK}M8CwSP5DQ[>&@oCf~} ~{SPR;F,:~24~}

~{DG@o3A=~WE~} ~{O2TC5DIK8P:MSGSt5D;6@V~}

~{K|5DK.CfIOC;SPA0dtR2C;SPQUI+~}

~{3$3$5D=^C+IAK8WEN^>!5D2B2b~}


(~{R6WSNJ~})

~{0.GiJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{SGStJG@6I+5D~}

~{?l@VJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{
~{Ll?UJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{MtQsJG@6I+5D~}

~{NRK5Ll?UR2JG@6I+5D~} ~{RrN*K{CG1K4KO`0.AK~}


~{0.GiJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{
~{?JM{JGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{J12V95D~}

~{S@:cJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{:tN|JG6LT]5D~}

~{NROkNRV;:C3AD,~} ~{RrN*UbNJLb5XGrK|R2TZK

~{M8CwJGJ2C4QUI+5D~} ~{Hg9{7g6yJG?l@V5D~}

~{R6WS5DQ[>&JGM8Cw5D~}

~{PDJG~} ~{PDJG~} ~{?l@V5D~} ~{PDJG~} ~{?l@V5D~}

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