Hi sweetie,
The last few days I haven?t wanted to stay on the computer very much. I feel as if I am wasting my time. At the same time, I am annoyed with myself for not starting a story, for not studying the medical terms?I?m really being hard on myself. It was a pretty good day today all in all. I cleaned downstairs, vacuumed and felt better with the way the place looked. Kristin?s friend Rachel came over and I took them over to Brady park for about an hour and a half. We walked around the pond (or whatever it is) and I looked at all the Canadian geese, ducks, and the swans. They looked really graceful. It didn?t really occur to me then, but I saw the swans and the geese in pairs. I wonder what the other bird does when its mate dies? Does it grieve forever or does it find a new mate? I don?t even feel like entertaining the thought anymore. No one could measure up to you, dear. The more I read guys? posts the more I realize that. It felt good to exercise. I wonder if the Paxil is helping me to get up and moving around. I?m not sure?I?m still eating way too many cookies. I have such a feeling of unreality about me. You?ve been gone now 9 months and it still seems so hard to believe! I still have this feeling of it happened yesterday, it happened a life time ago. I don?t like it this way, Rich. I miss you so very much.
Love you,
Me