Hi sweetheart,
Today I went to a party store and reinflated your get well balloon. I?m not sure why I did it except that it comforts me a little and every now and then when the breeze is right, the balloon flies into my face and I took to kissing the smiling sun as if it was you. I was going to talk over this ADC with you but first I wanted to tell you we are having a nice weekend but my heart aches without you.
Yesterday was kind of laid back. We went to the pool for a little while and that was kind of fun, because Jimmy from next door came. He, Billy, Heidi, and Kristin took turns pushing each other into the pool. It was pretty funny. Last night we went to the mall to do a little shopping and we bought some soft pretzels. We came home and watched Lethal Weapon 2.
Today I?m taking the kids to the children?s museum to see the exhibit commemorating the first moonwalk and then we are going to the Volks? Fest. I think that will be hard. All of your family will be there. I said we?d be there between 2 and 3 and I will stay as long as I can manage. It?s hard to think of being there and seeing everyone?and you aren?t there. I miss you my darling.
More later, I love you,
Me
my posts on widow support board:
I was emailing a friend the other night that I no longer feel "in sync" with
everyone else and that includes my single friends too. That's because the
world is just different, looks different, feels different without Rich.
I am glad I have my kids. They help give me a reason to stay focused.
It will be eight weeks on Wednesday since Rich died and I still
feel...different, like I'm in a parallel time world or something.
This is a good place for support and I found a lot of help here. Keep coming
back