Hi sweetie,
I thought you were going to motivate me to write? LOL?well, I did cancel the spa membership. And today Kristin, Heidi and I went caroling with the Girl Scouts. That was eh for me but fun for Kristin. Heidi was completely miserable, poor kid. She only came along because she thought we?d go someplace fun afterwards so I did take her for some ice cream. I?ve been playing lots of CDs this evening while the TV is one ? it?s been very relaxing.
Last night I went into a candle lighting ceremony with Coral and other people and it was very nice, very emotional. I sat there with tears rolling down my face, imagining you holding me, reassuring me. I wonder if that?s the beginning?what Coral and the others meant by FEEL it ? was it real? Anyway, I felt really warm, really good. I haven?t feel as depressed or as despairing as I have in past days.
I feel like we should go to see Oma tomorrow. It was her birthday on Monday ? 91!
She sent us a lot of money. So did your father and your Uncle George and Aunt Terri ? they all think we?re going to Florida. I just now wrote to Alberta to tell her that we weren?t going? I really am going to try and work on the story. If I don?t do that then at least I?ll work on better journal entries, pull out some pictures and write more memories of our life together. It?s almost Christmas?please come home for Christmas, just for a little while.