My head feels stuffed with partial ideas of stories, Rich. I?m just stuck trying to choose between them. Should I work on my fanfiction? Should I work on that one mainstream idea that I had started a couple of years ago? Should I try to make an online serial? I get so many ideas going at one time I stop, unable to function. Feel almost paralyzed. And yet I want to DO SOMETHING and so I feel very frustrated! Which idea should I go with? There?s the Falcon Crest story that Sylvia and I have been working on. I could do that except?how about the Dark Shadows one? Or, better yet, the widow one? I hate the way I feel! Yesterday all I did was copy over widow support posts because it seemed the ?safest? thing to do, there was no thinking to have to do, no decision making. ARGH! And the cable seems to be out on the internet so my means of escape is gone to me. I?m sorta forced into moving in one direction or another. Blah?
I feel so blah?I?m not sure if this paxil is helping or not. I sleep a lot. Feels like a lot of motivation and energy lately has just been sucked away. I?m too tired to battle with the kids, too tired to make them clean up after themselves. It just seems to much easier to give in. They aren?t bad kids, either?maybe just in need of attention?
Help me, Rich. I feel so alone?
Love you,
Me