Hi baby,
School starts next week, and I cannot believe that Labor Day weekend is approaching so quickly! I guess I am glad in a way. I am still in a fog a lot of the time but I know that this is the summer from hell, the worst ever. We had a pretty decent counseling session with Roseanne last night, I think, addressing Heidi?s anger issues and the kids? general lack of respect for each other. I?m hoping we make some progress there.
Heidi?s friend Sharon came over and spent the night with us. I feel bad for that kid but I don?t think I?d ever let Heidi stay over there again?not after what happened in that family. I know it?s not Sharon?s fault but I would never know if that aunt was there or any other weird relative. Poor kid.
Kristin had a really rough time last night, really missing you and crying for a long time. She said she couldn?t sew anymore because she didn?t know how and you used to encourage her. I told her that I wasn?t you but I could help her. She said it wasn?t fair and I agreed with her. It?s NOT fair. It?s NOT fair she didn?t get to give you the Father?s Day gift she made. It?s NOT fair that she didn?t get to share the McDonald?s ice cream tickets she won with you.
The people here at work are so kind. I got a card from five of the women who work here and there was money inside to help buy stuff for the kids. I was so overwhelmed I went into the ladies room and just cried. I am so grateful for the kindness and compassion of people, but oh, God, I miss you so much, Rich. I would much rather have you here beside me. I miss you holding me more than I could ever say. I want to be able to put my arms around you again, even if it?s just once, in a dream that I could remember.
I love and miss you so much, my darling,
Me