I?ve had some messages from you, Rich, but am still waiting to see you in a dream! Don?t be stubborn, honey! I really want to see you and talk to you for myself without being passed messages from Coral or Robin?although I am VERY grateful for those?please don?t ever stop coming through any way you can! I love you so much!
We had a great weekend. Were you there with us? We left for your Dad?s house on Sunday, the 23rd?my gosh! I can?t believe I haven?t written since then! I can go back and fill in the holes. Anyway, I was okay until I saw the Throgs Neck Bridge. I had a bit of a tough time with that but driving across I just kept thinking, Rich help me out here, Michael help me out here. I?d gotten an email message from Coral that morning with angel cards and I?d gotten the Archangel Michael to give me courage Well, I managed to get OVER the bridge but then we were headed in the wrong direction! So we had to turn around and then I had to go over ANOTHER bridge, the George Washington Bridge and then I finally felt okay. Sometimes when we are in high places (and your dad lives up high) I could feel panic attacks setting in and I?d calm myself by thinking of you.
Anyway, we got to your Dad?s house before 4 and unloaded the car. The plan was to go out Christmas caroling. Rich, I hope you were there with us because it was fun! I don?t think I?ve ever been caroling before, and I do believe the kids enjoyed it. Afterwards we went for pizza. Later, after the kids went to bed I tried to talk to your Dad and Alberta with the message you wanted to give them. Maybe I did a half-assed job but I do believe your father was listening and understood. I talked to Alberta throughout the weekend while he was in ear shot and I?m sure he heard.
Christmas Eve was VERY relaxing. We talked, read and the kids played with their games until later in the afternoon and then Alberta took the kids and me into town for a walk. Heidi was wheezing and having trouble ? I think she?s allergic to cat fur and they have FIVE now. She took some of Billy?s Advair inhaler and that helped her a lot. Alberta and I got a chance to talk more about the similarities between you and your Dad and between her daughter Debbie and Heidi.
That evening, we went to church service. They go to this new Community Bible Church and it was nice. There were a LOT of young people there. I think Alberta is concerned about the souls of our kids because she was tactfully suggesting I find a church home. She?s right ? and I will look. There were so many people inside the little church that we couldn?t light the candles inside. We had to go outdoors. It was FREEZING!! Afterwards, we walked to a Chinese restaurant and had a delicious dinner?and we laughed about that scene from ?A Christmas Story?, when the neighbors? dogs steal the family turkey and the family has to go out to a Chinese restaurant. Three waiters tried to sing ?Deck the Halls? to them and it was hilarious!
Next day we opened all our presents. Billy played Santa Claus and it was fun. Alberta?s daughter, Debbie, and her husband (another Billy) came out for dinner and to open gifts. Debbie was sick with something too but we all made merry anyway.
Yesterday I took new directions from your Dad and Alberta and we went home that way (it seemed to take forever!). What was really SPECIAL though was that I was nervously anticipating the Throgs? Neck Bridge again and had been fighting waves of panic the whole way, concentrating on you and Michael. Anyway, we stopped at McDonald?s to get lunch and ?Stand By Me? was playing. I thought, I?ll be damned if that isn?t from Rich to me to reassure me!
One time when the song came on I said to you, ?When I hear this song, I think of you.? You were surprised. I added, ?yes, I think you?ll always be there by my side.? And according to Coral and the other psychics, you ARE ? which is what has kept me thinking and feeling positive, my darling.
And Billy has absolutely fallen in love with Milford. He wants to move there ? and so does Heidi! What do you think?
Love you, talk later,
Me