Sick:P
Topic: tired/exosted
So i've been sick for OVER 3 weeks now. Several other people now have the same thing. Including all the kids and Max (my friend) and Scott (my home teacher). which is a bummer.
CAUSE OF SICKNESS: No one really knows!
SYMPTOMS: Cough&Runny Nose with some Fever.
Because of Sickness i also have: A Pulled muscle under my rib:P OH FUN!NOT!
I went to the last class of the semester for Celestial Marriage tonight and the last Church History one was last wed. Sad. But we had an Awesome Activity tonight. We had a fantastic turn out! All my good friends from the ward were there, except Amy, Dave, Eboni and Denara.
Briana and Daniel are offically "dating". So cute. they seem to compliment one another:) Unlikely pair, but they are perfect. it's funny.
As for Trace. Whatever. haha i laugh at him. Briana broke up with him too. go figure. saw that one coming. Trace digs his own graves. JT is such a player. he needs to figure things out. Wade is still Wade. I got all but 2 questions right about Darren tonight. And i really haven't even spent that much time around him or been formally introduced to him. We're just in the same class together. Funny how well i knew him. haha He one the $25 Gift Certificate to The Cheese Cake Factory (Amazing place!Went there on a date with Brent on sat). Speaking of which. that was fun i guess. We went to Seaport Village. Cute little shops along the ocean. He needs more of a personality though. I can have fun by myself...i felt like i was making all the fun though. I hate that:P ANyhow..I had already cancelled the date with him once i couldn't do it again. (I was sick the week before. I was sick that day too...but i went anyhow).
So tomorrow Rob has an enterview. Which will hopefully decide what happens in the next few months. Whether we move or not. Whether he commutes....who knows. Whether i go home or move to San Jose....
I miss Andrew...and love him very much. It would be very hard to be in the same mission...or in the same ward...or well...in the same city or even near there! And who knows...maybe i'm not even supposed to marry him!? WHo knows what the Lord has in mind. i keep getting this "Be Patient. You'll see":P So in the mean time...haha I want to marry Andrew. We compliment one another. And although some may say we are an "unlikely pair" I think he's everything i want in a guy. Granted he's not like "OH MY GOSH THE MOST HOTTEST AND GORGEOUS GUY IN THE WORLD" but who really cares. honestly. To me he's the most handsome guy! And his heart is more in the right place than any guy i know. We'll see. One day at a time. For now. I need sleep BADLY! Of course being sick never helps that factor much. You'd think it would. but NOOOO Haha not with a cough and runny nose:P Thanks Heavens for DayQuil Multi Symphtom. haha I went on a "mini" date with a guy named Eric tonight. i think we're alot more alike than i thought. I didn't really know him very well until tonight. He's a nice guy. We studied scriptures together. it was fun. haha Well, Crys and Dave are going to MO for the summer. Daves working for a judge in J.C. Jake's in MO now...never know what he's going to do. he has swollen/infected tonsels. yuck!! poor guy. Aaron and Amy hit it off well this last week (Amy went to Idaho to visit. She also got in a little accident today....i'm waiting to see what's up with that and how she's doing...) Poor girl has it so hard. seems like everyone does right now...sigh...as is life i suppose. The weathers great here though:) the kids had their Pump it up Combined b-day party. TONS of presents and cake and such...crazy. i stayed home with the younger ones. they're sick the most. But ya. tons of entertainment for like the next year! haha Taking one day at a time....I'm trying to back off and stay away from guys and build friendships with lots of people...And do well in work...and get over being sick...BALANCE...and scripture study...yaa...gotta go do that.
My friend Josh from Alaska is coming to San Diego to visit with his parents. I get to hang out with him next weekend. fun fun. I've been talking to an old friend of Ricks lately. He's a nice guy. Senior in High School. blah blah. haha I've been playing my flute and the piano alot lately...its the only thing keeping me sane.besides the chocolate. hehehe:D ok, NIGHT! LOVE YA!

Jessica Lynn Groll...................................................................................................O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-O
^^^Necklace or Bracelet^^^

GOOD NEWS!
SO GOOD NEWS about Taylor!!=D And i hope it continues to be good news! well..here..i'll just paiste her e-mail!

ok jess,i know it seems rediculous how short of a time i was going through my little crisis,but i was praying literally 7-8 times a day to get my answer and to give me a sign that i was doing to the right thing by being a mormon and well i had a dream last night that i was,well ya know i dont even know where i was but i was outside somewhere at like a beauy contest type of thing and it was like a church activity and everyone was singing and it reminded me of girls camp and the night when we did an activity where there was a long rope strung all around the campus and we were blindfolded and we had to follow the rope and stay close to it and trust that it wold not lead us into a bad spot,like the iron rod...and i realized that this "doubting" the church was just a test, a trial to see how close i really was and to teach me and show me how much closer i really could be.and jess i had forgotten the young womens theme,but i practiced it last night for 30 min and i finally got it again...and i will follow wat that scriptre says.HOME FOR GOOD?YAY!!! well love ya bunches,thank you so much,and cant wait until you get here!!
lylas miss ya
bye bye,taylor


I knew she could do it!:D well, i'm happy! OH! I got my Valentine Card from Andrew today:) What a sweetheart!

JEss

OK, well, Max just messed up my other blog i was working on:P thanks max! Crazy. Jane needs to learn that everytime she cries she can't get attention. She needs to take a longer nap. All she needs to do is stick her fingers in her mouth. Anyhow, max is making Paper Airplanes. So some things i didn't mention before are: Taylor Borland is starting to think that "Mormonism isn't for her" whatever that means. She wants to go to the baptist church with her friends. Everyone has to go through that "Stuggle" within ourselves to know whether or not it's all right or true. I did at about her age as well. So ya, anyhow...Jake (my bro) is back in Missouri and being his normal "I think i know what i'm doing and i know everything" mood:P He thinks LA is the best thing ever! BULL! Live IN The world not OF the world. The "real world" isn't in LA! THey just think it is! They make up this fantacy world:P anyhow...He hasn't ever really been strong in the gospel and allowed himself to be. So yaa...he has no clue what he's missing. Lets see here...I miss Andrew. What else is new:P haha I think i may have already mentioned this in something else...here...let me copy and paiste!:)


UPDATE on my life thus far...
Current mood: tired


So in case you all out there in Myspace land didn't know, and in case all my friends are wondering "What!? she's not in Missouri?What's she doing in California?I thought she was in Idaho?" Yaa...and for those of you who aren't lost and are updated...then just skip over this paragraph;)SOOOO...

I'm a nanny here in beautiful, sunny, warm San Diego California and will be until the beginning of Sept. of this year (2007). After which i plan to go back to little ol missoura and go to school, then after that transfer to a university or who knows...life after sept is still blurry. But ya. It's great here. i've made lots of good friends and the family i nanny for is great. It's really a good experiance. That doesn't mean i want to STAY here. But it's a good change. I have a great Singles Ward as well! GO La Jolla! So ya, anyhow...I miss the seasons, but my room is cold enough to make me feel like it could be snowing right now. Seasons here go like this: Somewhat Cold, Chilly, Warm, Pleasant and Hot. I love being so close to the ocean! That's part of the reason i'm still sane! haha Don't get me wrong. Being here has been TOUGH, but you know what..i've learned alot of things that maybe i couldn't learn back at home.

I've defenantly learned alot about love, relationships, etc. the past 6months(the past year really). Institute (Celestial Marriage) might have something to do with that along with things i've gone through in the past 6 months-year.

I have seen many missionaries coming and going in the past 6 months too! And it's the most exciting thing in the entire world! :) CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL OF YOU!! It can also be very torturious when YOUR elder is only 6 hours away of course, but as is my life:P So close, yet SO far! I'm not sure why God put all these guys like RIGHT THERE, but yet...JUST OUT OF REACH...either me or the guy is in the wrong place at the wrong time or God just thinks it's fun to play tag:P For whatever reason he has behind it all. (prob. for my own good.You learn alot of patients and self control)I'm still greatful to him for all his Love and Support through it all.

ON THAT NOTE!I want to thank all of you that have been apart of my ever so crazy life the past few years. I'm forever greatful for the love and friendship you all have shown! I couldn't do it without you! Of course, i couldn't do it without my Heavenly Father either! He's been there every step of the way as well! I couldn't ask for a better example, friend, and older brother.

As for guys. I am very much so in love with a certain missionary who is serving 6 hours way from me. I couldn't ask for a better friend! Well, ok, that's being modest! He's perfectly wonderful and i would consider myself the luckiest girl in the world to be a witness of his life events. If i was apart of those events...man...sigh...that would be wonderful. But, you never know what life will throw your way! I only pray i can live in such a way that i can stay in-tune with the spirit so as to know which way is the right way to go.

Well, back to my strangely unique and unpredictable life!

I love you all and wish you the best! Take Care!

Jessica G.

SO THERE YA HAVE IT! My update! Much love!

Jessica

Update Again
Well, it rained yesterday! It made me think of Andrew. I wanted to play in it so badly!:) I learned how to Salsa Dance last night! And I got to shoot some hoops with the guys after FHE. It was fun. You know what...Ean Estep is pretty cool, but he doesn't catch on to dances quickly. It's cute to see him do it though. he's not bad. And he tries. Eboni taught the class last night. Way fun stuff:) So yaa...i've gotta start work now:P Totally already see this day being not that grand! But yaaa...love ya tons! I'll write soon.

Jessica

Long Time...
Topic: Life
Well hey! It's been ages sense i've written i know! WEll, here's an update on California life...WAIT!! I'm not sure if you know or not!? But i'm in San Diego, California as a "Mothers Helper" (aka Nanny)! It's alot of fun here in San Diego...The kids are great and the weather is beautiful. Almost too beautiful sometimes:P I just wish some huge lightening storm would hit! But of course everyone might die here b/c people don't know how to drive in the rain...let alone with lightening!! And if we had snow! WHOA! The whole city would shut down like it was the end of the world or something! I still secretly hope for a lightening store or snow! Oh well...SOOOOO
GUY UPDATE: I was dateing a guy named Trace pretty seriously...I decided i couldn't stand some of the things about him! Just couldn't ignore it all! ANd it just didn't feel right. We even talked about him coming home for christmas. Ya, i'm so stupid! I totally played with his head too much and could never say what i meant to when i was with him! Anyhow...People think me and this guy from my ward (Wade) are "dateing"...yaaa...we're just friends. He's 28. too old (oh, by the way, Trace is 25). Ya, OLD! haha anyway...This guy Mark *shivers* gives me the creeps and is really annoying...but he's been taking Xango...so i have to be nice...haha He asked me if he had any chance with me awhile back...poor guy...i got in my car and LAUGHED! I know MEAN! But i couldn't help it! Just the way he did it...the timeing...i just had to laugh! Anyhow...so all the guys are falling for me and i'm not falling for them!:S:P Then there's Eugene. He's a great guy, and a fantastic friend. The other day he said he only wanted to be in the "Friend" net too! SHEW! one i don't have to worry about! He invited me to his house for Thanksgiving! GREAT family! I couldn't help but fall in love with them all! His sisters are singing at the temple tomorrow! I'm hopeing to go watch them sing. OK! So the story with Eugene...I met him at the institute building one night...we just sat and talked for forever. He was homeschooled and went to Peru on his mission. Our first date was actually going to the temple and doing baptisms for the dead! We went and had greek food before. It was an amazing evening. We grew pretty close. But not TOO close! Like brother and sister close. Anyhow...Then our second date was to Balboa Park to the Photography Museum, and the Art Museum. It was great! I have lots of pictures from it and i simple had a ball and we got to know one another even better. I have more and more respect and love for the guy everytime we get together. He's awesome. (this date was supposed to be the first but i invited him to the temple the weekend before as well!) So hmm...I think that's all my guy drama...Then there's Max (not the kid i nanny for) Who's in my ward. He is such a fantastic guy. Mix Eugene and Max together and you'd have the perfect guy! Missionary work galore and just as sweet and kind as ever! Max always gives me a huge hug! It's nice. We went and saw The Nativity Story friday night with a bunch of others from the YSA ward. I loved it!Very well done! Max and the others even edmited they cried and got choked up a few times! Anyway...We'll see where Max goes...
THEN there's Andrew Young(haha i know, i know)...Always Andrew...He's wonderful...He's been there for me through EVERYTHING! Good and Bad times...He got his mission call to San Josa CALIFORNIA!! He leaves January 3rd, 2007 for the MTC....I'm excited for him! I just keep falling for him over, and over, and over again...He keeps being so incredibly wonderful! Everyday i see something new i like about him. about a month ago he texted me and was like "we need to talk.I have something to tell you"...ok...so i was thinking..."ut oh...he doesn't like me anymore...Something's wrong..." so i call him and i was like "Hey. what'd you need to say?"...So he flat out says, "I Love you! There. I said it." Yaa...i was shocked! So yaa...i realized i was madly in love with him already.so i said "you know what. I don't care who knows it. I love you too!" But you know what...the hardest thing is that he lived in Cedar City, UT...I'm in California...and he's going to be about 6 hours north of me for the next YEAR until i go back to Missouri next August! YAAA...and the crazier thing is i've never actually MET the guy! I'm finding they're pretty much the same on the phone and through e-mails as in real life though. Take Vic from SLC(really from CA)! He's a complete AIRHEAD and IDIOT just like he is not in person! haha (He came here to visit his family not too long ago...boy way i ever glad to not have to deal with him for very long!)Anyhow...I'm in love with Andrew but can't do anything about it for another 2 years...So here i am stuck...
SO I GUESS I'M JUST GOING TO HAVE TO GET MORE FRIENDS THAT ARE GIRLS!:D I've made alot of friends that are girls sense i've been here! Elyse, Elisa, Kathrine, Kylie, Wendy,etc. They're all older than me of course, but just the best ever! OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH!!!!
I guess i should tell you that i went to DISNEYLAND for the first time ever ummm...when was it...2 weeks ago i think!? Dec 2nd i believe! ANYHOW...It was pretty cool. Not as great as i thought it would be though. OH well. And the firework show was cancelled b/c of the high winds! YA, BEST PART! Guess i'll just have to go back again! But ya. I went with Elyse! She's great! We're closer now too. Anyhow....mmmmm....i think that about covers it...the Ward is great...i've been thinking maybe i should go to Torrey Pines after the holidays...sense that's where i'm supposed to be! OH! I went and visited Torrey Pines ward with Holly a few weeks ago! It's SOOO SMALL! reminded me of home! (i went on the 3rd of Dec. Fast sunday.) I bore my testimony too for the first time sense i've been in Cali! There's a couple good looking guys there too. Brandon's my favorite!;) Anyhow...OHHHHH! another big thing...HOLLY'S GONE!:( :( ya! She quit her job and moved back home to Logan, UT! SAD DAY! It's different without her around...of course it's a little less competition...but i miss her tons! We were just starting to get close! OOOOOHHHHH and Lauren Jane Jackman is simply adorable as well! OH! Can you believe my niece AUDREY HUNT is crawling and standing now!!! YAAA!!! CRAZY! Solly is starting to say more words now too!And Ainsley and Max are doing great with homeschool! Learning how to read and write spectacularlly! It's amazing to see all the kids changing!

I mean check out these pictures! I keep forgetting that Ainsley's even 3! Anyhow...adorable! WEll, I think i've finally covered everything! WOW! This would have taken AGES if i would have written this all out on paper! Thank heavens for computers! OH! I'm going home to Missouri for 10 days (Dec 22nd-Jan 1st) for Christmas! I'm way excited! all 4 of us kids will be home! Plus Audrey and Dave! Grandpa has his pratieses now and is learning to walk quite well evedently! I miss him millions! It's good to know he's progressing anyhow! I'm going to be buying and laptop while i'm home as well!! Then i'll prob. update this a bit more often! Anyhow...love ya tons! I'll try and write a bit sooner! MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sincerely,
Jessica Groll

p.s. Trevor Lucas is going to the Netherlands on his mission. Dan Dryer is now home from his mission. Adam Ahmu comes home in April. And Matt Ruberson is going to Pheonix Arizona. So that's that! (Keira and Matt are together now)

Update on LIfe
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: IL Divo--Unbreak My Heart
Topic: Life
hey! well, it's been awhile sense i've written. Let's see here...I get new glasses on Tuesday. that's cool...umm...I had a dentist appt, eye appt, and ortho appt. yaa...sick fo doctors:P We've had a Xango meeting and the Elders over and TONS of Family (Groll extended fam) over the past couple days! the last one just left! I've been SOOO OUT OF IT the past couple days b/c i have gotten like ZERO Sleep sleep. like i'll doze in and out...it's horrible! not being in my own bed doesn't help either. I've been talking to Matt Ruberson like a TON lately. he's an amazing guy. I enjoy talking to him. haha and it's awesome to both haev our web cams on. I actually havn't talked to him for the past couple days...which makes me sad:( I wish he would get on or something....Andrew's getting busier too! He starts contruction again on top of his already managing job at Carls Jr. CRAZY! What's with the crazyness!? And Tyler OF COURSE didn't come see me on Thursday like he said...go figure! Last Friday was a blast tho! I got to go ice skating with Ty, Keira, Cameron, The Schmidts Foriegn Exchange Student--name slipped my mind for the moment, and Cams little sisters! It was alot of fun!:) OH! and jonathan imhuff was there too! So it was like 3 guys i have a crush on at the same place...ya...it was weird...but yaaa...anyways...then paige's going away party was fun! Except i hurt my foot and was limping the rest of the night (from playing missionary tag) and i was really sore...anyawys...but i got to see everyone at least...sense then things havn't really been that chipper. my only exciting things are getting new glasses, talking to matt, and leaving soon! And even then i'm scared to death! haha (but not facing it or feeling it much b/c of the lack of sleep!) I'm so just *PULLS HAIR AND SCREAMS*GAH! TIRED! And just FRUSTRATED! I'm going crazy and i'm SOOO TIRED and no one even cares!!!! ok. i'm way beyond tense and stressed and close to tears right now so i think i'll ATTEMPT to sleep now!

Jess

Mood:  sad
Topic: Boys
hey. Another day in my crazy life almost over. New as of today is Andrew being so heart broken and wanting to see me and be near me and such that he had a breakdown (well, he cried and shaked and got physically sick)...Today he could hardly stand on his own. He was shaking like crazy. Except when he was talking to me. I've actually been in his situation before only i think i was mad...or maybe heart broken...anyways...not to the point of not beign able to stand though. I'm very much in love with him. As a friend and as more...I wish i could be there for him always...Distance isn't exactly my friend. But i learn to deal with it...For some reason he keeps popping into my mind. Even after years of time. Some days i wish badly he could be here...if only to make me smile and spend time with me. There's been times when i was so close to him yet so far out of reach...When i'm in San Diego I'll only be 7 hours away from him...with no way to get to see him. Unless i take a bus or something. anyways...i'm trying not to think about it too much. i don't have time to cry or to be depressed or to have a breakdown...ok...i have tons of time...but none at all. Why do i love him...as a friend as more...Why did he come into my life so long ago...he's a fantastic friend...but is there more? Anyhow...i miss him. we'll see what happens there. Havn't talked to or heard from Trevor in along time. crazy Landon get home in exactly a week...I leave in a couple weeks...i get new glasses next week...ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm I'm tired. I don't really know what to say or type. I'm trying my best to do things right and to deal with life. I'll write more soon.

Love, Jess