In a few short months...and definitely by the end of the year, I would not be in Little Rock, AR anymore. More than likely, I would be back in San Diego again. Or if there was a surprise coming, I would be back in Manhattan. I was not sure yet due to money (not to mention) a job being a factor.
But in light of some sad news...and the realization that I've overstayed my welcome...and the fact that there's nothing here for me in Little Rock, it was good to see me motivated again.
Today was great. I had found out a few days ago that DARKENED SOUL and HE AWAITS...had both been rejected from the potential publisher that I had sent it to. I was surprised since there had been so many responses to the open call, and the publisher thought that it had a lot of great responses that they were going to get to in personal emails. So seeing that standard reply? Just...ugh.
My laptop had died again, a combination of my temper and an installation problem. With that gone, and little hours, I have had to go back to the library and use my computer time when I could. With that in mind, I had gone through my writer folder again. I had leads. They were leads that I had spent today going through.
What does my gut say?
It said that DARKENED SOUL should be self-published. It had the concept. It had the possiblities. It had short stories. Apparently, from the many times I have had to submit it, it was maybe too much of a hybrid. It was horror. It was sci-fi. It was dystopian fantasy. Maybe the publisher just did not get it or its market...even when it was spelt out in a cover letter.
Fine. Let's see how the world felt about that.
Did that mean that I should pass by traditional publishing?
As I went through my old folder, I found some new leads. I had an idea for HE AWAITS again. I had been on computers all day and I now had a new idea for PICTURES OF A JADED BITCH. I felt excited.
I could only hope that by this time next year...I would be where I wanted to be.