Hi Rich,
Teddy and I have lots and lots to talk about, just like you and me in the beginning. We spend well over an hour, now over 2 hours on the phone ? except for this evening. I called Teddy while I was at the bowling alley with Billy and Kristin (to collect their trophies). We talked about ? hour before the kids were done and I said I?d call him back.
The first time I tried calling him at home. For some reason my number doesn?t show up on his caller ID and asked me to say my name, so I kiddingly said ?Avon calling?. After a moment a canned voice told me my party wasn?t available. I waited about 15 minutes and then called his cell. Maybe my message didn?t get recorded? But I got a voice mail there, too, so I left a legit message. About 10 minutes ago (45 minutes after I made my first attempt) I sent him an email. Hopefully one or the other will get through to him.
Steve O was going to come over so I could fill out an application for more life insurance. It was good to see him because I could tell him all about Teddy. I love Teddy and sometimes I think, man is this too good to be true? I figured I would keep Steve informed because he?s supposed to be keeping an eye on my budget and funds. Speaking of which, I really need to start working regular hours again. I?ve been foolling around too much.
Oh?before I forget, Teddy finally got his title! He went down to the place and just said he wasn?t leaving until he got it. But now I?ve got to make sure I clean the whole house!!!!
Last night when Teddy and I were talking on the phone, I said the song ?Landslide? by Stevie Nicks really meant a great deal to me right now. Teddy pulled up the lyrics and looked at them. I didn?t tell him that ?I?ve been afraid of changes ?cause I?ve built my life around you.? And that?s how I feel, Rich. My life WAS built around you and I?ve felt so lost. I feel, though, that I?m getting ?bolder? and ?older? and maybe I can make these changes now.
And darned if I didn?t hear the song on the radio today before I met Steve for lunch:
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Till the landslide brought me down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
I was on the phone talking with Teddy again. Luckily he?s good about stopping around 9. He gets up at 3 when he has to work overtime and told me that he?s fallen asleep at work a couple of times. Normally he goes to bed at 8 on days he?s got to put in overtime so lately I?ve been drawing the line at 9, and he really likes that.
I am going to see him again on Saturday this time even though he?s got his car because we want to be alone together again. So maybe what we?ll do is trade turns. One weekend a date with kids and another just to us, smooching. It sounds like a plan to me!
Love you,
Me