i went to the gym today for the first time in a long time. i decided to take it slow. so i walked at a pace of 3 mph for an hour. not bad for the first day back. i didn't push myself. i went at a comfortable, yet effective, pace and felt really good afterwards.
while i was there there was this man and his two adorable little girls. they were both clad in their limited too get-ups and pigtails. they seperated by no more than two years. yet, one girl was thin while the other was chubby. both of the same family. both of in their limited too. both in pigtails.
i was wondering about that little girl while i was on the treadmill. i wondered if she endures teasing from her friends and classmates. i wondered if she worried that she may not be as thin as her older/younger sister. i wondered if she lived a carefree life. i wondered if she would grow up to be a thin adult.
i saw a lot of myself in that little girl. i saw the belly, the chubby cheeks and the pigtails.
i pray for every little girl. i pray that they are able to live lives where the issue of weight isn't pushed on them to the point of eating disorders. i pray that they are able to experience a childhood where they can be kids and not weight obsessed ones. i pray that they grow up to not have to worry about heart disease, diabetes or high blood pressure.
i was a chubby girl with pigtails. i grew up to be a fat adult with highlights.
yesterday's progress: i had yogurt, a banana, an apple, a salad, 2 samoa cookies, a subway sandwich and a frozen yogurt. i didn't exercise.
today's progress: i had an apple, a handful of pretzels, 5 reduced fat lemon girl scout cookies, three taquitos, black beans, and lemonade (bad, i know!). i exercised for an hour.