mood: tired
music: cappleton



i got my etnies shows today! :-D yes finally! lol i also got high top pink converse . . (i know im a dork u dont have to remind me lol) and umm a sweater at ae a couple of shirts and a bakini at pacsun . . going over pepas house tomorrow! sweet havent seen her all summer lol! so wow who pays 220$ on postage stamps? a loser . . (haha kate jk lol i spent like what 2 on my 20 postcards!) umm what else . . yesterday i went to the movies with rosanna . . i think i already said that . . lol and sarah showed me a picture tonite of johnny depp dressed as a drag queen! thats hott lol jk . . and its official. i have obsessive compulsive disorder. lol now my mom wants me on more medicaton! ok im like falling asleep lol gotta go take a shower and then pack for alis house ill do this in a few days or whatever lol

grrrrr
im so mad that im making myself cry. lol im such a fucking lame ass!!!!! reasons why im so mad im crying . .

1) dylan is bitching about stupid stuff
2) i was SUPPOSED to get my new etnies today but DYLAN ruined all possible plans of me going to the mall to get them
3) my mom gets my hopes up then pisses me off
4) i cant go to the warped tour for the same reason as #3 lol
5) I CANT FALL ASLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP BECAUSE ITS ONLY 7:48!!!

i am so mad. i dont know what to do with myself because i hate feeling like this and i just want it to stop . . ill pass on slitting my wrists tho lol . . on the bright side

i mite see simple plan in kates backyard! lol

what else? only 6 more hours until ill be tired enough to fall asleep . .

and another thing . . i went to pirates of the caribbean today with rosie (a pirate. lol) and if u havent seen it, go see it! its really really really scary and its got orlando bloom and johnny depp in it! lol

pincheee
just got back a little while ago from dinner with my seperate family in mexico lol . . well not really my family but im so close to them whats the difference? my god parents Ely and Margarita but Jenni couldnt come . . they bought me gifts haha and they want me to spend all of christmas vacation and a few days there with them, and vacation in cocoyoc and mazatlan maybe accapulco again. who knows? but my mom mite come hmm and i would get to see alvaro maybe! lastnite he was like "you come to mexico pleeeeease hilaria and meet my mother she thinks you are nice girl!!!!" aww. lol . . i got in so much trouble tho . . me my mom and my dad were on our way home and i dont remember what we were talking about but i yelled pinche, "YOUR MOTHER IS A WHORE" in spanish and dont ask my how but my dad found out what i said!! ahhh!! and he was upset but hes fine now lmfao! hmm what else? uh didnt talk to jeff again today, but my fault absolutely lol . . i mite see sean saturday woo hoo so excited, i miss the busrides! lol . . mm anything else? uh i dont think so lol so byeness! xoxo bessitos y amo

wide awake im bored and i cant fall asleep, and every nite is the worst nite ever
what to write . . my dad left, i guess he moved out for who knows what reason? my mom said he'll be back by then end of the summer haha . . he wants me and my brother to go to westminster and live with him all the time for the rest of the summer but i think hes crazy . . no computer, barely any phone, and a sauna. what possible good is that going to do me? lol . . uh i just dont get men in general. they are so retarded (literally) . . i mean there are a few selected guys who are okay, but it seems like everyone i know is always getting hurt by them. even me but lets not get into that lol . . why cant every parent just stop being _____ (blank, i dont know what to put there haha) and put their kids into therapy, even if they dont need it? lol then the world would be such a better place not to mention easier for me, but give me credit im just starting to realize that the world doesnt revolve around me. soo im going to be alone today until 11:00 pm. ahh i love being alone *evil grin* (wheres moms bicardi?) lol jk . . well on the POSATIVE SIDE OF THINGS (i know you thought you'd never hear me say that lol jk) i lost lots of weight since skool ended (since this week eight in all lol) and my room is almost finished! and i have all my new stuff i got sat. lol soo i will write more later :-D BESITOSSSS

just chillin in my dickies hat! lol
okay so i know that i have had a few of these before but this one im going to try and keep . . im so bored i havent been able to do anything most of the summer because of the redecorating and everything . . but i went to the movies with Jeff on thursday . . (i love him) lol . . then yesterday i went to the mall and um got, lets see *takes deep breath*

4 shirts and 3 pairs of pants from pacsun and american eagle, sandals and a zip up sweatshirt at aeropostale, another zip up sweatshirt at olympia sports, umm . . a dickies hat, a carebear pillow, and 2 cds at Newbury Comics lol another hat at Pacsun (ok its the regular hats with the little rim on the front i think they are so cute lol) hmm what else? uh i think thats it alot tho lol . .
Dylan left today for football camp, a whole week! then i think my mom is taking me to glaucestor sometime soon . . im wicked sad tho . . i cant go to the warped tour with princess, because there are going to be too many people and we're too small to handle it lol . . SO we have to wait until Simple Plan plays another concert . . *but* theres a catch (wipes tears lol) theyre going to be done touring soon and when they do play ma. there probably going to be HUGE shows at the tweeter center and everything! like, NO seating!!! god my life is doomed!!! lol

on the brighter side of things lol . . im trying to hook my friends sean and jill up! they are so cute they already like eachother and they havent even met yet . . im excited i want them to meet soon lol. my friend Jennifer can't come up from mexico because it turns out that she "dropped the ball" on her finals and now can't come because she has to stay in mexico and study to retake the test so she can pass 8th grade!! :-\ . .

soo i guess i will look at myself in my gorgous new atire and feel better! and talk on the phone and watch jill and seans budding romance! haha email me hilary_852@hotmail.com and keep coming ill be adding stuff daily lol

Bessitos y amo xoxo