Hi sweetie,
I don?t know if this Paxil is doing any good. I felt a little hyper yesterday and today, cranky after my nap. Maybe I don?t need to nap? I still don?t feel too much better but I expect it?s too early to tell?it?s only been two days.
This morning I took Billy to a College Partnership workshop and I ended up signing him up for it and the two girls as well. They seem to be kind of like Steve O?advisors, except in the education field. So I got some software for Billy to work on here at home and we?re going to start on the process of getting him through college. And the girls are both able to get into the program for $125 each. Billy?s membership costs almost $1,200 but it?s worth it if they can give us guidance and point us in the right direction for finding scholarship money and other financial aid.
I still have to do the taxes? :( I hate this time of the year. I hope we get some money back because that?s what I?m planning to spend in Florida.
I am at such a loss right now. I want to write?I don?t know what to write. I want to take down the posts from the widow support board. Then I think what for? It does seem to chronicle what I think and so for the time being, while my mind seems to be so fallow I figured that this would be better than nothing?this and making scans of the pictures that have come in recently?I just feel so useless sometimes. I think you should be writing be stories you oughta be doing this?
I need to give it a rest.
I was thinking about quitting interpreting all together now I?m thinking NO don?t give up, just cut back for a little while, then go back.
I?m so confused.
I wish you could help me. Maybe you can?give me a sign, a dream, something so that I know what I?m doing is okay?
I miss you so much, Rich.
I love you,
Me