Sunday May 28, 2006
Alright. My url isn't what I want but it will work. So whatever, if your reading this you know who I am i'm sure, but if you don't we'll just call me Killer Betty. Cuz Jamerson helped me think of it. And sadly I have descided to become one of the dreded bloggers. Why? Because bloggers have something to occupy their time. :) So here's a little of my history to catch you up on who I am. I was born in Sacramento to two loveing parents. Scratch that. I was born in Sacramento, Ca to two, interesting parents. My father, bless his soul, raised me till I was about 6 basically by himself. Then my step-mother came around. I loved her, and then I hated her, and now I love her agian. I have nothing but respect for what she has done. Takeing on the life of a child that is not your responsibilty is such an amazing thing I can't even describe. So anyways, I had my up's and down's growing up. Alcoholism (not mine, drug use (mostly not mine), psycho ex-boyfriend, asshole ex-lover (or two), and then some. But right now, things aren't too too bad. I live with my father and step-mother, and my mom's brother is staying with us for a few weeks. I have contact with my biological mother, but no one knows. I also have contact with her sister and niece, who I guess, would be called "cousin and aunt." Life is interesting at times, and lowsy at others. Today was in the middle. But now that I finally got this working, it's better. Alright, will write more tomorrow. --Killer♥Betty
P.s.
Why killer betty? Because i'm told i'm a betty, and it goes with Killer Queen. :)
Later that same day.
I"m retarded bored and there's nothing to do. Yay for Jenn calling. I almost messaged Milad. I rememberd his number and wrote the message and was about to hit send when I stopped myself. I kinda want to talk to him. I don't know why. There isn't really anything on T.V. and some people are just too dumb to get a hint. There was something specific I came back on here to say and now I can't remember. *rawr** damn.--Killer♥Betty
Monday May 29, 2006
Alright, goddamn it. I wrote out this damned freakin huge bloggy thing and I tried to preview it and it cut me off. So, fuck the internet. Anyways, my day was pretty good. I worked on cleaning my room(finally). Then I went to work. I worked with Jordon (I ♥ her) and then Azi. Azi came at me like she wanted to fight. I cooled the situation down though cuz I need the job. She doesn't she already has a nother one, *growle*. We got to close early cuz it's memorial day and it was really slow. We had EVERYTHING done and then some. It was awsome. I've been think, and if I get a raise, that place might not acctually be so bad. I mean I dunno, I do get along with most of the people there. And i've been working fine with Milad. Azi and I made it cool and that's good. So now it's just Tiffany that I hate. Fuck her dude. FUCK HER!! Tomorrow is going to SUCK. I don't go into work until 6pm and I have to do the weekily enventory and adjustments. I'll be fine just a little stressed. Thank God Fred switched me to closeing with Sep. I hope I do alright because I wont have Jenn there watching out for me if I don't do it right. Oh well, I saw how my name looks writtin in persian. It's PRETTY. Like one symbol says my whole first name haha it's awsome. I asked my parents if since the car is going to be mine, can I put the cigarette lighter back in. Cuz I don't have a car charger anyways. But oh no..they threw it away. Damn it. lol. I'm so excited to be going back to school in the fall. Spanish, Math, and Reading. I'm so excited. Especially to learn spanish. Ew, I hope there isn't a bunch of mexicans in there. lol. Naw, they all know spanish already. Ok well I guess I don't have anythign else to say. Speak soon. --Killer♥Betty
Tuesday May 31, 2006
So...today wasn't too bad I guess. I woke up feeling really wierd. I was really dizzy and it was off and on for like most of the day. I had to pee all day and fianlly broke down and peed in a cup because our bathroom is being re-done. So yeah...I went to work and all was fine, and I made a comment to Milad and Sep how I had gotten into a fight with Irina because she was the topic of discussion. Well I walk int he back and Tiffany turns to me says, "You can keep that business to yourself!" and I looked and her and I said "Excuse me!?" and she said "you were just talking about me!" and I said "No! I was talkiing about Irina the girl that used to work here..." and she was liek "oh" and acting like a smart ass cunt. And then I said, "but since you didn't hear that whole conversation you can ask me nicely." and she was being all smart ass and I turned the corner to sep and told her she had better keep Tiffany away from me." She thinks she's a hard ass cuz she's a black belt, but I promis you, even if I can't take her, someone I know can. So fuck it. Anyways, I did the enventory, it wasn't bad. But Fred did the adjustments hisself, so WHY did I spend two hours learning how to do it last week when I coulda taken a break and gotten food?!Oh well....BUT good news. Clairs called me. After like a month. And they want to schedual me an interview! I'm so fucking excited! yaya ya yay ayay ayyyayay! Oh, Sam was supposed to call me at 9:30 and let me know if she could pick me up from work and go bowling with her and some freinds, she never called! lol...oh well. Sep was liek "omg that would hurt my feelings are you ok?" and I was like "Yeah i'm used to it." She looked at me all sad. But it's the truth I am. Meh. Alright, nada left to say. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Thursday June 1, 2006
Well...today wasn't bad. I've texted Milad a bit and I got the dinner planns moved to tommorrow with Jenn and Jamie and hopefully Bob. I worked and that was ok. I"m excited about tomorrow. I'm drink like a fish. I just got Milad to admite the only thing he misses is the sex. I"m going to go cry like a bitch. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
June 3, 2006
FUCK MY PARENTS! Ok so now I get to re-type like an hours long fucking entery because my dad descided to fuck with my shit before I could save it because I was away from the computer doing him a fucking favour. And now they fucking just went to get dinner at SUBWAY which I had for lunch at 3! So now everyone else gets dinner and I get to fend for my fucking self.!!!!!!!! I don't even fucking feel like re-typing that because i'm not the type where I can type something the same twice. Once it's lost, it's fucking lost. But I guess I will anyways cuz I want it all fucking posted. But there will be a lot more fucking naughty words then there was in the original. SO here it fucking is. So last night was fun. I went to dinner with Jenn and Jamie and Bob. Then we went back to Jenns for drinks. Jamie and I wrapped Bob in Foil and took him to Scandia. All the Niggers were stairing at him. It was awsome. Scandia is GHETTO! So I found out that Bob has a video if me really drunk being all sexual and he's been showing to the Mexicans at work as a bribe! I deleted him on myspace. I'm so pissed. Anyways, today wasn't bad either. I'm tired of the other girls not careing about the job. But whatever. I hate Milad now. I'm never talking to him about anything other then work ever agian. But yeah I guess that's all I had to say. Oh wait! My parents are going out of town on Tuesday afternoon until Thursday night. But her brother is staying. So I cant go to wild or anything. But oh well. He does sleep like a fuckin LOG haha. Alright. NUff said. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Tuesday June 6, 2006
So, well Milad keeps creeping up and hurting me in all these little ways. Fuck him. Work was ok. I have a hang over cuz last night I went to Jason and Erica's and got drunk. It was fun. So I did my inventory today, i'm getting better at it but I still mess it up here and there. Oh well. Sep is going to take it all over anyways because I am tired of everyone treating me like i'm a retard but giving me all this responsabilty. And she's turned into a total fucking HITLER. Now that Jenn isn't there to keep everyone in line, it's too rigid, frusterating, opressive, sufficateing. I can't do it anymore. Anyways, no word from Claires yet, but it's only Tuesday. My parents aren't going out of town after all. Not this week anyways. But soon. I open the store tomorrow for the first time I have to be there at 8:30 :(. Fuck that dude. Gettin up that early. Pffft!!! Milad tried to switch but I don't want to work 2-9!!! Vs 9-2! Yeah! Plus, one is with Amber and Nichole and one is with Azi. Hmmm...! Yeah i'm not going to do anything to help him out anyways, because he wouldn't help Jenn and he broke my fucking heart. And he continues to do it all the time. BUT I have to see himfor shift change tomorrow. GREEEEAT. Fuck em. :( not anymore. I'm not good enough anymore. Everyone else has someone but me. I"m going to die all a fuckin lone. I jsut want to be loved and held and feel passion and feel like someone loves and cares for me. Why is that so bad? I know some fuckin ugly wacked out people, who have lovers. Whatever, i'm going to cry myself to sleep agian. fuck life, good night. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Thursday June 8, 2006
So I got the job at Claires. YAY. They want me to start asap. I havn't put my two weeks in yet. I am going to tomorrow after my shift. I found out yesterday. Btw, yesterday was boreing. I went to work at 8:30AM and did all the opening stuff. And then Nichole just DIDN'T show up for her shift. CUNT. So I was short-handed all day. So then we called in Amber to come in at 11:30. It was the two of us all day. Until 2 when Milad came in. So then today was my Second time opening EVER and Fred left me alone to do everything. I did it. But I somehow managed to fuck my bread up lol. We were baking till noon. So then everything was fine Amber got there at 12 and everytthing was cool. Well then my back started hurting really bad. I don't know why. And then I was on the verge of tears and I got these two fatass stupid cunts. They were so rude to me and kept interupting me. And then had the balls to yell at me and tell me I was rude. So I almost stareted crying and ran into the back cuz someone was in the bathroom. And then I went back to the register and everything and well Sep got to work and she was all pissy cuz it was 2 and nothing was done. IT'S 2! That's when we START everything. Bitch. And she got an attitude with me and I was already upset and I was like whatever. So we did the cashout and I was 53.54 short. SHORT. So SHE recounted the money. And it was HER who counted it the first time. And then I was still short. So I asked if we could redue it together. And she said no...no!? I redue the cashout with her 3+ times every time we change shifts. She always messes it up. And then after she heard me complaining about it she said to redue it. And by that time I had been off for 15 minutes with my ride waiting. And so then I called Fred and he said he was going to redue the cashout himself. So then she asked me if they had to bake bread. And I said I didn't know and Milad had taken over the bread at 11 when he got there. And I was GOING to say that I forgot to count it. But then he chimed in to OUR conversation and said "So what? You can't do your job?" And I whipped around and said "fuck off" and he said "you know what buddy? Back at you" and I said "whatever. you have done nothing but treat me like shit and talk down to me since I fucking met you so just shut the fuck up." and I walked out the door. By the time I got to the gas station, I broke down in tears. So bad. So many little things just added up today and I was reminded why I need to leave that place. I was feeling guilty because work had been going so well recently and Fred has been really good to me. But now I remember. I shouldn't break down in TEARS because work is just so bad. I dunno if it's working with my ex whom I still love, even though I would (will) never allow myself to be with him agian no matter how much I may miss him. Or if it's feeling like I can't breath or move without getting flaked at by Sep/Fred. Or if it's the customers. But I know Ican't handle it anymore. I can't. IT's too hard. It hurts me. I hate it. I miss Jenn. I think she's mad at me or something. When I called her the other day to tell her about the Job she sounded distant. And today I said I wished chocalot actually worked and she said "oh i'm sorry. Why don't you screw Milad agian?" I was floord. I just said "Um...ok wow. how's work?" I didn't know what else TO say. That really hurt. And if it was a joke, it was in poor taste. Not to be mean to her. She's my sister I lvoe her. But it hurt my feelings. Ms. Feelings. (ass)Right then, speek soon. This is long enough. --Killer♥Betty
Saturday June 10, 2006
So yesterday SUCKED. We'll just leave it at that. And move on to the fact I got drunk and smoked a bit. Soberd up, came home, and fell asleep. So then today was meh so/so. I worked a double. That's about it. I worked with Jordon. I ♥ her. Things were ok at work. I HATE MILAD WITH A PASSION OF ANYKIND OF HATERED I HAVE EVER FELT MY WHOLE LIFEX100,000,000! And i'm feeling less and less like I care about Sep. But oh well. So the brother and sister canceled on me. OF COURSE. So now I have nada to do tonight and even MORE nada tomorrow on my day off. *growlex10* but oh well. I got a WHOLE BUNCH of pictures. I'm goning to put them up on here but there's a LOT. lol Ok well I guess for now nuff said. Speek Soon. --Killer♥Betty
Tuesday June 13, 2006
So...the past couple days, meh, not worth talking about. But today. Fuck today. Well ok, last night I stayed at Ambers which was fun. Her and her boyfriend said that I could move in with them, stay on their couch and have a closet for $200 a month. That covers rent utilities ect. I'm acctually considering it. Anyways, today...my mom was being a cunt to me for no reason. I went to work and all was fine. I was bitchen about the outside trash and Fred's making me work till next tuesday instead of tonight. Why do I have to take it out? Why can't they do it tomorrow? I had to walk THREE times and they'll have to walk once. Anyways, Sep called Fred on me. And fuck them. So then, I mentioned how Bob has that tape of me? Well...I was on the phone with Jenn on Sunday and she started defending him saying, "well in all fairness you shouldn't have done it" AND SHE'S RIGHT. But in all fairness...i was drunk, stoned, and I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER IT. Not to mention the fact that he's not just keeping it and fucking with me, HE'S SHOWING IT TO OTHER MEN AS FUCKING PAYMENT. FUCKING PAYMENT. How is that supposed to make me fucking feel? I feel like I can't even trust them. You're supposed to be able to go to your friends house and party and feel safe. ... Well after that I talked to Jamie on AIM. I told her I was pissed and I said yeah I was wrong but fuck. And she agreed. Then she said I got quite and we talked about other stuff. Well since that, Jenn wont talk to me. It's not that she went off on me and said "i'm not talking to you" she jsut wont talk to me. She wont answer me texts, my calls, my myspace messages. WTF?!In what fuckin Universe do I fucking deserve that? I was there for her when she went through her quitting shit with Fred, she's not being there for me. I was there for here with Josh. I was there for her when she was having problems with Bob before Jamie came back. I was there for her when a lot of things happened. I was one of her confidaunts. And she my number one. I went to her about Milad, about my bio, and my parents. I've gone to her for advice on everything. I ask her opinion on everything. We go out and tell people we're sisters. We've played Paligamy. But all of the sudden she wont talk to me. I don't deserve that. I wont fucking tolerate it. If that's how it's ganna be played then fine. I'm not ganna try and try just to feel more and more fucked over. WHat I do th at's so wrong? Bob is the one who took a tape of me and prostituted me off to strangers. I don't think anyone realizes how hurt that made me. I"ve asked a few different females about this, and they all say the same thing, "that's wrong!!" Even if I did do it. I WAS DRUNK. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SOMEWHERE SAFE. WE WERE GOOFING OFF. It would be different if he was showing that to people on teh group or something. But strangers...as payment. I"m hurt, crushed and shocked that Jenn isn't talking to me. I can't belive this. I realy can't. And FUCK SUBWAY AND IRANIANS. I just feel like everyone EVERYONE I have EVER met, known, trusted has fucked me over. ALL of them. ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL. I can't believe this is my life. I musta done something really fucked up to make God feel I deserved this. But then, I have so much to be thankful for. I dont know how to feel. But I know this, fuck all because everyone will fuck you over in the end. Speek Soon --Killer♥Betty
Wednesday June 14, 2006
Hey hey. So well today was good. Last night I found out why Jenn is REALLY mad. It's not what I thought. It's still Milad. I'm feeling kind of done with her. And I lvoe Jamie soooo much but now i'm thinking that message was from all three of them. Jenn sent me a message btw...I can't take her telling me over and over and over I got used. I KNOW. Fuck. YOU'RE NOT HELPING ANYTHING. She can tell me all this but I can never tell her things that she does that bother. Sometimes I think she feels she's so much better then me. And most of that, i'm sure, is because of Milad. News flash, your no better then anyone. I'm not better then anyone. Anyways, I slept until 12:30 today *good sigh* and then I talked on the phone with my brother. And then I didn't do anything else. lol I was on myspace almsot all day. I found out why college was fucking with me. And I tried to buy my dad's fathers day gift. I'll have to do it tomorrow. Long story. But it's fine. My mom is bitching for me to get my liscense. It's going to turn into the same shit as before I got my permit. I had yummy Samon earlier. And I realized what I want to do with my life. It sounds dumb to some people i'm sure, i want to be a housewife. Really and truely. Raise babies, keep house, cook dinner. Oh man it sound wonderful. I still want to take classes at AR and help myself to become a more well-rounded person. I want to learn to cook really good and stuff too. I want to be a volvo driving soccar mom, with better hait and tattoos. Hell yes! Doesn't it sound wonderful? Staying at home blasting country music, cleaning house playing with the baby, rocking it while it cries, mopping the floor, sterring the stew lol. --Killer♥Betty
Friday June 16, 2006
Hey ya'all. YEsterday was nice. I worked and it was acctually really nice and then my mommy and I went and got our nails done and my eye brows. yay. And then we did a little bit of shopping. I went to my brothers at 8 and sat there till late in case the baby woke up while he was trying sleep for work. I ended up jsut crashing on the couch. Oh and Jenn delted me on myspace. So then today I thought I worked t 11. I no, I was off lol. So I drove around with my mom and the cross traffic made me nervious. And then I came home and that's pretty much it. I rememberd that I had Steohany send me a letter to her adress. So I tried to contact her and AOL to ask her to fw the letter to my grandma. She wont answer me. But I swear to christ if she doesn't...! That's the most fucked up thing. I would never ever...no matter how much I stopped likeing someone or even stopped careing. That's jsut wrong. The funny thing is, i never stopped loving her and I still don't understand why we aren't friends, but if that is what she wants the I respect that I send nothing but love to her. But she better send me that letter. That's NOT right. And we were "friends" for so long? A true friend could never do that no matter what the circumstances. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Saturday June 17, 2006
Ok so I need to say something right now. I jsut got a letter from jenn via myspace. She's very angry wth me and with good reason. I hope Bob reads this. The first thing is, I really didn't know anyone acctually read this so if I have said anything that was misstaken i'm really sorry with all my heart. I made a comment in a previews post talking about Jenn how I was there for her through the Josh thing. They flirted a little because he was her tattooist. And she felt so guilty about it killed her. Even though it was nothing. That is what I was refering to. It killed her just to smile at a nice word from someome other then Bob. I'm so sorry that was miss taken. In ranting and raveing I didn't think I needed to spell eerything out. But I guess I do. It was so omfg innocent and that's what I ment by being there for her. She felt so guilty for a nothing matter that I tried to make her feel better and listen to thoughts about it. Again, i'm so sorry it was misstaken. But Bob needs to know that he is Jenn's everything. And the way her eyes and face and smile and heart light up at the siple mention of his name. I can't belive that a simple ramble caused so much. I don't blame Jenn if she never wants to talk to me agian. And I thank her for not throwing the letter away and just returning to sender. I"m so sorry to people I have hurt. I don't know how it happened. I wrote a comment and someone read it and without knowing the story it was taken so far. You have to understand that when I am ranting like that I will think of every little thing to vent about. I was there for this and this and this. Never in a million years would I have imagined someone would or could think that Jenn would do that, which is why it never occured to me that that could be anything bad to write. I'm so sorry. Jenn is a wonderful person and the best friend and wife anyone could ever have. Any person would be lucky to know her, or to have known her at any point in their lives no matter how briefly. --Killer♥Betty
Saturday June 24, 2006
Well it's been a while since I last wrote anything. I'm working at Claires and today was the final last day at subway. I"ve been working both jobs. I hardly have time to breath it seems. What little free time I have had I have slept and hung out with Amber. OH SHIT I FORGOT TO CALL AMBER. Oh well. I hope she has fun on vacation. Anyways, that's all that's really new. Amber's trying to hook me up with her friend Mike. But Mike, although he seems like a good guy, isonly interested in killing his void and having sex. But that's not what I want. So until he's done moved on from his ex I want touch him with a pole of any size. I turned my key into subway and Fred gave me this heartfelt speach and I almost cried, fucker. Other things happened I can't post until OTHER things happen. But I hope it all goes right. Speek soon ya'all. --Killer♥Betty
Sunday July 9, 2006
Catch-up: Fourth of July drunken booboo named well...it has a name. Need I say more? But I don't care. He's really nice, and could be a good friend. I practically live at Ambers now. Things at home are good. My mom and I have been getting along so well. The only reason I go to Ambers so much is cuz it's boreing here. I want a tattoo. I've been CRAVING one. Two acctually. I want one on both of my arms. I jsut don't know what. And i don't have the money for one anyways. I still HATE HATE HATE Claire's and today some nigger came in and cursed me out and I was shaking I was so pissed. I shoulda called security on her. Oh well. So I quit drinkigI realize I have a problem and I don't want it to get too far. So i'm ending t now. I also quit smoke cigarettes and I hardly EVER smke weed. I smoked a couple times for my back cuz I had pulled a muscle but t hats it. I went to Ozzfest a little while ago. Did I post that? Last Friday i think. It was SO awsome. But I got a really bad sunburn haha SO worth it. I also called in sick. I"ve worked SO much lately. And when i'm not working i'm at Ambers. My dad's all sad though cuz I'm never home. But it's SO boreing. Also, I have the best quote of all time: "Let's hope that depo works haha" ROTFL MICHAEL GENE (sp??)My sunglasses broke so I had to buy new ones but they had Cherries now ♥! i saw Jamers at the mall. We had a nice talk and I miss her so much. Lots of love. She told me I have to update this she knows i'm ok lol I didn't even realize people read this. I'M FUCKING LOVED WOOT TO THE MOTHER FUCKIN WOOT WOOT. :) Love you lovers. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Thursday July 13, 2006
So today I worked 8 hours of blow time. Then I got my nails fixed and then I went and saw an old ... friend. I havn't seen him in five years or talked to him in two. We hugged and we both wanted to stay there andjust hug, but the watchful eyes of the judgers were upon us. I was so upset. I hated all of them for being there. But then we talked a little bit. He says that his mom went through his things and threw away my number, but he had my letters hidden. So he still has every single letter. But he didn't have my adress cuz the bitch threw it away. Apperently, when he never called me around the time of his "open heart surgery" his mom had "written down" my new number and Cody kept asking for it but his mom wouldn't give it to us. It's not as though he and I could ever work anyways. For one, he's probably going to go back to texas in a month. For two, his mother, clearly, hates me. For three, while my mom is cool with it, I don't think his grandparents would be. Not that they don't love me, they do. But I don't know. I just think that everyone would be against us. Probably even my father. Meh. Oh well I suppose. It was so cute though, I told him he needed to shave and 2 minutes later he DID. hehe. Ok well that's all there is to report. I"m kinda smilie from our hug goodbye, but I can't hope for much, even though he is a hick from texas who loves country and rock and wants to have a baby and a family someday. :( --Speak soon Killer&herts;Betty
Saturday July 15, 2006
So I did it a-fucking-gain. I've nevver had a guy be so nice to me. And when he kissed me I just felt good. He did everything so soft. I didn't fuck him thouigh. But hen when he pushed my head down...! So I stopped because it sounded like Mike was waking up. Well he had apperently been up for awhile. He stands up and says, "Well don't stop on my account." And walks to the bathroom. I was embarassed I hid my face and cried. He kept rubbing my back asking if I was ok. I wasn't. I'm not. Then mike comes back out and says, "shit i'll watch. It's like a fucking porno." Omg I jsut wish that I was dead. He kept asking if he could kiss me and I said no because I knew I jsut met him and it was a bad idea. But then when he did kiss me, omfg. I told Amber what happened and I can hear them out there becayse amber is yelling at mike. I don't want to leave the room. I just wish I was dead. I want Mike and what's his name to leave and leave it at that. Ok Amber want's the computer. I'm signing off. Speek soon. --Killer♥Betty
Saturday October 7th, 2006
Effexxor:
Looks like i'm going on it starting tomorrow morning.
Time for this Betty to stable herself out and try and be a good girl.
No more hiding and drinking and shit. No more sex, at least not for a little while.
No more depending on other people for my happiness.
No more clinging and needyness.
Time to step up, take responisiblity for my life, and get it together.
IT's been fun, but i'm growing up and things need to change.
I'm done hating the world and blaming life for my shit. I know now that 90% of my problems are my own doing. And I know now that I need to change, I need to grow up.
I think all this time i've been acting like a child, because I never really had a childhood. I grew up so fast, and I never had that fun highschool period, but who needs it?
What matters is happiness and success, success in life and success in my future.
From now on, i'm not going to cling, i'm not going to need. I'm going to grow, i'm going to learn.
I"m going back to school, and i' going to apply myself.
No more binge drinking, it's one thing to have a wine cooler or something here and there, maybe kick back a beer at a bbq, but no more drinking drinking. I"m ready to grow up.
I'm ready to be stable.
No more slutty pictures with my titties hangin out, whose going to respect me like that?
No more tittie shirts, no more sluttiness period.
I"m not going to have sex with anyone I don't honostly care about and plan on a long term relationship, no more kissing on the first date.
From now on, if a guy wants to know me, you'll have to get to know me the right way.
No more being shy to do what I want. No more taking everything to heart. Not everything is a personal attack.
I am who I am and look how I look, and i'm proud to be who I am.
I"m proud to be chubby, i'm proud to be american, portuguese, welsh, german, indian, female, short, eveything I am. Because that's how I was ment to be.
I owe a few poeple apologies, and they will get them...and after this..it's a new me. A better, more intelligent, proud (but not arrogent), me.
I'm excited.
Lets do it!
♥--Killer♥Betty