Hi Rich,
These darn computers are going to drive me nuts. I had trouble with the kids? hard drive and so I set mine up again only to realize that ALL my journals have been erased?maybe it happened when I removed the hundreds of temporary files crowding my hard drive. Who knew it would wipe out all my journals? Luckily I think I have most of them backed up. I might be missing a few days.
I wanted to do an entire entry about the rest of our story. Things are happening so fast here and I really need to do that before I move on. So I will go back to see where I left off and then pick up again. I am moving on ? with Teddy. I didn?t think I would ever feel anything for anyone again and had resigned myself to widowhood. I don?t know what friends and family are going to think and I don?t really care. I arranged to drive out and see Teddy again on Sunday. I?m looking forward to it very much.
Kristin has been a real trial lately. She?s balking, not listening to me, having tantrums when she doesn?t get her way. Heidi feels stressed out, tired and sad. She?s been missing you a lot. I think this is all exacerbated by Ted. But Kristin?well, I think I did spoil her too much. Maybe Teddy can help me get the kids into line.
Teddy and I talk about the future just like you and I did. I don?t know how much longer I?ll be here or Teddy, but I plan on loving and living every minute of the time I have left. Teddy is a precious gift from you and God.
I will always be grateful and will always thank God for blessing me so?that I got to have you in my life for 17 years; that I have our beautiful (but not always so wonderful) children, and that I have Teddy in my life now.
Love always,
Me