WTF
Mood:  accident prone
I AM SUCH A FAT LOSER! How is it that after over 2 weeks of being so disgusting, all I can do is eat? I keep telling myself that I'm not going to eat for the rest of the week or the month or whatever and nothing ever changes (except the size of my ASS). I'm going to have to resort to somthing a lit more drastic...like with consequences if I can't get to a decent weight be not eating....I'm pretty sure I'm 120 pounds..that TEN FUCKING POUNDS since christmas...I'm such a fatty I can't get over it. This girl at my school makes me hate myself even more because besides being GORGEOUS she has freaking pins for legs and her face has gotten a lot thinner lately...bitch....Today at school was terrible because I KNEW I'd gained weight lately but I dragged myself there anyway. This girl is TINY and she makes me feel AWFUL about myself. And I just realized that if so many people noticed when I lost that 20 pounds before, they sure as hell are going to notice 10 pounds of fat hanging around my ass and taking over my face....I'm so disgusting. I wish I could just disapear for a month or however long I need to lose this weight..at least so I can get back to 110. If I could just be 110 by February 1st I would be ESTATIC!! Then, picture day at school is the second week in February so that means I have until the 14th to try and lose at least another 5 pounds. hey, how hard can that be..really? I know I keeo saying that, but I am going to figure out a way for me to stick to my plan.

I am not going to eat anything over the weekend.