Hi Sweetie,
Yuk! I?ve been feeling pretty lousy over the last couple of days. I?ve been feeling listless and very sleepy in the afternoons?feel almost like I?m going to pass out if I don?t take a nap. Yesterday I skipped the last meeting of our bereavement group, do you believe that? I just felt too tired and out of it to go ? or maybe I didn?t want to say goodbye .. or maybe I didn?t want to go out with them. Whatever, I just wasn?t in the mood. Joanne Melito called to see what happened and I explained to her that I just felt sick and to tell the group I?m sorry. Later on someone called and asked for me, but I told Billy to say I was asleep. So what is this? Am I depressed? I just didn?t want to be bothered.
I have been thinking about how much I want to write and how much you encouraged me to write a ?real? book. I was chatting in a chat room with Coral and told her I felt bad for goofing off and not trying to write. She said that I have nine angels around me saying that I could write three books in five years. LOL! Imagine that. Well, Angels, you?ve got to start pushing on me really hard to get me off my butt and moving!! I just don?t feel like doing anything at all?:P
Hey, you know what? Still haven?t heard from the Women?s Cottage. Someone bid on a personalized message from David Selby, went up to $300 and that didn?t meet the reserve. So someone told her they were just going to put that item up for bid again. Boy, I think those people are being really presumptuous!
I got a letter from your godmother, Milvi Erickson. It was good to hear from her and I will write her back. I think she?d be a great penpal?
Rich, I am so sad today. My eyes fill up with tears when I hear certain songs. I miss you so much. This is a really rotten time of the year to be without you. ?Tis the season to be jolly ? NOT. I try to be strong and then I hit a wall and fall apart. I don?t even know that I?m feel angry. Maybe there is anger under this deep sadness and loneliness?I miss the ?skin? touch but I miss the touch of souls too. No one knows as much about me as you did?and you probably did not even know everything. I feel empty today, empty and drained.