Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: Bright Lights - Matchbox Twenty
Topic: Crap
It's all over - World Cup has come to and end. I must admit, it saddens me a little. World Cup brings a festive atmosphere to Malaysia. For one month or so, everyone literally lives on football. Employees come in late to work - and need not explain themselves...because the bosses themselves are late! Suddenly girls sit down in the middle of the night to watch 22 men kick a ball. And in the day, we gather to discuss the latest heartthrobs of the soccer field. When a team loses, you can feel the pain of all those who've lost their money to bets. Every other TV programme is frequently interrupted by football commercials. All day long, radio stations commentate on the latest match, while self-declared football analysts call up to give their opinion. Hell, even mobile phone networks send out free text updates on the World Cup situation! This is what Malaysia becomes every four years.

The Battle of the Blues could not have been more entertaining - going into extra time then penalties, and an unexpected headbutt by Zidane! I quote Fariza "Zidane my dear, that's a man's chest. Not a football."

My extended family congregated at my house to watch the finals last night. We linked the Astro decoder to a projector so that we could watch it on the wall - big screen =) . It was truly amusing, having both Italian and French fans around - and THE Italian fan (i.e. my mum) was truly Italian last night. She was screaming and shouting and yelling "Kick it...waht is wrong with you???... aiyo, up into heaven, don't you know how to kick a ball???...stupid boy, you wait for the other team to come and then you expect not to lose it?... what are you doing? you think this is gymnastics uh? use your foot!" etc.

Malaysia's love for football is truly amazing. I mean, our team can't even play for nuts - and yet, we are all die-hard fans? (Well ok, most of us.) I mean, how many countries will you find nightclubs putting up screens to showcase football? Or public transport extended just to service football fans staying up till 3 a.m. to watch a match?? All this to watch completely foreign teams compete for a golden trophy!

I admit, I am not a true football fan. Here and there, I pick up a bit about what is going on between european leagues - but when it comes to World Cup, I suddenly convert into a full-fledged football fool. It's amazing how much my knowledge of football grows within this season - only to be forgotten in the next three years. But do not worry, all this knowledge will resurface at the next World Cup. It's like it hibernates in my subconscious for 3 years, and then makes a brief appearance for the world's most prestigious football tournament.

Oh dear, my laptop battery is running out! I've been ranting too much on football...so before I lose my entry, ta-ta!

Men in uniforms don't always fit into a fantasy ...
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Where does the good go? - Grey's Anatomy Soundtrack Album Artist
Topic: Crap
Yesterday, while waiting for the bus to Kilburn, a pleasant sight caught my eye.

Right accross the street was a handsome young man, stylishly dressed, sitting comfortably in an expensive-looking cabriolet while casually chatting on his phone. It was picture perfect. I had to feast my eyes. The sun bounced off his red drop-top and I could tell he knew I was watching. And he was enjoying it. But I couldn't care less. He was a stranger, it didn't matter if I boosted his ego for a while. Besides, all my mind could scream was "FIT GUY! COOL CAR! I WANT!!!!!"

And then the worse ending to any fairy-tale came. Two policemen on their motorbikes suddenly appeared next to him, and suddenly his convertible didn't look so shiny after all. Was it my imagination - or did it get slightly shadier ??

The police made no attempt to be discreet. One bellowed loudly at the man for talking while driving, and neither gave a second glance to the trail of traffic they were holding up. The hawt guy was obviously more than embarrassed, and I tried to turn away ...you know, to be polite. But I couldn't!! I was transfixed!!!

Ouch ouch ouch. Stupid police. Why did you have to disrupt the closest thing I've had to a real-life fantasy?? GRrrrr...

On a different note, enjoy your summer, all of you at IC. Get out, get a tan, bask in the sun, don't waste any moment! Cause you know the next 9-months you have in this dreary city will give you very little sunshine. I want to see each and every one of you with a nice brown tan in October, ok ??

And for those back in Malaysia - wheeeee... your fat-ass friend is making her way home!!! Can't wait to see you guys!!!

I'm going where the sun keeps shining
Through the pouring rain
Going where the weather suits my clothes
Backing off with the North-East wind
Sailing on the summer breeze
Tripping over the ocean
Like a stone
-The Beautiful South, "Everybody's Talking"

It's a small world ...
Topic: Crap
Yesterday, the weirdest thing happened. Ok ... perhaps not weirdest, but it definitely tops my list of freaky encounters.

I bumped into Justin at church yesterday!!!!!

For the benefit of those who don't personally know him (which is the vast majority!) - he is a campfriend I met when I was thirteen years old! He lived in Ipoh which is in another state from where I live - but recently moved nearer to me.

We keep in touch intermittently - and to think that we'd meet up 600 miles away from home? Sometimes the weirdest things just happen ...

And to add, Justin claims that "When I entered the church, I thought to myself: Wouldn't it be ironic if this was Selina's church?" Ironic indeed.

~Still recovering from shock that I met a 'childhood-cum-teenagehood' friend all the way over here!

No sleep tonight
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: The Faders - No sleep tonight
Topic: Crap
It's 5:29 a.m. and I have been up since 9:00 p.m. Judging from the fact that I have a 9 'o clock mechanics tutorial, the song playing right now seems extremely appropriate :P .

I seriously do not know what is wrong with my body clock. The five or six daily hours of bedrest I get is often spent tossing, turning and doing a whole hokey-pokey routine while lying horizontal. And in the odd moments that I do catch some shut eye, I am haunted by uneasy and nervous dreams. Furthermore, this doesn't always happen at night.

Whatever it is, I am neither working on London nor Malaysian time ~ so perhaps my soul is wandering the nations of America.

According to Science, your body-clock is light-activated. A small cluster of brain cells in the hypothalamus are in-charge of keeping routine. As it gets darker, these cells stimulate the production of the hormone melatonin which makes you feel sleepy...and in the mornings, the exposure of your retina to light leads to a decrease in melatonin. Hence, you feel less sleepy and wake up!

Either scientists have deeply misinterpreted the body, or I must have a mutated hypothalamus... because it seems like the bright sunny afternoons put me to sleep rather than vice versa. In fact, I reckon the exposure of lecture notes on the retina is what stimulates melatonin production in me!

And on a slightly more curious note - does our body clock then vary according to season? Since the days are getting longer and nights shorter - shouldn't we be sleeping less? There probably is an explanation for this but I can't be asked to look it up ...

There goes 8 months of my hard work ...
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Matchbox Twenty - Bed of Lies
Topic: Crap
FUCK. I deleted my "IC" (for Imperial College) folder. And when I say "deleted"..I do mean deleted deleted...i.e. deleted from recyle bin deleted. Yep, that's right. There is no hope unless I am willing to fork out a good 30 quid for some program I will probably only use once.

*SIGH* I feel so depressed and although Bear sent me many cyber-scribbles and weird emoticons to make me feel better - I am still so fucking depressed. All my important files were there! My projects! My assignments! Coursework!! (Malaysian juniors next year will just have to rely on Alina's coursework, bleh :P) My Msoc stuff! Even my SSETI reports... (I am going to have to do quite a bit of explaining to the new pres!! Dahlah I usually forget to turn up for their meetings..or conveniently come an hour late..they are so gonna kick me out of their club!!!!) You're wondering - right - how the hell did I manage to do such a stupid thing?? Well, in an attempt to free-up diskspace (this is what happens when you download too much...Alina..I am warning you.. lol) , I THOUGHT I copied the folder to another directory and so I deleted what I thought was the "shortcut" . DAMNITTTTT...instead, I saved the shortcut and deleted the folder!!!!! So today when I opened the folder, it kept "browsing" .

AISHHHHHH.. *Selina pulls hair out*

Anyway, in an attempt to ease my depression, I made myself a nice cuppa coffee and went blog-browsing. (Chris Tock sent me his blog link and I discovered a wholeeee newwww set of blogs to browse through, hehehe). Anyway, I came accross a simple but interesting post written by May :

Good night
There's nothing in the world like the feeling of knowing one can deservingly go to sleep after a long day of work. It's the inviting warmth that lies between my sheets and my duvet, that final relieving shift of weight from feet to bed, my soft-toy dog Capuccino's perfectly-rounded black eyes beckoning at me, the curvature of my spine settling snugly into the contours that have formed on my bed over time, that somewhere-over-the-rainbow which begins right on my pillow.... *happy sigh* (= Though one may have to rise early again the next morning, though yet another work-packed day awaits; whatever burdens and whatever cares... when bedtime comes, the whole world is put right again.

It is nice to know at least some people are getting decent rest!!!! Do you guys feel this way when you head to your bed?? I don't! :( And I feel left out!! I mean, I love my bed to bits and all ... but it seems like the last few minutes I spend awake in my bed ... well, usually chaotic thoughts are running through my head - list of things I need to do, stuff I need to learn, formulae I forgot or mixed up, assignments due.. *sigh* And it does not help that I have a really messed-up bio clock that is running on 2 different time zones. (And I suspect neither are London time...)

But back to the point, I really enjoyed reading May's Blog. She doesn't really write about anything much - nothing particularly interesting or thought provocating, but the way she phrases her words is just so... melodic!

Oh, word of warning : I am in a blogaholic mood today. And I don't know if the quality is up to its usual standards, though. *winks at peter*

Anyway, today I was as usual wasting time. Isn't it strange how we manage to perfect this skill right about the same time we're running out of it?? But not to digress... so, I decided to pull out the CD collection I brought along from Malaysia and rip them into mp3s. ;) So while ripping, I came accross loadsa CDs I had burned last year (I was a burnaholic in A-levels!!!). Needless to say, it brought back a flood of memories - and I was expecting this..but what I did not expect was how powerful some songs can be.

When I broke up with David, I also happened to go into this obsessed-with-Lifehouse-phase. (I think it was just the fact that their album was out when the heartbreak hit me :P) So, as you probably worked out, Lifehouse's "You & Me" album reminds me very much of him.

So anyway, when I played that CD today and my trusty iTunes played the first track ... the strangest thing happened. It was like the music suddenly time-ported me into those lonely August weeks when I (sometimes) cried myself to sleep. The pain was so real, I was almost brought to tears.

Strange, innit? I mean, the power of music is really amazing at times. A single rhythm can say so much more than words, and bring back so much more memories. (Haha, I know, here I go whining abt the past again. I'm like an old lady... *lol*.) But I mean, i know for sure that I am over David - I've recovered from the pain, we're on good terms and I've no regrets. Yet the strum of a guitar can still hit some sensitive chords that I thought had disappeared :P

So o.k. Still feel like blogging but have nothing really interesting to say.

And I hardly get feedback too. :(
*HINT HINT*

Sunshine blues
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Always be my baby - Mariah Carey
Topic: Crap
Yesterday I woke up, looked out the window and a shock of adrenaline rushed up my spine. I must've overslept! I thought to myself, judging from how bright and sunny it was. But a very long look (in disbelief!) at the clock relaxed my nerves - it was only 6.30 a.m.

Yes, it was freakin' bright for 6.30 a.m. And this morning, I woke up sweating... all the signs that the summer is finally here! *grins* I could not be happier! Although the very long, bright days often confuse me, and as it is, my bio clock is already messed up...(I am convinced I am working on a 30-hour-day system!!!! I take longer to fall asleep...and sleep a lot longer too :P) .. but despite all that, the cheery warm atmosphere is a welcome change!

But I hate the fact that while Mr. Sun is shining brightly outside, I'm forced to stay indoors and study study study. It's just unfair. They should have exams somewhere during the autumn/winter so that we'll be happy to stay inside, warm up by the heater and curl up studying with a nice big mug of hot chocolate. (Ok well, we may not be happy to curl up studying....but you get my drift :P)

And I also hate the mech-engers for finishing early! Soooo unfair... while they get to dance in the sun, we're still couped (spelling?)up inside with our books. Yeesh. UNFAIR. And they even get to go see goo goo dolls!!!

UNFAIRNESS TO THE MAX. I mean... Bon Jovi in London.. Goo Goo Dolls in London... and I have to freaking study???? Yes, that's right. Bon Jovi & Goo Goo Dolls are coming here in the summer but unfortunately, their concert dates clash with my exams!!!! Evil evil Bioeng department. I reckon they did this on purpose. They probably liased with Goo Goo Dolls' & Bon Jovi's people and conveniently placed a string of exams in both those week!! They are just out to make our lives miserable ... I knew the awesome timetable was some sort of decoy .. they can't be that nice!!

By the time my exams are over - I don't even know if Mr Sun will stil be present, knowing London's weather. Thank God the sun always shines in Malaysia ;) I'm looking forward to the summer - 3 months of guaranteed sunshine!!! Malaysians have no idea how great they've got it!!

Photos!!!!!
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Crap
Hey ppl!!! Pictures of my Germany Tripare FINALLLLYYYY up... ;)
So click on "My Photos 2" and click on the only album that's there! (Exhausted my photobucket account edy, lol!)

Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Today - Joshua Raidin (lurve this song!)
Topic: Crap
Wheeeee.... I'm in a really good mood today because :

1. I have an AWESOME timetable this term.
2. My parents are coming next week!!!!
3. Next wednesday, I'll be in Chinawhites - happy, and hopefully very drunk. Hehehe.

YESH...the place to be next wednesday night is Chinawhites! Watch me grow old and turn legal!

Man, I know I always rant about how time flies..but seriously, I cannot believe how it just slips through your fingers. I mean, it's like time has this race against itself - constantly trying to outdo how fast it can go and break it's own record!

I can't believe I'm so old!
And I can't believe my easter break is ending!!! That can only mean one thing - exams are looming close.... *jitters* ... MCD on Tuesday. Jeetje. Let's hope I can quote all those immunoglobulins and sarcomeres in the right way.

It hasn't helped that I have spent 70% of my easter break having fun - be it in Dublin, Germany, France, Luxembourg or just London. (Photos will be up soon, I promise!)

But let's go back to what put me in this great mood to begin with.

I HAVE AN AWESOME TIMETABLE. OKlah.. awesome is relative to the crap IC gave me for the last 2 terms. Having had classes from 9-6 daily in the autumn and winter trimesters - this rather relaxed schedule is a welcome relief. ;) Not only do I end at more earthly hours (like 3 or 4 pm. i know this may not sound earthly to most ppl...) - I don't have classes every week! As in..they alternate and some days I don't even have to come in at all. Unfortunately, the extra time on my hands is probably well-needed for some intense revision!

But for now, I HAVE AN AWESOME TIMETABLE.

Hahahaha. For once, Time, you're on my side!!! ;)
Stay that way, ok!!

My Addiction
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: The Hardest Thing - 98 degrees
Topic: Crap
I just finished watching an episode of Sex & The City. Yes, I have returned to my addiction - 3 episodes in one day. (Season 3 - i haven't watched it yet!) I'm making up for the long drought that began in June 05. (That is when I stopped watching SATC).

Oh well, the episode was "No ifs, ands & butts" - which dealt with Carrie's addiction to cigarettes. Basically, it made her realize just how addicted she was to cigarettes - that she was willing to dump a guy for them!

And speaking of addictions ~ I can understand just how she feels. I mean, I ain't hooked on the ciggies, but I know (as many of you do too) just how hooked I am on caffeine. In particular, coffee. I know, i know, everyone tells me tea has more caffeine in it but it just somehow doesn't do the trick for me. I do not function without a daily dose of coffee - and you would be surprised just how big that dosage is! Yes.. I am an addict.

I'm sure if you know me well enough - I need not convince you. But just in case, some of you haven't gotten to know me as well as you should, I shall call upon a few witnesses :

1. Qian - my best mate back home in Malaysia. She got me a thermos with my name engraved on it as a farewell gift before I left for Holland. And her little note that accompanied the present said "I know just how much you love your coffee."

2. Sinthi - another bestmate from college days. She will tell you how I religiously bought coffee from the vending machine in Block A. (Those were one of the few good machines around that actually vended good, proper, STRONG coffee!). And when they shifted the A-Levels department over to Wisma Perdana and somehow forgot to shift that blessed vending machine along ... I religiously lived off the ice coffee from Kiosk. (I had to buy the "dark" flavour, coz the other ones weren't strong enough!)

3. Alina - I think I have made her popular enough on this blog! Anyways, just in case, one of my best unimates. (And to which, my liking for her increased after the incident that follows, hehe). Alina, being the loyal friend that she is (or perhaps she just found me too cranky) walked all the way from MDH right up to Beit in the freezing cold during one of our many MNite rehearsals just so that she could get me a cup of coffee.

4. Peter - who everytime, without fail, tells me "That cup just amazes me with how much coffee it can fit!" whenever he sees me pour yet another cuppa.

But I reckon the best witness of them all will be Veronica AKA Chan Hoi Ga. Oh well, this will need a little background update. This week, I have been cruelly exposed to the fact that I am just too damn fat. Well ok, actually I've known this fact for quite a while but only this week did I actually decide to take some action! And so I came up with this rather drastic diet - I ate nothing before dinner. (Note: Coffee is not included in "nothing" in my dictionary.) And so Choi Ga asked me "You are willing to starve the entire day but you still drink your coffee?"

And the answer is yes.
It probably gives me just as much calories if I even ate just a sandwich for lunch. (Yes, that's how much freakin' coffee I drink!)
But I'd rather give up that sandwich than my coffee.

Why?

I love my coffee. And I don't love that sandwich.

It's amazing how much you are willing to give up for your addiction. And I wonder, if I was faced with the same situation as Carrie - if I would choose coffee over boyfriend? I always thought that if you like someone enough, you'd be willing to compromise. But would I compromise my coffee?

But you know what's the bright side of this all? I'm pretty sure there's no guy out there who would make me give up my coffee. :D

Thank heavens!

So yeah, if Prof Weinberg is right about the effects of coffee - I'd probably die of atrial fibrilation at 35.

But hey, at least I'd die happy.

Happy Easter everyone!! Enjoy your easter break - and all you IC nurds..don't study too hard!!! I know the library is open 24 hours ~ but please, don't be one of them who actually lives there!

Sleeping Beauty
Mood:  lazy
Topic: Crap
Hey just to let you konw, I've updated my pics. I've added more to MNite ~ gotten some from Louis (the official photographer) .. and they are excellent photos!! So clear and nice!!! Also, pls note, Colin's name is spelt with a single L (and his album has so been corrected).

Besides that, have also put in an album for March. I just realized, when adding the photos .. all the pics in March are of me!! Hahahaha. Seems like I'm some camera whore!!

I promise you, one fine day I will blog abt politics!! All the elections going on in campus right now has inspired the blogger in me! Unfortunately, the blogger is being surpressed by other factors i.e. Selina partied too hard last night AND made it to 9 am lectures ON TIME (see! U can be a nurd and have fun!!) therefore Selina must get her beauty sleep before the magic spell wears off and the truth about her horrifying physique is revealed!!!! (Hey, u can hardly blame me for dabbling in such unholy habits ... the magic spell only got me this far...imagine if i hadn't used it at all??? )

So well..off to have a love-affair with my bed!
Niterz ...