It?s the last day of a year I?d mostly like to forget, my love. I have spent more months WITHOUT you than with you. Are you with me tonight? Billy made a special dinner for us. We have all the usual New Year?s Eve appetizers and movies ready to watch in a little while. I?ll get through this but it just isn?t the same without you, my love. I miss you. I miss making love with you, holding you, you holding me. The future is unsure ? I can?t possibly say ?it can?t get any worse?. I used to think it, and it DID get worse. I will light a candle for you tonight, my love, and invite you in to be part of our ? what would you call this? Celebration? Observance? Please, sweetie, give me a sign that you are with us and that you still love us?me. I do miss you so.
I?ll always love you ? see you next year?
Love you always,
Me