Hi sweetie,
Sometimes I just feel that you are so close to me. I?ve been having heartburn the last few days and have convinced myself that I?m dying. Sheesh. I think to myself, I?ve over eaten to the point where my heart is going to give out too. I?ve seriously taken a look at how much I eat and am staying away from the snacky stuff. NOT EASY!
Today I took Girl Scout cookies to XXX, where you worked. Your friends were glad to see you?they miss you, Rich. Your supervisors, Ann Roddenberg and Claire M, and your lunch buddies, Dina and Jennifer spent over an hour talking to me. We played catch up and reminisced about good times. There?s been a lot of changes at XXX since you died, ?downsizing? (lay-offs) and just not bothering to replace people when they leave. It?s sorta sad. I kind of wonder what would have happened with YOUR job. Some of your colleagues who have been with the company for years have transferred to other departments.
Oh?and Teddy began writing to me again and so I?m answering him. I don?t know if this friendship is going to go anywhere. I invited Nancy K, Cheryl, and Dan and Robin over for corned beef and cabbage. Cheryl can?t make it. I hope this will be fun and that I don?t stress myself out over how the place looks.
Going to watch ?The Wizard of Oz? with the kids. Rich, this is so sad?recently I?ve just been getting off the computer earlier and sitting with the kids to watch movies or TV. I think to myself, why didn?t you do this when Rich was alive? And it was because when you were there, YOU kept the kids company and you said you didn?t mind if I was on the computer. Ugh. I wish now that I?d spent less time online.
Always the woulda coulda shouldas.
I love you so much.
Me