Hi sweetheart,
Between problems with the computer and going back to work, I?ve become lazy about writing again. I just have to keep trying. I?ve been feeling moments of sadness all week. I?ll think about you and something that we might have done together or I?ll drive by someplace and I?ll think about the last time we were there ? I haven?t had any bouts of crying which might actually help me. I?ve just felt generally blue.
I found out that a girl has been harassing Billy about his weight and even making crude sexual comments to him like ?suck my dick?. Billy never said a word about it himself but his teacher, Mrs. C, called to tell me about it and about how she wasn?t going to put up with it. This girl apparently has ?issues? ? she is the only black girl in the class, lives in a foster home, and HER father died not long ago. So she?s angry. You know what, though? Billy is angry too! And I am at a loss to know how to get through to him. I almost posted on the WN board to get the male POV and then I didn?t because I saw a thread there about heavy women and I felt uncomfortable. Not all the guys were against heavy women but I still decided not to post because that?s one of the problems Billy has?he is too heavy.
So is Heidi. So is Kristin. And me. We?re all way too overweight. I?ve already done some things to try and help us all by not bringing fattening snack foods into the house. The kids are pissed. I feel hassled. I sure could use your help here.
Last night Heidi accused me of not listening. She said she wished you were here and that you would listen to all sides of the story. So I tried. And we made some agreements and compromises I hope we?ll stick to.
I miss you so much, Rich. I think I?ve been covering it up a lot and putting it on the ?back burner? because what else am I going to do? You?re gone, you?re not coming back. I have to make do somehow. But of course I wish you were still here.
Love you,
Me