Ok, so I love my boyfriend very much. I have been with him for almost a year. I had to move away for college but we decided that we were gonna try staying together despite the distance. And everytime I ask him if he misses me he says that he does. But the thing is that I always call him and he never calls me. I even stopped calling him for a week to see if he would call me and he didn't. Whenever I call him he always asks if he can call me later, which he never does. He told me before he left that if there ever is a time where he wants to be with someone else, he would tell me. But I dont know if he really would, because he doesn't want to hurt my feelings. I really want to know whats up. He never wants to talk about us. Am I paranoid? Do I need to take a chill pill? I am so confused. I feel neglected. And because of this, I have started taking interest in other guys. Just looking, not doing anything. But I am starting to get curious. And everytime I do, I catch myself and tell myself not to think like that. I really wish that I could see my boyfriend. That way, we can talk face to face and I can look him in the eye to know if he's for real. I really dont know what to do now.
Other than my dilemma, Kenny is coming in 4 days! Can't wait! Soooooooooooo excited!
It's been so long since I have actually seen someone from my home town let alone my best friend. I really wanna go back home. College life sucks BAD. I knew that it wasn't really my thing. But my parents were so insistant. Oh well, I guess I am stuck here now.