Good morning, sweetheart,
It?s such a lovely day outside. It was beautiful yesterday too. Maybe the rains have stopped for awhile?
I still can?t believe that you are gone. You?d say to me, ?Don?t you leave me with the children.? I didn?t think you?d go?not like this, not this soon. I keep thinking that it?s all a mistake, this just can?t be.
I took the kids to the mall to window shop. Kristin got grumpy because the toy stores and a lot of places weren?t opening until 1. We bought clothes, spent probably too much money on clothes and the kids started to argue in the car and I just lost it.
Later I was okay, I took them to Aunt Joyce?s for over an hour and then we went to Bob and Diane?s for a barbecue.
Now Billy seems to be sick, his stomach hurts and he has a temperature. All afternoon he?s been talking, volunteering himself, coming up with these ideas and inventions?you should have seen him with Diane and Robert?s nephew. He was so good. He held the baby and that child just put his head right down on Billy?s shoulder. And now he is sick.
Heidi?s stomach hurts too, and Kristin says she isn?t feeling well. This is all just so hard, and I think why? Why now? We planned to do so much; I wanted more time with you. I wanted to have more opportunities to talk and just have fun with you. I plan to keep on writing to you. I miss you my darling.