Hi sweetheart,
Here it is Labor Day weekend and you are not here. I was trying to remember how we celebrated Labor Day last year and I just couldn?t. I have been so out of it. I have been really down and withdrawn. I don?t know if it?s just me or missing you?I haven?t felt much like going out anywhere. I did spend a great deal of the weekend trying to clean, thoroughly clean the house. It looks a little better and I feel a little better about it.
The kids were talking about which season they like best of all. I don?t know if I?ll ever feel the same about spring again. Spring is when there is supposed to be renewal and new life?and you died. I just have trouble with it sometimes, my love. That last day just seemed so much like any other day, and there were things that you wanted to do?I know I?ve said this before and I?m just repeating myself. I was supposed to go over to Robin?s but begged off. I actually didn?t feel very well today. Kristin finished up cleaning in our room. I looked at a few pictures of you, thinking how difficult it still is to take in that you really, truly are not coming back. How can this be? It?s mind boggling this weekend.
Rich, I miss you so much.
Love you always,
Me